Good lawyer?

I have been struggling about continuing my practice as a lawyer. Many do know I hate being a lawyer, more so someone who is going to do all the arguments in Court and get bullied ALL THE TIME. Yes, that's me. I have been trying to be brave, trying to be bold and trying to stand on my feets for my cases and none of the time, I miss being BULLIED. Why? Because I don't look like I know my case and I don't have a look which stick out at my face and says "I am good, beware". I do have a face where everyone think I just graduated. That's why. The reason why am I not dressing and acted like one fierce lawyer is simple.... I don't want to be one. I learned the lesson from one case and after that, I acted just like them.... being good outside the court, and inside the court, I bite them one by one. That's what I learn and that's the practice here in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. I happen to have a case in Tawau years ago and my opponent is a very senior lawyer. We fought so much on our clients' behalf and sad to say, the trial didn't go on but I managed to get a consent judgment for my client. The case is still going on but in a very slow progress. I called her up end of December 2010 to tell her I will be on long leaves and her genuine concern is, whether I am doing alright. After that, she keeps encouraging me at least once a month by sms. I called her today for the case again and all she is concern is how am i doing, etc. and so I told her what happen and the possibility of me going back to Tawau, etc. She is kind enough to encourage me and give me a piece of her opinion. I must say, she is a very good lawyer, really.... and she says she is going to talk to her partner and see what they can do for me, be it in KK or in Tawau. Isn't this what I call helpful? Oh well... it's pain in the heart too at the same time when I realised even someone like my opponent is treating me nicer than people I used to call them 'friend'. This is really a joke.... Well, how do you define a good lawyer? I will say, a good one doesn't take things personally... and they respect their opponent. Trust me, there's not many on earth..........

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