Defeated?

Wonder of all fights, who are being defeated?  When church has quarrels, who get defeated? When the leaders gets pulled down from their seats, who get defeated? When people got angry, who gets defeated? When dissatisfaction, anger, unhappiness ruled, who gets defeated? I have the opinion that, WE ARE!.  ALL OF US!  Let me announced once and for all if you haven't heard the shouting victory yes:  The winner of this game is Satan!!!!  Yes.  Are you hearing it?  Satan won!
While you are bringing up all law suits, stupid arguments, stupid allegations, voice our your dissatisfaction, angry with the people who brought the matters up, angry with those 'betrayers', ... the Satan is the one who were and still, jumping shouting with joy!  Jesus' face were slap again and again.... because of our stupid actions.  Nope. It's not just Bishop Albert Vun's fault. It's not just Joshua Kong's fault.  It's not just one person's fault.  It's all of us who keep bringing down the glory of God by our action.  YES.  I do believe we all have our reasons and good intention in the beginning.  But the methods used, were just turned wrong.  I remember I keep reminding myself that Satan is smart, so smart that even we all get defeated, we didn't realised it.  You might want to point your fingers on others saying they started it or whatever... but, it doesn't matter who started it, it matters now... of how it ends.  Everyone started their career wanted to earn good money and raise their family happily.  Everyone wants to get married and have a nice family.  No one ever expect their spouse will commit adulterous, no one expect themselves will at the end turn out to be greedy and commit criminal breach of trust because of greed.  Satan is THAT good if you haven't realised this yet.  Satan turn a good intention into bad ... so that Satan wins.  In this case, ... we all are loser... and the winner IS Satan.
Well, who let Satan wins? WE ALL ARE! We all get 'used' by Satan.
I asked a friend last year whether she realised, she was used by Satan to destroyed me.  Whether the church realised they are used by Satan to destroy me.  Nope.  They didn't realised.  They didn't even want to admit it.  They pushed the blame to me saying I am the one who has lost focus on God.  I must tell you the truth that, i didn't lost focus on God at all.  It's just because I am so close with God that I realised, we are destructive ourselves.  I keep praying for the right move.. asking God to spare me to be used by Satan one day to destroy His name.  God spare me indeed.  I was out of all these non-sense before it hits.  I left that church that's full of Satan and out of being part of it.  I am glad God listens to me and my prayer.  I must say, God loves me.
Are you defeated now and lost your passions for God because of this matter? If you are, you are defeated because you walk with man rather than God.  I am not.  Somehow, this matter didn't affect me much.  Instead, my passions for God continue to rise to another level. Where's my focus when everyone goes against me and said I am insane and I have spiritual problem, etc?  My focus was and still is, with God alone. That, keeps me moving and having more passion for God.
Is how much time you spend in church and how many position you hold in church are the ways to determine how close are you to God? Apparently, it's NOT.  People do not realised they got cheated by Satan in this even after they get cheated.  They thought they are serving God? But if serving God doesn't make you grow spiritually and all you did was to fight like a lawyer in court for your own 'benefits', then... unfortunately, you are NOT serving God per se.  You are serving yourself.  Building your own reputation.
Remember the leaders I met in Christ Church Likas... it's heartache and sadness whenever I thought of them. Their heart is as hard as a ROCK. Not a stone.  A ROCK.  Unwilling to change, unwilling to listens, full of selfish ambitious and full of pride.  They can't even understand the difference between one who graduated from a theological school with one who doesn't.  They always think they still know everything the BEST.  No heart of submission.  It's a terrible place than a pub.  Why people end up liking pub? Because it's an easier place to go.  You need to be very careful to speak, to act in church... but not the pub.
Well, at least, until today, people still say, Lin Pei San is insane or has mental problem.  Really? I do? If you still cannot see what I saw, you probably IS the one who has  mental problem. Not me.
Yes.  I think you are so much defeated than I am.
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