That's exactly how I have lives like for the past 4 years. Lives as if it is my last moment in life. Ever since I know that I could have been dead and/or I will one day be gone has made me lives everyday like it is my last. I treasure every moment in my life, making sure it's 'lived' without any regret. This, should not be the way it is for those who has some disease in them. This, should be for everyone on earth. No one know how and when we are going to die.
A friend's mother just past away after a week of being admitted to the hospital. She was shocked to be told her mom got admitted. I urged her to go home the next day before i left to a half day trip to Sandakan. When I reached airport, she's at airport waiting for her flight. We chat.... and she doesn't seems to be ready for the departure of her mother, even though she do know, her mother has not been well for the past one year. Life is unpredictable. I am glad she went home, spent a day with her mother before her mother collapsed completely and was admitted to ICU without the ability to breath by her own.
Today, she's sorting out things for her mom's funeral the whole day. That's how short life is. I am not sure how ready we all are, to face the death and also to lost someone we hold dearly. It's no surprise to see my dad in the current stage, knowing that his condition will only deteriorate. But it is somehow, heartbreaking to see how my dear mother coping with life as such. Having the needs to take care of her husband, taking care of her daughter who is always in the run, worry about her son's family, etc. Is that all of a life? If I didn't call her today and if she is gone tomorrow, yesterday would be our last communication. But well, who can guarantee we are still living tomorrow? or .. the next hour?
Life is shorter than what we expected. We all thought having been in a different stage of life, our life is 'longer'... but that's not right. According to His timing..... we only have 'a lifetime'. Are we doing what we ought to do or rather, are we doing what we are assigned to do by Him? What if you haven't finish the assignment and He has taken you away? Is that mean we have missed the 'greatest' opportunity?
How do we lives or sustain our lives? By worrying about whether I have money to pay my staff next month or whether I will get pay next month or whether the loan i apply will be approved? or are we focusing on whether we have done what He has assigned us to do?
I am reminded again .... today, of what I should be focusing on.... and not what 'life' generally focuses on.
- Lives as if it is your last moment -
