Romantic experiences

If you ask me when's the most romantic moment in my life, I can tell you this....
At midnight 31st December 1999/1st January 2000 (Millennium year), in Bristol, United Kingdom, I was standing with someone on top of a building which's built above a Hill (Manor Hall), witnessing, experiencing the most wonderful and huge 30 minutes of fireworks at my eyes level, holding hands.
I am not sure how many remember those period of time when everyone thought it's going to be end of the world.  But when it enters the year 2000, Bristol held a few days of festival in the city centre and because of my relationship with the University of Bristol's students and lecturers and even Drs, I had the privileged to stayed around the University properties, including Drs' quarters. hahahaha....  (apparently, my parents had the privilege to visit those places in October 2000 too!!!) It was the happiest year I ever had ... not just romantic experiences, .... but also graduated from my degree (Millennium graduate), holiday with my parents, etc. In a foreign country, my parents thought i really know Bristol well and I should have stays there for Bar.  But unfortunately, we didn't have the fund for it.
Bristol was mine then.... I knew everyone in the city.  I knew every streets, every corner, every places...
I would have been married if I stayed back in Bristol. hahahaha...
May be but, it never happen that way. hahaha...
Anyhow, I love that moment.  That few days, I will never forget.  Thanks for the Dean/Chancellor who open the top of the building for us to witness the most wonderful scenery I have ever witnessed/seen. Thank you Lord.

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Brilliant holiday - Hong Kong 2013

This year visit to Hong Kong was my 5th time visiting. Each te, I went with different people and purpose. Out of the 5 times, I enjoyed two particular times the most. Remember the time I went alone, stayed at a resort for a week before travelling to Macau, then to KL and home! I love that one week of rest so much. The hotel was brilliant, the weather was excellent and the atmosphere was so great as it was new year eve! With the wonderful and favorite cartoon characters, IQ bok xi!!!! 

This time round, I am so happy to have Eva to went HK with me. We travel to places we never been, eat what we planned to eat, hang around every places and I really enjoy the food and shopping with Eva.  This is probably the last time I go HK as my cousin and her family is moving to Australia soon.... Unless I go visit them again in November! Haha....

I really enjoy the trip! 

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Glorifying God II

It's been a busy 2 weeks because I had a trial last Monday and with the visit and stay over by a group of people, it has been an extra busy schedule. If you think I am still sick, think twice because if I am, I wouldn't be able to cope so well with all these....

During the visit of a group of people, I was going around with them for a few hours and I was told over that one day of what I have done in my past. 1. Someone told me her cell member told them a testimony involving me which from then until now, it has encouraged her of not afraid of being different then others who is non Christian. To keep her to stay strong and never give up on making a difference. It's probably just a word I hv said, but it has brought impact to her, later to her husband and children...

2.  I have during my time in Faith Christian Centre, had trained a few badges of cell leaders and one of them told me what I have told her had so much impact on her until today. It has kept her moving and going, wherever she goes, wherever she serves. 

After hearing them both, I ponder over these for a week. I didn't feel extremely happy or sad over these. Instead, I wonder how many things I have said and done that has hurt and destroyed others? I have heard good things from others because it is easier to share with me when thing is good. But what about bad things? 

Yes, I have done a lot. If I start counting, there's a few who is priest today was my cell member once. There's a huge numbers of people who is in full time used to be my cell members too.... There's many who know how to play guitar, lead cell group, became priest and full time workers because of me too! But how many did I not know that I have hurt and destroyed at the same time?

2 years ago, how many has been discouraged by my break down? How many were discouraged and gave up on Jesus because of my retrieve and gave up upon CCL? I never get the chance to explain what and why and how it ended up that I gave up CCL. People generally thought I was upset over a few persons and all. To the end, those people were part of the disappointment....too! To a point, I didn't bother to even explain, to gain them back because to me, it is better not to have discouragement in my life than having them to destroy me. 

I met a few CCL people last Sunday. How much do they want me back? I will say, they don't at all. Besides being shock seeing me still alive in church, they didn't even send their greetings. Only God knows who is saying what to them. I don't want to bother. 

Interestingly, I met someone who returned from Australia and she asked if I am alright. She said she heard someone said I was depressed and sometimes from my fb she saw that I was upset about certain things. Come on.... Am I not a normal human being whom I will voice my frustration? 

In the area of glorifying God, i wonder if it is easier to glorifying God or not glorifying God. I wish and hope I can continue to focus on God then people arounds me. Who cares what they think and how they look at me as... I am accountable for God alone!!!

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"Not glorifying God"?

Few months after my dad had a stroke, many told us 'he is not glorifying God in his condition now'. I have been pondering over it.  Who are they to judge and how much do they know about what God's plan was and is for my dad? Every weekend when I went back home and saw my dad, I can feel how difficult thing is for him.  He can't even kill himself, that's how hard it is for him.  For those who can still have the freedom to kill yourself, you are still in a better position.  Yes. I don't think everyone can understand this.  But just because I went through the phrase of life where I rather die then lives here in the world and I can still can make that choice, if i want to. But my dad, is at the point where he can't even do anything about it.  He is literally 'waiting' for the day to come, the ... 'appointed time' according to His will. 

Is he not glorifying God because he is not recovering?  If one understand how does God plans things and make a person to sacrifies and suffer just to uplift another, then one will know what 'glorifying God' really means.  

I must say, even though thousand and million is saying that my dad is not glorifying God, but I can tell you, he has during these 2 to 3 years, has been the only thing that keeps me alive and made me manage my life 'better'.  He has even 'rescued' me from all the accusation and hardship in all area of my life.  I wouldn't have 6 months break if not because of my dad's condition.  I wouldn't have been closer to my mum if it is not because of my dad's condition.  I wouldn't have been getting all my old friends back if not because of my dad's condition.  I wouldn't have gotten this condominium if not because of my dad's condition.  etc. etc. 

Of course there's not many who can understand all these and there's so many still trying to take things for granted.  But as much as that's going on, I somehow manage to handle it much better these days.  Everything is now became 'temporary'. Nothing is permanent, including sadness, hardship, happiness. All will be gone and pass away ... that's how I look at it these days and that's make me feel easier and happier.  

Glorifying God? I guess that definition and understanding can only be 'judged' by God, not anyone else. 

- "Not glorifying God'?-