True Friendship...

Some people in our lives appear for a period of time, some, ... they last forever, even if they physically away or have passed away, we still can feel they are around in support of us.  Some, after not seeing me for a long long time, still believe in their hearts that bad rumors about me was untrue and they choose not to believe and not to ask me.  Not necessary to ask they told me because they know I am not like that, they said.
Some people thinks we are a burden to them when we needed help.  That because they took friendship as one way traffic and not both ways.  I thank God for some wonderful people in my life that they did put EXTRA efforts to care and love for me no matter how ridiculous I was in my words and actions.  Those ridiculous words and actions didn't make them go away, instead, they put extra efforts to care and love me.  That's what I call it true friendship.
- True Friendship -

Down with flu...

After a few weeks of preparing and attending court trials, I am finally down with flu.... Chest infection to begin with and thanks to Mom's chinese medicine, I am feeling much better today. Yes.... After few weeks, finally one trial is down leaving a lengthy submission to be submitted within 2 weeks.... While another trial is beginning on this coming Monday.... Until Wednesday.  Since these 2 trials are going to be in Tawau, for the first time my Mom experience about my job and profession... 
Now I am sure they don't think I am more 'free' then my brother... Hehe...
Anyway, while I am typing this blog post, a dear friend from KL just texted me saying she has landed... Let's hope for a good few days break!!!
- Down with flu....-

Part of lawyer's life...

Besides getting every part of my hair white, part of the lawyer's job is just more than just sitting in the office and sign the papers.  There are many lawyers who just sit there and sign papers of course... I won't of course describe them as a better or worse lawyer, but it's just different kind of lawyers they are calling themselves.  They don't stress out by getting ready or knowing that the case is fixed for hearing or trial.  They don't need to stress out when they were served with cause papers.  They don't even bother how to draft the bloody cause papers, what more a submissions, research, etc.  All they do is just sit there, rush the documents, sign it and make sure the papers do what it should. Yes.  That's conveyancing lawyers.  For a litigation lawyer, they do the research, draft the statement of claim, make the claim, go to the court, mention, hearing, file in application, reply, file affidavits, serve the cause papers, do the submissions, go to the trials, meeting clients, getting witness statement done, prepare for trial, prepare for cross examination's questions, etc. etc.  sit the court room for days, listening, writing, analyzing, planning, thinking... etc. etc. that's what a litigation lawyer's job.  And me, being me... is doing both of these... all alone.
I don't know how long I can take it.. but being part of lawyer's life is that I won't have time for other things... except job.  Especially me, where I have 2 lives to lives and 2 home to go back for.  Conveyancing lawyer as well as litigation lawyer.  Tawau and KK home.  It's tiring... and I started to realised why not everyone is a lawyer and why not I get married.  I just can't do it that way.
Another part of lawyer's life of course is to keep your client's secrets.  I always get to asked what will I do if I know my client's is guilty.  I have never know exactly how I should deal with it because I never encounter one.  But being a litigation lawyer, ... I am just having not one, but two of these clients in my hand.  It's privileged of course.  I don't need to disclose it even if I am put in the stand to be questioned by anyone.  But, my faith, my conscience, ME.. in general, having really hard time coping with all these. What should i do? I have a job and career and ethics to keep.  I have a duty towards my clients.  I can't do what I shouldn't - i.e. tell others what's the actual situation is.  It's so hard.  I am just hoping now that everything will be fine when the case is over.
I am emotionally once again being 'tortured'.  So, yes, part of lawyer's life is ... to be able to cope well emotionally... it's the biggest part of the job and requirement for a lawyer i would say.  I am doomed!  And I guess that's the main reason why every lawyer is trying to stay away from people ...
- Par of lawyer's life -

Know when...

Everyone makes mistake.  Some, detrimental... some, minor.. some, you don't even realized it as it happen every single day.  Some people make mistake and they apologize for their mistakes made and make sure they won't do it again.  Some, they apologize and they make the same mistake again and again... and some, they make mistakes and never apologize   Amazingly, I met a few that's never know how to apologize.  To them, others always wrong and make mistake and they are always right.  Their 'assumption' is always correct.  These kind of people, they will be the one meeting the hardest 'slap of the face' compare to others.  I remember my mom told me how to apologize.  She said my brother is like her, always make mistake and acknowledged it, smile and apologize. I then always remember this ... and so i started to smile when i made mistake and "ops" i said...and then apologize.
Pity for those who never know they make mistake though for they will never know how to apologize.  Their pride overruled their mind and they always think they made the best choices, said the best thing, being a best human being, etc.  They forgot, they are human too and ... hence, they never know what 'humility' is.
And just because they don't believe they make mistakes, they keep making mistakes and one mistake, it rolls and rolls and rolls and it became bigger and bigger and bigger... and to a point, the person is being covered all by lies and mistakes and denials...
At the end, the person will leave this place learning NOTHING at all.
We all should learn when to say "i am sorry" over mistakes we make.  It's not an easy lesson, especially for those who always achieve good and well in their academic.  They thought, being excellent in academic, they have the 'basis' to earn the 'no mistake' title and therefore, they never say "I am sorry".  For those who always make mistakes in exams, we all knows what mistakes caused and how we try to avoid making mistake.  We become more careful in life.  We know big and many mistakes are detrimental and will cause us even our lives.
So, it is very important for one to know when is the time to apologize.  I am still learning.... are you?
- Know when... -