Busy

I think I have an emotion to cope.  When things are too busy and stressful, my emotions will be so hard to control.  Impatient overruled everything else.  Staff got scolded and I get so impatient on myself.  People who MSN me gets annoyed by my non replied, etc.
Anyway, a friend commented that I used to be off from office at 4:30pm but now, even when she leaves her office at 5:30pm, I am still working in the office.  These few months I am worried so much about income and all, but somehow, God has all in control.  Court matters were rescheduled and moved forward, etc.  Even though that worries me because once all these matters are over, I will have less work and less income.  However, ... I am seriously enjoying these busy schedule.
I went home for a week plus last week as 2 cases were on trial.  Everyone thought my mom will have my company for the whole week, but non of them know how busy I was and I few hours I get to spent time with my parents.  Anyway.... I have been busy....  and I am missing Nathan a lot.... hehe...
- Busy -

Learning from senior counsels.

2 weeks ago, we received a notice of hearing from the High Court at Tawau. 2 of my trials fixed in December were rescheduled to this week. I have not filed anything for direction be given by Senior Assistant Registrar for my 3rd Party proceeding and I won't think I have the time for it now. I will be forced to withdraw my 3rd party claim against the parties.  It's a serious trial and allegation and it involves a lot of parties.  It's my first time that trial involves 16 witnesses with 3 document examination experts.  it's also first time, I am attending a trial last more than 3 days. The 2 cases scheduled for 4 days trials, but we couldn't finish it.  The court ended up to fix another day, 12 November to continue with the trial. 
This time, I am not having a lots of works because most of the time, the main counsels did even my part of the works as they do need that too. So, I am the junior this time learning from the seniors, which happen to be one, my own master in Sabah and another, the very famous counsel in Sabah.  I am very much impressed by their humility, to learn, to help me, to teach me when I needed. I seriously have learned a lot.  I don't have chances to learn from others by following senior or master to court, it is these kind of chances that I learn as much as I can.
I am happy despite the tiredness because from this, I have the chance to learn.
- Learning from senior counsels -

Your Hand or God's?

I know I probably is going to say something which is completely contrary to my job or who am I.  I just can't  keep quiet after reading the Truthacs. blog.  Knowing that a bunch of people from Christ Church Likas trying to oppose to Bishop's decision and question over his authority and power and the way he does thing, I just wonder for a long while.... since I 'disappear' from CCL for the past years, ... where were these group of people in CCL who keep saying, they are God's people who is upholding justice for God? I was laughing out loud thinking of one maxim of equity, i.e. no one can gets any justice if they do not come with clean hand themselves.  Same as what the bible told us about casting a stone over Stephan. If you think you are sin-less, then cast the first stone.  How can one who is not doing what they should put a blame on others who is trying to do something?  If you can say you are doing exactly what God is, please......................................... is how you treated me is what God wants you to do? You can't even love a person, how can you UPHOLD the so called justice?  I seriously wonder what's in the mind of these people.  Being opposing party is the ONLY way? You can't share the vision?  You can't understand because you do not see the heart and vision God placed in this person.  When I entered into CCL, there's a vision and mission God placed on me too. But all I got was complete opposition.  I won't forget whole of my life what Rev George said during the first PCC meeting I attended.  Those words were with bones and punches in my heart and face.
To me, if you cannot even love your neighbour as yourself (the 2nd commandment), then forget about love your God with all your heart, your soul, your mind and your strength like you keep saying you ARE.  CCL, you were not in all these.  It's all about selfish ambitious and pride here.
All I saw is, mans, want to be God these days..............  come on people, seek your heart and mind and soul.  Try to be a better christian/God's fearing people.  Look at the KINGDOM of God rather than yours.  Diocese of Sabah is not yours.  The money you own is not yours.  The money you gave as an offering is not yours.  Don't be stupid!
- Your Hand or God's? -