Choices...

Looks like an adult human being is always been bothered by 'choices' throughout his/her life. Somehow, I have no idea when was the first time I started to make my choice. More so, I can't remember on what matter I need to choose. It could be whether to eat chocolate ice cream or strawberry ice cream? It could be whether I want to go toilet now or later, etc. etc. From those small tiny little decision making, as age advanced, I am to make a bigger decision when I got older and older (everyday's process). More often then others, now a day, is I don't like to make my choice.

Some people always wonder how I make my choice. Some based on their feelings. Some based on their needs. Some based on whether they feel comfortable or not and some, they asked 10 people for their opinion and take the majority answer as his/her answer. Whatever, however it is.... we still can't run away from making that choice.

3 weeks ago, I was being left to have no choice. Then slowly, I was given 1 and now, I am getting more choices. I am not so sure if it is more choices or less is better for me. But one thing I am sure.... that I shouldn't make any choice with my own understanding and ability, but, I must focus on that very one question: "what God wants me to do."

I checked this website out recently (http://www.ijm.org) and seriously, I guess somehow it stirs my desire..... the desire to serve God with my professions, the skills and talents God has given me all these years. Of all the choices I was given today, somehow I am not sure why, .... I am praying that my application will go through though... of course it's all up to the Lord to decide ... :) But why ah?

- Choices ... -

Kids therapy

It's a week full of works and stress and uncertainty, etc. etc. and with the long distance driving, half of the worries gone (that's why I always went out and drive for an hour or two when I was down). Well, imagine a 13 hours of drive with 3 stops in between... it's tiring but it's good enough to help me to overcome the stress I had. Upon reaching home even before I enter into my house, I heard shouting from the house, my dearest niece called "gu gu, do you want a tiger biscuit". It's 7:30pm and I was not only tired, but hungry and hearing that offer from my dearest niece, how can I say no? She rushed to the table, took a piece and rushed to me and said, "come, eat it!". I did accordingly and when the door is open (my dad opened it), I asked her if she can bring my mug to the kitchen, she did as told. How nice... and then.... my nephew started her 'stories'. First of what they had, then of what they are having, and he keeps updating me with informations and informations and what he learned, what he has been doing and what his sister has been doing and likes, etc, etc... until I said, "Alright, I am very tired and I need a shower" and they allowed me to go upstairs. I went into my room, came out with my clothes, closed the door and went into the toilet and then... i heard some sounds... they were giggling... and so, I open the toilet door, and saw the two of them wanted to go into my room. Well, they were stopped by my brother of course. hahaha... so, i asked them why they want to enter into my room and they wanted 2 things. First, my violin and secondly, my tigger. Well, since they were stopped by their father, i went for my shower and they were ordered to go downstairs. After my shower and dinner, I played 2 boardgames with my nephew and niece and we had lots of fun. I went to bed earlier that night as I was extremely tired. I woke up the next day, playing with them in the morning and went to Tawau Hill Park with my parents and them. It's a nice time seeing them running around in the jungle. Unbelievable, my niece is more brave than my nephew. hahahahahaha.... After church service on Sunday, I went back home and went to my room, until my niece knocked my door, came into my room, played my violin and played with tigger. It's a 3 very tiring hours I had with them, but seriously... having them around, I have not even a second needed to think about the problems I am facing. I don't even need to reach the 'thinking' stage. The only thinking I need to go through is when they started to ask me questions. Ghoosh, they even made my dad find a very small town in South Africa with them. hahahahahaha... what more when I have to rescue the cats? Well, I am glad, I bought them 2 bottles of bubble blower... they had lots of fun with it and they enjoyed it very much. They will have about 15 minutes playing with it every day after each meals. Cool ai? hahahahaha....

So ya.... I am glad I have them around last weekend. I will see them again tomorrow as it's my nephew's 6th years old birthday! This time, I will be bringing them their presents.

- Kids therapy -

Dilemma!

Many says being the youngest in the family, you have all the privileges and more, if you are a girl. Well, my experiences tells me, that's not true at all. Being the youngest in the family, I always get bullied and at all time, I am being misunderstood. Hmm... may be only in my family? Since both my parents and my brother are the eldest in their family and hence, they have not being able to understand what the younger sibilings think? Whatever...

First it was the court which upset my schedule and then, my dear brother. Well, they always think and my parents think the same too, that my brother has a very busy schedule which we all needs to suits into his schedule when it come for a time of gathering. Well, obvioiusly I have no 'excuses' like a family, my husband's schedule, my children's schedule to be used on requested for the 'best' time, but... I have no idea why is his schedule is harder and complicated then mine.

See, since the day I realise I need a nice diary in hand to motivate me to work harder, I got myself a new one last Saturday. I was transferring all the dates into this new one. Even though this is the 2nd/3rd week of January, I took about 2 hours to get all the informations transferred to the new one. It's say to be MY diary but in actual fact, it just a diary with all the court dates on - dates fixed by the Courts, according to THEIR diaries. Being practised in Kuala Lumpur for a few years, I used to the methods of asking the Court to fix a date of my availability (no, you can't do that in KL anymore I heard) because generally, one firm will have 20 cases a day and it's just too 'risky' to get another case fixed on the same date. I seldom ask the Court to give me a date which suits me because I know how many cases a court has in one day, unless it is necessary. I remember being scolded by a High Court Judge last year when I told him, I have another matter on the same day. I remember a case of mine was struck out because I wasn't present for it and I am still fearing that I will be sued, etc. Oh well... to many, it's just a date, it's just work. Ask someone in the office to cover it. Well, ... if that's as easy... I wouldn't have the problem now when my schedule is upset.

Well, what I have to tell you is, I was 'summoned' to go home for a longer period of time then weekend this coming weekend, simply because my sister in law have to come to KK for some discussion between 14 to 18th. Four days of discussion...? No other time can be allocated? Well, I give them the benefit of doubt, that there's no other time but they do have to understand I too have a packed schedule too. It's not about 'arranging' like what they did and I am off from work. So, yes... I am still thinking if I should come back after the weekend and then go back again on the 20th, to just celebrate my nephew's birthday. Oh yes... they requested me to be there for his son's birthday and also because my dad want a family photo. So... !!! Now, it all depends on whether the agent of this client will be able to provide for me the documents I requested by this week. If no, ... hmm... I don't know... !

- Dilemma! -

Moral from FarmTown

Oh well, many do know I am playing farm town and it's since the invitation of SC, I started to play Farm Town (FT). As SC is doing account, I follow her advise in this game. We usually planted seeds that will ready to be harvest after 3 to 4 days (simply because we are all very busy with works and no time for FT) and the 'coins' or money which we will receive, is greater than those which will be ready to harvest for 1 days or less then a day. The system of FT changed a few times. Intially, you get points for harvesting and also plowing, but FT improved and now, you can only earn points by plowing and planting, but not harvesting. I have been playing for almost a year now and throughout, with whatever changes they implemented, nothing affect me so much.

Only a few months back, I realise a few more friends also playing FT and they are trying to overtake me. Well, I must again stress this, that because I have been planting seeds that only ready for harvest for 3 to 4 days, I earn a lot, but my point (lack of harvest and plowing) is not as much as my friends. I struggled for a while, thinking that I only have $700,000.00, but later, when I checked again, it's $7,000,000.00 instead. I moved forward (level) quite fast and I am now, reaching the final level and I still have about $3,000.000,00 after all the lands, houses, luxuries and I have purchased.

The Moral of this Farm Town is that, we should lives like this, hard working, struggled in the beginning, and after that, even with 'changes' around, obstacles in life, etc, we will get through it.

Unlike some of my friends, I realised they have yet to buy their second piece of land until now, simply because they are not focusing correctly in the beginning. Yes, they overtook me, but that's for a while.

So, I must remind myself these days, that even I have to struggle hard now and wait for the good days to come, I must still work and continue to work and work and work... and when I got through this, everything will be fine until the end.

- Moral from Farm Town -

10 years ....

I was sick on new year eve and so as it in the year 2000. Oh well, at least, I managed to celebrate the new year in 2000 and then went to bed and slept through until my housemate knocked my door and woke me up. This year, same thing happen and I woke up cranky instead. Oh well, that's me, isn't it?

I was talking to a friend whom I know when I first came back from England. It's a friend of a friend call S and this friend is call LW. I was chatting with LW about a case which I intended to pass to her earlier on and the conversation somehow went to a news LW received about a friend, who is a Sabahan and who happen, it's someone I know. And we somehow admitted that time flies.. and the conversation slowly gone into the house we used to stay at SS3, Seapark, Petaling Jaya. Oh well, she told me the owner intend to sell the house (bangalow with nice pond and garden) and a banner is placed outside the house, calling for purchaser. I was curious to find out somehow, how much that house worth, not because of it's size, but because it is a haunted house. hahaha... yes. I almost forgot, but I am sure people whom know me and where I was staying then, do know which house I am talking about, the "haunted house".

I ended up staying at this haunted house because a friend's husband (boyfriend then) was staying there and he just got a job in Singapore and so, he thought it would be nice for me to stay there, after all, its location is quite strategic and it's cheap. I was introduced to the chief tenant, Anne on my arrival and she has taken my number and she off for work. With nothing to do, I walked my way to SS2, where all my cousins and friends were staying. It's very unusual that I received call at about 7pm from Anne asking me if I will go home that night and what time I will be going home that night. Oh well, my friend then has to tell me that house is haunted. With no fear at all, I didn't bother much. I stayed there a few years. hahaha...

No. I have not seen anything nor hear anything. But my housemates did. My my mother and my brother who came and visit me, said they did feel something too. Oh well, as I was chatting with LW on this matter, she too recalled a few incidents of the existing of the 'ghost' in that house.

But, that's about 10 years ago. Can you believe it? It's already 10 years ago... 10 years ago, I just came back from England, just about to start working at Rockwills Corporation Sdn Bhd. and a legal firms. Wow, and until now, I have been working with at least 4 legal firms now... time flies indeed and I can't think of anything that I can really proud of. Hmm... it's a pretty bad feelings huh?

Oh well, but it does shows God's faithfulness. He sustained me for years... unbelieable! I am still alive!

- 10 years -

A friend whom I must remember...

Ya well, it's the 2nd day of 2010 and it's a good friend, Lisa Kong's wedding! Well, I must write something about today because she's the first few people I know in Christ Church Likas when I first came over and she has been a friend whom really brought joy in part of my life. She has play a very significant part of my stay in Christ Church Likas. Of course she is not the reason why I am at Christ Church Likas, but she has somehow made my life easier in Christ Church Likas. Her family has been a blessing to me too! So, ya... hence, I want to congratulate her through this ... to share together with her of her happiness and joy today!!!

- A friend whom I must remember... -

Happy New Year 2010!

Today is the first day of 2010 and these happen to me: -

(1) D stealed honey from my drink;

(2) I am not feeling very well;

(3) I am feeling tired;

(4) D pour hot water on my leg while having breakfast (accidentally);

(5) I received many phone calls, most with regards to the estate of my

friend who just passed away;

(6) I am going for dinner later and...

I have started this one and only resolution of mine for this year, the 6th round of finish reading the bible (in Chinese) in 2010.

Happy new year, everybody!

- Happy New Year 2010! -