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I put at my MSN the subject title: "I deserve a slap on my face" last night and this morning, once my computer is on, I received a few messages from friends and relatives asking me why do I think I deserve a slap. Well, my general answer would be, because of my stupid thinking stupid action and stupid emotions, whatever... that I deserve a slap. Some of course reacted towards it by slapping me on my face as the sign of their love to me of course, so that I can feel better and some, besides slapping me, has even treated me with a wonderful lunch. Thanks LK and DO. Really nice of both of you.

Oh well, a friend also commented that, it's ok to make mistakes and failed in my journey as long as I know how to get up and not only walk, but run again. I guess, she is in a way, correct... because many successful people have failed many times, more than I have and today, they succeeded. I can see the 'outcome'... but the process of getting there, seriously... is killing, especially I can't see even the 'slight sign' ...

More over, life got tough since I got back from England. I don't 'enjoy' most of the time here anymore, especially some people arounds me... I know they care, they do very much care, but I just can't pull myself up to be with them. So, if you happen to find me to be with you for the past few weeks and get disturbed by me... I am comfortable to be with you. hahahaha....

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