Clearing up... cleaning up ... gearing up...

I was so tired these days... trying to clear up things in my old firm and works from the new place is picking up a lot... and I have new works coming in which I suddenly felt I don't know if I should open a file in the old firm or wait till I go in to the new firm. Things really mess me up lately. I really was BUSY!!!!

2 days ago, my master in Tawau called me up to help him stand in a case in the Land Office here in Kota Kinabalu as he needs to be in the High Court for a short call hearing for his pupil. I went there not knowing who the other party is and when my new partner walks in, we were just laugh because it's so funny that we are in the opposing team. hahahaha.... I know I am no locus to be there that morning and it's hard to convince the Timbalan Pengarah to grant me another month of time. But speaking all the non-sense and bluffing in front of someone I knew was really funny. Of course we both know that it is just a JOB to be there to make our grounds. hahaha.... well, of course no one wins in that matter as the Timbalan Pengarah didn't prepare any rulling and the other party was asking for a decision to be delivered. hahaha... and I was asking for time and I guess in a way, another date will be set and so, yes... my bluffing was correct in that sense. hahahahahaha... it's crap really!!!!

After a 3 hours lectures today, I went back to my old office to see if there's any urgent matter to be handle and I just realise, except the account, nothing else I need to worry about. So, I ended up took all those things belongs to me home with the help of a wonderful friend of course. Thanks, my dear...

When I saw all the things in my small tiny apartment now, the only word I can think of is "stress". I can even feel 'stressful' now.... I looked at those files on the floor (no place to put them), I just don't know which one to start. There's so many things to handle... and so many clients to do. I am not sure if I can finish teaching these 2 classes this semester. It's tough!!!

- clearing up... cleaning up ... gearing up ... -

A challenge...

It all started 2 weeks ago by the issue of drinking water and that it just triggled my anger and discomfort ... which lead me to share my discomfort with a friend in another firm. Things just overturned since then... I was offered a place to be partner at that firm and I was also being told, I will be given lots of works which means, finances would be much better than now. It's not easy to have such opportunity. I know God does listens to prayer and listens to what I have been telling Him. Well, just 2 days before I was offered, my partner has asked for a meeting. God knows what's the purpose of the meeting. But as I was too busy with works, I didn't manage to speak to my partner until I was given an offer. I then make appointment with her, we sat down and talked and I have to her I am thinking of leaving this partnership. She took it positively. I guess in a way, she does know that I am not very happy about things already. I proposed to her that I will leave this firm in mid December as the Partnership Agreement we entered did mentioned that I need to give 4 months notice. However, she suggested I leave end of November. I am fine with that as the other firm wanted me to join soonest possible. Well, last Friday, she told me through phone that she wants me to leave a bit earlier, that end of this month, October instead. Well, of course I can think of a few reasons why she reacted in such a way. First, she doesn't want to share another month's profit with me. Secondly, she doesn't want me to take away her client. Thirdly, she wants to show me that, I will lose out if I didn't go with her. Without a firm that I can attach to, I will surely have problem bringing away my files.

(I didn't tell her I am joining another firm by then).

Yesterday, she reverted to my draft Deed of Dissolution of Partnership and while I was going through with her on that, I told her I am going to the new firm and I am bringing over some files. Obviously it's a shock to her and she was so unhappy with me bringing over some of the files. No particular reasons why I want to bring over the files. It's all because they are my clients.

So, I am still staying up in the office late... trying to sort out some of the things here. Phew... it's not easy... sudden change, AGAIN.... and yes.. without a single day of BREAK!!!! At first I was thinking that I will be jobless for next month... but no... my new big boss told me, I am so much wanted and he is so happy that I can join by 1 Nov. So, yes.... my initial plan for a holiday is vanish... so I better take this weekend off... to Tawau. HOME.....!!!!

I was told that my new boss has passed all his files to my other senior and senior is now distributing files among her and me. hahaha... I am being called to go to new office tomorrow to sort out files. What can i say except praising and thanking God for His blessing?

- a challenge -

These days...

I opened this page for about 5 times for the past 2 days and yet, I wasn't able to write a single word on it. Don't ask me why. I guess it's all because I was busy with works and that things happen too fast, and guess what? even my family doctor in Tawau called me yesterday to refer a client to me. Business is definately picking up at my end. But with changing of firm soon, I am not sure if things will still be the same. I hope it is ....

Well, ... my partner obviously is trying very hard to cope with things around and I have yet to help her with all...

speaking of no time.. a phone just rang and i have to go...

- these days -

A change...

There will be changes in my life for the next couple of weeks to next couple of months. It only happen about 2 weeks time (always short notices). I have told my partner that I am retiring from this partnership hopefully starting in the mid December. However, she allows me to retired by the end of November instead, which is a good time for me as I am being offered by the other law firm to start working with them soonest possible, right after they finish renovated their new premise (due to my joining, they are moving and renovating a bigger place). I consider the offer is a blessing from them. The new partners are really very kind enough to take me in and even considerate for me and all my circumstances. It's a blessing!!!

I have just spoken to my partner before lunch and that she was shocked by my decision as there's no sign given earlier. I noted her concern. I have been handling lots of works, including accounting, clients, etc.. and that she is now worried that she won't be able to handle it all by herself. We do have works coming in and more works coming in to be exact. I have been actively getting more cases to come in, etc... and now, I am leaving... she will have to learn the accounting packages, fill in the cases that was previously handle by me, etc. etc. She is somewhat feeling that she can't go for holiday in the short period of time as she cannot have firm open without any lawyer around.

To me, it's no difference. I still do my business, contact my contacts and get in cases and I will still get the shares of all my sweat and running around. On top of that, I got a computer, got clerk, got parking allowances, etc. I no longer need to worry about toilet paper roll, water, paying bills, going to bank, bank in cheques and cash, issue salary, etc. etc. It's just ... GREAT!!! Although I am being warned that I will be given LOTS OF WORKS... !!! You know I am workaholic... I don't mind working and working and working. So, yes... please give me works... but don't give me 'unnecessary' stress.

For the time being, I therefore need to sort out some files before handing over to my partner. I need to get a time to teach her how to use the accounting package and I need to go to bank and do all necessary arrangement, etc.

However, I shall start worrying about pay for this month (2 more weeks to go) and next month and then... bye bye....!!!!!

It's a challenge somehow to leave my own 'created' firm. I created the letterhead, I created the signboard, I created the office rules, I created everything here... and that this is really like MY creation. It's not easy to leave MY creation and join other's firm. It needs boldness, it needs sacrifies, it needs humble, etc. I don't really know what lays in the future... in the new firm, but I guess at this moment, I just need to trust and obey... have a positive thinking ... and work, work, work....

Some of you might wonder what then will happen to my 1 year mission trip. As for now, I have no idea also... but if things happen, I still have the choice to whether let go my profession and leave or stay on with profession and go mission later. So... i guess I won't know the answer until then.

- a change -

I wonder...

I wonder.... how long I have been busy with things that's within and outside my capacity. I am only one normal soul. Not that I am being given some supernatural power, etc... and yet, I am busy since ... I cannot remember when. With church ministries, with works, with all kind of things arounds me.

I prayed for the Lord will shut the door which He doesn't want me to get in to and I pray for the Lord to bless me blessing that I can contain. All over a sudden, I received phone calls and clients, and files... and all over a sudden, I am being offered a place in another law firm. Hmm... I started to wonder... what's the purpose of my life. I don't intent to practice law the rest of my life. But I do want to practice law at least for now. May be for another year or so? I don't know. Even for a year, the question of 'how i am going to survive for the next one year' always goes around my mind... and ... I just failed to get an answer. I know I wanted to go for England, but which law firm will take me in now considering that they know that I will leaving next year? It's just too impossible... until this firm name keeps on appearing in my mind and during one of the afternoon, I just took the gut to talk to one of the partner and... it happened.. things happened and I had a talk with both the partners today about the plan of joining them. I am not sure what lies behind all these thing. I am not sure how God will leads me to England if it is His will for me to go, but I just pray that, my decision now won't be a hindrance for me to see Him more clearer. Going to England is really a dream. I remember praying to God to see if He can really send me to England next year and I also remember praying to God to open a way for me sort out my finances. By joining another firm, finances would be solved... but the plan about going to England for a year will be more uncertain. God... I wonder... what do you want me to do?

- I wonder -

Ghoosh.... what a life!

Today, I started my first lesson with the Accounting students. They are shock to see a very young lecturer of course. Some of them came in with fear and shock... while the others, were keeping quiet.. until i break the ice by introducing myself and so on. Till almost 30 minutes later, only then i remember that some of them do not understand english that much and that I explained things with chinese. I hope they understand what I was trying to explain as I realise besides of their poor english standard, there are quite a few of law terms that needed them to remember either. So, it's such a pain...

Today is also my best friend, Yee Ling's birthday... she asked me out for lunch and spent me good lunch... and we celebrated for an hour (lunch time) and I did manage to get her a book. So, yes... I hope she likes it. Well, happy birthday, my dear friend....!!!

Rushed a few matters now... and I just cannot believe I was BUSY with works and other things since last week and that I have NO chance communicating with my partner. I know she wasn't happy about the water we purchased and she said she got something to say, but till now, she has not say it yet. I just heard from my colleague that she is not coming in tomorrow and this message has not conveyed to me at all. But, that's not a matter. It only means, I am FREE tomorrow. hahahahahahahaa...... Besides, what I need to do is to do my works, my duties, my responsibilities and not calculating who worked more, etc. Hmm... life is tough enough... hahaha.. and calculative on who worked harder and who worked lesser just won't help much. But I do know some people take that as essential. Well...

But i have been really tired working lately. No complain... good.... !!

Doulous will be here soon. 13-22 October 2007. All encouraged to go. Because of that, I might need to let go of the chance to go back home for a best friend's wedding. I know she won't mind as she always know that I won't be joining EVERYONE's wedding. hahahaha...

- ghoosh.. what a life! -