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May be what I have achieved is not what to the others as 'brilliant'.  Well, I am not smarter than anyone.  I am not more capable than anybody.  I don't come from a businessman's family.  I don't have a rich dad and mom.  I never excel in my studies.  I always struggle to pass all the exams.  I do not have a dad who is a lawyer to back me up.  I do not have a dad who is rich enough to send me to study master degree, etc.  Well, many has their first car which is 100 fold better than what mine is.  Many has their own firm when they graduated.  They have been wearing a luxury watch since young.  Own their own house when they are 18.  Have a few properties in their hand when they just graduated, or while they are still studying.  While I was hopping from one bus to another bus, some already driving a Merz or Ferrari.
All my classmates on my first year of college has a car, a condominium and their father or mother is/are a lawyer, having their own firm.  I felt so out of place and obviously, I have problem even understanding a sentence I read in my law book, but my classmates were all English speaking.  I feel so 'low class' compare to them.
I worked my way out.  I own and gained things with my own hand.  Unlike others, who never know how hard it's for someone to work and earn their money.  Most of them now a day, started their first job with at least RM4K pay.  Me? Let's not mention.... as I started to do part time when I was in England so that I can pay for my rental every week, with only received 4 pounds per hour.  I remember the first time I managed to save up and used the money to get a camera tripod from Jessop.com.  I was like having the best and happiest day I ever had.  Managed to get something I really like and wish for.  Saved about 6 months.  That's satisfaction ... it's so hard to describe really.
It's not easy to work hard and smart to earn every penny.  I am not those who sit there and wait for works to come in and receive money.  I am not working but not EARNING.  I am EARNING every penny with sweat and tears.
I was telling a friend this evening that, when people saw me, they won't even think of giving me anything to bless me.  Not even service.  Because they will have the impression that a lawyer has everything she needs and she's rich and she doesn't need 'blessing'.  Is this true?  You will never think of blessing a lawyer or a doctor? So, we only bless those who are poor and needy? I am not so sure about that teaching in the bible.  Seriously.... when was the last time you blessed a lawyer?
I won't say i never receive any blessing from others.  I did.  Some great people did blessed me.  To begin with, my uncle blessed me a lot, by sending and supporting me to study law even though he hates lawyer. Lisa Kong of course blessed me always with lots of fruits and food and gifts and laughters and time.
Well, .... I am not a famous lawyer who has a rich and wealthy background.  I have earned everything by myself.  - of course with God! hehe...
Hence, I love this... I treasure everything I have. Compare to others who has it since young and as gift from their parents... I think I have better satisfaction, even though... it's only 'cheap stuffs' still.
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