Job/Office/Work?

As I put the sign "@ office" on my MSN this moring upon arrival at the office, many asked me why didn't I just rest at home. I wish too, but in order for me to have better sleeps, trust me I better be here today to finish off things and file my documents before the deadline, i.e. next Monday. Seriously, I realise how much works I need to do this weeks in order for me to have a good sleep. I didn't had enough sleeps since Monday, after I came back to office, after realising how many works I need to finish before this weekend. Trust me, I have been sitting in my office for since morning and I only eaten 2 biscuits to fill my hunger... and I just got everything done before my friend is coming to fetch me at 3pm later. I wonder now, how many more works to rush... I do have another file here yet to be started because I am still waiting for some documents from another law firm. Hence, this will have to hold until either Friday or next Monday. Meanwhile, I really hope no more 'sudden' matter....

My ankle seems 'loose' today. Hence, I walk very slowly. It could be due by the air conditioning as it's super cold here in my office. Anyhow, I walked to the wash room just now and it seems fine... because no aircon? Hmm... oh well... hahaha...

I am still praying hard that I will get speedy recovery. I seriously don't like to trouble people to fetch me, send me, take care of me. I suddenly feel so 'useless'... and hai... I just hate the feeling of putting troubles and inconveninces to others... I wonder if I have the choice now... (think no huh?) ...

- job/office/work? -

3rd Day!

It's my third day after the operation and looks like I am doing well as I can slowly walk without of the clutches. Oh well, even that, I don't want to give too much pressure on it, hence, my left leg is still supporting my right leg more if I am to walk around. Oh well, I must add, I have been sitting down since I reached home after church at 12pm until now... (4:44pm). hahaha... I am thinking of ironing some clothes later... then I think it is time for me to take my shower... and if it is as planned, my friends will be coming over soon... hehe... !!!

I guess I looked forward to get out from my apartment so much last night that I didn't get enough sleep and only woke up at around 8:20am this morning even thoughy my alarm sounded around 7:20am this morning. hahaha... well, I am glad that I manage to went out for a while this morning... guess another day or two staying in this apartment will really make me mad soon...

Hence, upon reaching home, I started to look at my diary and started to work on a few works.. so that I don't have to spend too much time in the office on Tuesday. Hmm...

Alright ... it's my 3rd day... and I promise myself that I will only go back to office on Tuesday... although I am so tempted to go back to office tomorrow morning... workaholic? Hmm... hope you don't realise I am one until now... !

- 3rd day! -

The Operation !

Many has asked about the procedure of the operation I went through 2 days ago. Seriously, I remember only a few steps, and to think back, it's really an experience where not many the 'chance' to experience. I was told the operation will start at 3:30pm but at around 2:10pm, 2 nurses pushed the bed to my room and asked me to get changed. I thought it's still early hence I didn't get changed and I wasn't put the name tag on my right hand also. Well, the anaesthetics' doc came in and told me, it is better for me to go for the general anaesthetics because otherwise, half of my body will be numb for 10 hours. I thought 10 hours will be a bit too much, hence, agreed to the general anaesthetics. I was pushed then from my room to another floor, then to the operation theater where my doctor and the anaesthetics doc were there waiting. It seems like, they have preapred themselves there. By the time I moved to the operation bed, many nurses came around me and a few was sorting out my right hand and a few on my left and I was then being put to sleep... with just a few seconds after the oxygen mask was put on my mouth and nose. By the time I was conscious enough to heard some noises (nurses were chatting while they were moving me around), I felt the pain on my right leg... and only then I realise, everything was done. I knew I was being put back to my bed at room 506 and when I was open up my eyes and looked at the clock stating 4:10pm, I saw 3 persons came into my room. My cousin's wife, my brother and a dear friend. It's such a comfort and relief seeing familiar faces. I weren't that awake yet but they have started to make sure I get up, hence, they started to talk to me, etc while my brother went out and told the nurse that I woke up, etc. Soon enough, the nurse and the doctor came in and check on me. Doctor came to check and asked ice pack to be put on my leg and to remove the 'glucose' and he told me, I can start eating anything I want. I don't however have any appetite at all. Well, at around 5pm, guess everyone finished work. I was then being visited by many... feeling so warmth... hahaha.. well, ... but I guess it's the anaesthetics effect, I felt so tired and my throat started to feel sore (guess it's due to the oxygen mask). Hence, I went to sleep until the next morning when the nurse came in to check on me. After my brother prayed for me and I am sure due to many prayers of yours, the pain that I was feeling gone ... at around 7am... (I think I was being given pain killer as well, not so sure though) Guess it's because I was too quiet throughout the whole night ... which caused about 4 nurses came in at 7pm to check on me. I asked one of the senior nurse when can I be discharged today. She said, mostly around noon time.

Doctor came around 8:30am. Upon checking me, he's quite convince that I am well enough to go home. Hence, he said the ice pack can be removed and I can start walking around with clutches. But the nurses didn't come until I pressed the button to ask them to come (I wanted to go to toilet urgently then, hahaha.. ) and there, I was given the clutches and I was told how to use it and how to move around. The doctor also suggested that i must put a little bit weight on it, and hence, I did and ... wow.. no pain... but well, I seriously only put a LITTLE bit of weight on it. hahaha... so, when the doctor came in again to check on me and asked if I put a little bit of weight on it, I told him I did, but no pain... then he said, I can put a little more weight on it if there's no pain. Hmm... well, everything seems so well... especially with the help and care of JHS who came to help me to discharge, to send me home, to buy me lunch, to bring me up to my apartment and to clean my apartment... so that I can reach out to things easily. How nice... !!! hehe...

Well, there I am... at home, resting now... I can put on a little more weight on my ankle today... which is good... !!! Hopefully, I can walk without cluthes in 2 or 3 days time...

- The Operation! -

Resting at home!

Operation went very well and the doctor said the damage caused was bad but wasn't as bad as he expected. Hence, I am fine. I am walking with clutches now.... and I am glad I am home. I need to take some time to rest ... thanks for everyone to pray for me, and encourage me and helping me.. some of you, what can I say? I really appreciate your efforts. Thanks... Will keep you update of my condition. Hopefully, I can walk without clutches by next week. Do continue to pray for me. Thanks....

- Resting at home -

Operation!

Ya. I am scheduled to have my ankle operated today, 20.11.2008 at 1530. So, please pray for me that the operation will be successful, everything is going smoothly and I will recover from the operation faster ...

- operation! -

Selfishness...

After not taking this airline for a long time (I seriously forgot about their existence for a long while, for reason, please refer to previous blogs), I decided to give it a try and see if they have improved. Well, I took the afternoon flight back to Tawau yesterday for a court case this morning at Tawau Sessions Court. Well, I went on board first because my ticket was booked with Xpress boarding pass. Happily, I sat down and started to fall asleep due to tiredness that was accumulated for days or rather ... weeks... About 10 minutes later, I heard a loud "bang" and I open my eye only then I realise this guy literally threw his bag on the seat next to me. He didn't ask politely and so, but she pointed at the seat next to me asking me to give way for him to enter into his 'claimed' seat. I unlock my safety belt and just when I was about to stand up, he climbed in. Hence, I gave way.... he sat down, moved a bit here and there, then he started his reading... by opening the newspaper from my side of the space all the way to the window's seat's space regardless we were there. I was too tired to bother and hence, I fell asleep even before the flight take off. Oh well, when I woke up, it was about time to reach. I still realise his hand was just in front of my face and he doesn't seems care. I gave him a look but he doesn't seems understand. Well, I guess he understands English because he's reading an English language newspaper, hence, I didn't bother much. After a few looks of mine, I guess he felt pressured and he therefore decided to sleep, just before the airstewards annoucing everyone to sit up right, etc... he didn't bother much until one came and asked him to sit up right. He didn't even bother to press the button hence the steward did it for him. Right after the steward left, he pressed the button again to his sleeping position. I gave him a look because I was amazed. After a while, I heard ringtone... it's his phone. His phone rang and he picked up and spoke on the phone. Hello... ??? I was not only shock and angry, but I was really furious. How can he do that? After the call, he even sending sms. I couldn't help it but to really gave him the SERIOUS LOOK. I almost wanted to ask him if his family is going to pay for one hundred over people's life if we die because of his phone. I don't think he bothers, hence, I didn't ask him. I looked a him, his phone and even his messages... and guess what? ... its something like... 'where are you now? may be we can hang out tonight'. SICK... can't this message be sent later? The flight is landing... can't wait for 15 minutes? HELLO? I pray to God that it will be a safe flight... But I was furious because we were on the 5th roll from the front and non of the air stewards realise what happen?????

Upon arriving, the air stewards annouced that we landed but however, we couldn't use handphone yet. IMMEDIATELY right after the steward finished, this fella took out his phone and start calling people. ????? Don't tell me he cannot understand english... please.... he is just acting so selfishly... and goodness... what sorts of people is that...

Hence, my conclusion is: cheap airfare invites cheap people... no. I don't mean the airline is bad... i just mean, these people has caused dangerous situation for others ... hence, I told my dad, i don't really like taking this airline but I really don't like the people who are taking it.

Today even worse, with Xpress, I thought we don't have to rush for our turns... nope, Malaysia boleh... it seems.. in every situation, they just LOVE to be the FIRST. Hence, even with Xpress boaring pass, people rushed to get on plane first. And I really wonder why... ????

- selfishness -

Ruling...

Hmm.. I received a notice from the court yesterday at around 4:30pm asking me to go to the court together with the Plaintiff for the decision of one case. My opponent is a very nice man, he called to make sure I receive the notice. Well, was in court at around 9 thinking I was late, but only later I realise the notice says, 9:30am. hahaha.. anyway... I didn't win this case. I sort of knew it as at almost last minute, my client told me something which I have no more chance to reply on. Well, I told him then that his chance is slim then based on what the opponent put on and he's aware of it. Well, ... still, the pressure was there this morning. Hoping for a miracle to happen, but of course at the end, no miracle. hahaha... seriously, came back, rushed other things and talked to client about his case too and now, while I am sitting down thinking, I have no idea why am I feeling so 'stressless' over the lossing of this case. Hmm... may be all because he pay me less and therefore I don't feel 'guilty'? Well, well... I don't know. Compare to the last one I won... I felt in fact, upset over my poor submission... I am confused by my own feeling obviously.. hahahaha...

Oh well, I am almost done with other matters.... waiting for the courier man to come to pass me the documents for filing in Tawau. It has yet to come.... Oh yes, I am going to Tawau later in the afternoon for a case tomorrow morning... hehe.. home sweet home... !

- ruling -

Review!

I was scheduled to go for a doctor review on 04.11.2008 but I was outstation. With that reason, I took a few weeks to think of the issue of what I should do with my ankle as it seems like, physiotherapy doesn't help much. I went for review this afternoon. I was hoping that the doctor will agree with my suggestion to refer me to the general hospital for physio and any operation if needed. The doctor of course said he has no problem referring me to the general hospital but he reminded me that I probably have to wait for quite some time. Well, he again checked my ankle and he's quite sure it's the joint, the ligament that need some 'cleaning' or 'repair'. Hmm... well, since his only suggestion is to do a half and hour to one hour operation by putting a scope inside my ankle and do the operation, I asked about the price. Well, it's not cheap I must say hence, I was hesitated. He then asked if I am covered by any insurance and he offered to check it for me. Oh well, with a few minutes of checking and confirming and fixing of date, I am now schedule to go through an operation on this coming Thursday. Errrr.... I am told I will need to walk with clutches for a few days and I cannot drive for 2 weeks. Errrrr.... I am going to Tawau tomorrow afternoon for a case and will come back on Wednesday afternoon. I guess I will then have to settle all my works before I take a few days off. Otherwise, my partner is going to faint...

Oh well... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!

- review! -

Court this morning!

I was faxed a copy of the Notice for pre-trial case management last Tuesday and I was thinking it's only concern this matter this morning. However, just before I left office last Friday, I was being served a copy of the Plaintiff's Bundles of Authorities. I took the bundles in my hand and I starte wondering what happen to this case. I thought there must be an argument somewhere, but if there's an unsettled matter, why is there a pre-trial case management date being fixed. I was completely confused. I went into my partner's room asked her the possibility, just in case I missed out something within my knowledge. She found it weird too. hahaha.. Hence, for the whole weekend, I was thinking ... what could happen.

I reached the Court this morning and checked my case in the board and realise my case listed as No.1. I went inside the court and didn't see anyone, then, I saw some documents (similar to the one I received on Friday) and there, a person standing next to it. Without looking carefully, I asked if he is so and so... goodness, he must be angry by now as he's one of the well known lawyer in town and I couldn't even recognised him at all. His servant was standing next to him, helping him to dress up and passing him all his documents and I didn't manage to recognised him, can you believe that? Everyone came into the court addressing him and me? hahaha... well, shame on me...!!! Well, back to my story, then... the court interpreter came in and saw me and told me, besides the pre-trial case management matter, there is a hearing by the Plaintiff and the 1st and 2nd Defendants. Thereafter, she asked if I would like to go in together with 2 senior counsels for that hearing. I said yes and she said she will let me in because there will be 2 senior counsels giving submission and it's a good opportunity for me to learn something too. I agreed with her. Immediately, the 2 senior counsels came in and discussion between them goes on and on until they forgot my presence. I didn't want to interrupt them and only when our case were called, one asked the other if I am their assistant only then I told them who I am (I am acting for the 3rd Defendant) and they apologise to me, etc. hahaha.. well, it's an interesting submission by both parties really, but the way their submit in the court was so 'professional'.... and of course the judge was very polite and ethical too.

Hmm.. being with 2 senior counsels has made me thought of those days where I was brought to court my my senior and my boss... to assist them... (assist = carrying their files, books, etc... ) and seeing them submitting was stress free ... and I considered a blessed one because all my senior did brought me along before. Unless the rest of my fella colleagues.. my boss and seniors never bring them to court and hence, they learn less. Oh well, sacrifies needed though. In order for them to bring me to court, I have to help them with their research, drafting and so on. hehe... which I did quite a bit until most of the time if they can't locate me in my seat, I surely be in the library. hahaha..

Hmm... well, ... I really miss being with the senior counsels... hehehe...

- court this morning -

Old days...

I was on my way to Tanjung Aru this morning and when I reached the traffic light junction between Tanjung Aru and the Town, I saw the traffic lights went off. Power cut off and then, immediately, I saw people, selfish people trying to make their way by their own selfish efforts. Hence, all the cars stucked in the middle of the junction and none of them able to move. Obviously, their selfish ambitious has caused not only them, but EVERYONE else stucked in the traffic. Then I recalled ... time when I was young. I remember Tawau has not many traffic lights junction then... and I think one of the oldest one is in town where everyone couldn't have possibly missed when they are to go down to town centre. Tawau is a small town and when I was younger, obviously, the town was even smaller and people basically knows everyone else well. Mind you, Tawau always suffer electricity cut off ( I don't recall any time during my life time that Tawau has not having electricity problem). Hence, traffic lights always goes off. The amazing thing was, people in Tawau then has really good manners. We follow our turns. After the right side's cars gone, then, it's our turn and after our turn, the left side's cars will start turning and without traffic police, we managed well. TODAY?.... goodness... even with the traffic police around (I think he really risk his life standing in the middle), people can still trying to cut the line. I saw a car this morning, ran with at least 40km/hour to be the first car in front and keep on showing others and the traffic police that he is urgent and he needs his turn right away. I wonder... what happen these days? Why can't we be like when I was younger? Is there a "WE" here? or just "ME"? ... Mind you, I was rushing too this morning ... and I am sure, the rest too as it's around 7am. Everyone is on their ways to work. So, what's the hurry? Why YOU?

- old days -

Last weekend!

TELUPID MEDICAL CAMP

(Organised by Diocese of Sabah)

07-09.11.2008

Together with a group of people, we started our journey at 2:30pm on 07.11.2008 to Telupid, St.Luke's Telupid (The Valley of Blessing) for a 1 1/2 days of medical camp. Obviously, I am not a competent medical personnel in this medical camp. I was there as a photographer and also volunteer. It's tiring.... but yet, it's fruitful and fun. It's a good experience indeed. If you are interested, please check out this: http://picasaweb.google.com/peisanlin/TelupidMedicalCamp. Enjoy!

- Last Weekend -

Confidence!

I always have confidence issue. I always questions if I can do things correctly, rightly, etc. etc. So as this morning's case. I was shaken when I saw my opponent came in with a lots of cases in his hand and I sort of terrified by his look and his action, etc. I was terrified because I suddenly find my own confidence ran away. We waited for about an hour (You should have realised by now that I was biting my finger nails for at least 20 minutes if not an hour) before my case was called. I walked away from being able to be seen by my opponent after a 30 minutes of waiting as I didn't want him to know how nervous I was. Well, as I sat down at the corner chatting with a chambering student, I felt better and only then I realise, it's not that I didn't prepare myself well enough for this morning's matter. It's just lost of confidence after I saw my opponent carried a lots of cases with him. Then I started to gain my focus... not on the paper by on God. There must be a reason the case before us took such a long time. Hence, I took out my documents and case and read thought it. Seriously, I wasn't convinced after I finished reading it though. I can almost predict what my opponent's defence are going to be. Well, I prayed a little prayer and when I just finished, I heard my name being called. Time to go in. Well, I was nervous and obviously, the judge realise that too and he too know I am kind of 'new' compare to my opponent. To cut the story short, my oral submission was not as good as the opponent's submission. While I was waiting for the decision from the Judge (while he took about 15 minutes to write his judgment), I already preparing myself of what to tell my client if I didn't get what I am asking for. But when the judge told me he granted me the application, I wasn't really feeling 'happy', but relief.... of all the poor submission I gave... well, ... I am thankful. My opponent immediately gave a remark by saying that the judge should look at some point of law he raised, etc. etc. Well, the judge noticed his dissatisfaction and asked him to appeal to the higher court instead if he is not happy but for now, I got what I apply for. *Phew... *

I walked out of the court room and thought of the same issue a friend raised few days ago, of no confidence enough to drive a car. I recalled we 'call' her confidence back to her for a few hours and we urged her to drive her car. I guess, confidence ... doesn't 'come back' when we 'call' for it... but confidence come and remain when we practice things more. While my friend ("V") was driving yesterday from Kota Marudu back to her own house (I am seriously impressed), I told her a story about my experience of driving long distant, I drove the whole family back from Lahad Datu to Tawau, .... and together with my family, I had along with me all my uncles and aunties... all who think I shouldn't be driving then. They laughed at me, made fun of me and my driving for not being able to overtake big truck in front of me, etc. etc. I still remember what my dad taught me about overtaking a car, of what I should be careful about, etc... and it was a 'stressful' day. We reached Tawau about 2 hours late because it was me to drove. (Mind you, I just got my driving licence not long before this) hahaha.. well, but I am fine with overtaking cars and long distant driving now because I practice them more and my confidence build up. Well, not only about driving a car, but also playing guitar... to many, it's not easy to just take a guitar and play for praise and worship without practising before... but I have confidence that I will be able to do that because I used to play my guitar every day and practice it like mad...

Hence, I am reminded today... that even in my court matters, in driving a car, confidence build up when we practice them MORE. Agree?

- confidence -