Memory...

My mind is still set on last weekend. I am still wondering what in me that's really being 'triggled'. Friends were asking me what happen and I couldn't find any 'valid' answer to give. I only remember, I don't really like 'this feeling' that I had... Oh, wait... yes.. I had this same feeling years ago. It was during the conversation with a friend that reminded me of the one and only evening that my friend were dragged by me without notice, to Putrajaya for hours, until 3am the next day. I am sure this friend of mine do not know the reason behind until today. I remember I was asked the question once, but answer was never given until today. The only thing I said was "Don't ask, just drives me around." Well, I am glad that this friend was good enough to drives me all the way to Putrajaya, and we stayed there for the whole evening. We talked about some other things that evening instead of the issued I faced. It's hours we were there doing basically, NOTIHNG. hahaha... Now, it has turned to be a good memory... and also a painful experience.

A good memory because I know whom I can rely and/or trust on when I needed a friend. It's so painful because of what I experienced then and it haunted me last weekend. I believe I am still hurt and unhappy about it. I too know, it will be IN me even though I doesn't look or sound like it affects me. Seriously, last weekend's experience was more severe then the previous one as I have no one to turn to. However, I was glad that, some really good friends do called up and entertained me, although there's one unwanted guest.

The result of last weekend however was not as severe as the previous incident though, even though it does have its impact on me, strong and hard... or may be, it's too early to say. hahaha...

- Memory -