Watch!

It was 7 years ago that my watch 'died' and that forced me to walk around the old Sunway Pyramid just to get myself another watch. The one previously, was given to me by my mother when I was in secondary school and it followed me all the way to university and back. This 7th years old one, was purchased after the previous one 'died' after the shop in SS2, PJ has certified it. Well... on last Saturday, just before a friend arrive to pick me up for a birthday party, the time stopped. It pointed 7:16pm (07.11.2009). Well, I have the practice to put my clock 15 minutes faster then the actual time. So, ... ya... it's 7pm that my watch stopped at. I thought it's the battery, but I doubted it as I have changed its battery a few months back. Unless, of course, I was being cheated and they have replaced an old battery for me instead. But that cannot be.

The next day, I went for checking and there I was told, my watch is 'dead'.

Hmm.... sad.... but that's reality. I told my dad by sms and he replied saying, nowaday, nothing last more than 7 years unless it's OMEGA or ROLEX.... well...

I guess that's true.... because when I went to get a new watch the other day, the shop keeping told me, if I want something last, it won't look fashionable. If I want something fashionable, it won't last. And he also pointed out that almost all the 'fashionable branded' watches are out from the same factory and they are basically just different from their 'look'.... if I want something last, it's expensive and it looks dull and even the shape, they are just round type.

It has reminded me so much of one's outlook of a person/a thing though. I was told, the divorce case I handled earlier on, I under-charged our client as the opponent was charged double of what I charged, even where he didn't manage to get what he asked for in the case and he was trying his very best to make things looks complicated. The price was high because of his firm's name, one of the well known law firm in town. It's not, really not about the changes of winning in the case.

Another instant I encountered of course is someone who has a good title, weathy, claimed to be devoted spiritually and drives a nice car, but has a very bad attitude and character. I was not only shocked, but disappointed to find out all these.

So, when the shop keeper told me of my choices of watch, somehow... the statements strucks me... to find out how 'worldly' people and things can be, in general. Nah, I choose something in between though... as I don't really like the 'process' of buying things... so, I wanna avoid going for watch again for the next 7 years. hahaha...

- watch ! -

Being left behind...

That's the exact feeling I am feeling.... I just don't like it... but it's a fact...!!!

- Being left behind... -

This morning...

I was standing-in a matter for a law firm in Tawau this morning. As it's an estate matter, I didn't bring my robe with me this morning. I went all the way up to where are all the SAR (Senior Assistant Registrar) is and I found the list for my matter this morning. It's really shocking to find out it is before SAR, but in open court. hahahahahaha... I ponder for a while, thinking this must be something wrong or something new. I looked around, saw a lawyer there, and I asked her if there's something can be before SAR in open court. She looked at me, stand up and look at the list and she start laughing.... she said, that must me a mistake made by the interpreter. I wanted to make sure, so I sms the Tawau firm and they laugh too.... of course I got it confirmed later on through the interpreter that, the matter is to be in chamber, not in open court. hahahahaha...

- this morning... -

Who am I?

Since young, I have been known as so and so's daughter, so and so's sister and so and so's niece... and it has been a 'pressure' to me ever since I know that I am being 'known' ... because of the connection I have ... and so, I have always wonder, who can I be if I have no connection with them, i.e., my father, my mother, my brother, my uncles and aunties... hence, the urge of leaving my home town lies on me since the day I entered into secondary school. Trust me, not a single teacher in my primary school doesn't know who I am. I can't be naughty, I can't be showing any attitudes problems and so on. In a way, I am being 'watched' and 'monitored' at all time. That's the kind of pressure I have during my growing up process. Hence, that's the reason why I am trying to avoid being seen, avoid being known, avoid being recognised too.

I remember I used to have this conversation with a friend whom think, it's a privilege to be me... but, not to my opinion... as I really don't think it's a privilege, but it's a pressures. Hmm... if you don't believe me, try ask around if you know who I am... if you don't, mention my dad's name or my brother's name, or my grandparents' name... you will get the 'connection'. hahahaha...

Someone in church tried to be nice this morning to introduce me to a mother and son, and forgetting that, we came from the same town and hehe... yes, we do know each other. I guess... that can't be avoided... huh? Well, many wants to be known ... but for me, I want to be avoided to be known. My rector knows me well... and hence, he never mention my 'connection' with anyone and hence, I love being in this church... but of course, that's something I don't like also... especially I started to be bullied. Hmm... of course, I don't mind them bullying me... but... please do not treat me 'better' after you know who am I really....

Who am I? ... well, I seriously can't run away from being my father's daughter, my brother's sister, my grandparents' granddaughter, my uncles and aunties' niece, can I?

- Who am I? -

Finally...

Finally.... today, the court gave a rulling on one of the trial I had in July. It's the contested divorce case and it's truly a relief for me and my client as we have been discussing and stressing over this matter for the past year. Yes, it's exactly a year now... and finally, the court gave us what we asked/expected of.

No. Don't get me wrong. I don't like divorce cases and one of this is enough to stressed me out. Well, at least, 2 trials' decisions were rulled and ... hmmm... I have learned quite a bit it seems...

There's two more on the way, one which to be fixed on 29th this month and wow... I will be having 3 to 4 trials next year it seems. Hmm...

- Finally... -