Your Hand or God's?

I know I probably is going to say something which is completely contrary to my job or who am I.  I just can't  keep quiet after reading the Truthacs. blog.  Knowing that a bunch of people from Christ Church Likas trying to oppose to Bishop's decision and question over his authority and power and the way he does thing, I just wonder for a long while.... since I 'disappear' from CCL for the past years, ... where were these group of people in CCL who keep saying, they are God's people who is upholding justice for God? I was laughing out loud thinking of one maxim of equity, i.e. no one can gets any justice if they do not come with clean hand themselves.  Same as what the bible told us about casting a stone over Stephan. If you think you are sin-less, then cast the first stone.  How can one who is not doing what they should put a blame on others who is trying to do something?  If you can say you are doing exactly what God is, please......................................... is how you treated me is what God wants you to do? You can't even love a person, how can you UPHOLD the so called justice?  I seriously wonder what's in the mind of these people.  Being opposing party is the ONLY way? You can't share the vision?  You can't understand because you do not see the heart and vision God placed in this person.  When I entered into CCL, there's a vision and mission God placed on me too. But all I got was complete opposition.  I won't forget whole of my life what Rev George said during the first PCC meeting I attended.  Those words were with bones and punches in my heart and face.
To me, if you cannot even love your neighbour as yourself (the 2nd commandment), then forget about love your God with all your heart, your soul, your mind and your strength like you keep saying you ARE.  CCL, you were not in all these.  It's all about selfish ambitious and pride here.
All I saw is, mans, want to be God these days..............  come on people, seek your heart and mind and soul.  Try to be a better christian/God's fearing people.  Look at the KINGDOM of God rather than yours.  Diocese of Sabah is not yours.  The money you own is not yours.  The money you gave as an offering is not yours.  Don't be stupid!
- Your Hand or God's? -

Different angles...

We always being approached by clients and they always tell us their side of the stories. Most lawyers will listens and believe 100% what their clients told them and they will fight without reserve for their clients and win the case for them, even though the story might not be how it was. 

When conflicts happen, there's always more than one story.  The Plaintiff has their story, the Defendant has their story and if a 3rd party is being added, it will be another story.  If there's more than 1 Defendant, there's another story.  So, on one case, it can be very complicated. If a lawyer who only looks at their benefit and refuse to listen to the other side of the story, thing will remain to have only few versions of stories.  

Many people refuse to look at other person's angle or put themselves in other people's shoes.  I guess it's the first time my old friend heard how much I voiced dissatisfaction about CCL and its leaders.  I still cry when I talk about it.  Yes.  That's exactly the main reason I broke down with depression.  Well, God loves me a lot I can tell.  He has rescue me out of that place where I wasn't being welcome of.  Yes.  CCL never welcome me when I think back.  If not because of Bishop John Yeo, I probably had suffered even more terrible experience than what I had.  

People at CCL never and will not look at the angle I was and am looking at.  If you think I hate the church, you are wrong.  I don't hate the church.  My heart aches every single time I thought of CCL and how destructive this church and people are.  How lost they are and how unrepented they are.  How proud they are to the point I think they really think they are God.  People says, you won't feel a thing if that person or thing you lost doesn't matter to you.  It's true... 

Well, all i can say is... we should look at every angle when it comes to different views on things.  No one can be 100% correct, EVERY SINGLE TIME.  I don't either. 

- Different angles - 

Winning and Losing...

People find it hard to not winning a case.  Everyone wants to win!  No one want to lose.  Losing means weak, not smart enough, not good enough.  People asking me why it is so easy for me to agree with the decision given.  I have to tell you because I am litigant and I always subjects to the decision judges made.  Judges are human being and whether we like it or not, there are so good decision and there are some bad one.  I have filed in 3 cases for the same cause of action.  2 were decided by one judge before he was elevated and I won the 2 cases.  The 3rd one fell on another judge and yet, the new judge gave a very different decision and, no, not that I have lost the case. I just didn't get my judgment on summary stage. What I should I do? Appeal? Got angry? Frustrated? Hate the new judge? Speak bad things about the judge, etc? Come on.... I am an officer of the court and I am subject to the judges and their decision.  No one can win their cases 100%.  We win some, lose some... and that's just life.
So, why do anyone fighting against being not happy with the decision made?
Especially when it comes to the decision of the Archbishop of the South East Asia Province? Who ask him to make a decision in the first place? It's the group of people aren't they? So, now, they are not happy about the decision made and wanted to appeal? What if the appeal decision is the same? What's next? Who is going to be the next bishop? Who do you all want to be the next bishop really? I don't know where are these people leading the lost lambs to... for one thing that's very certain.  Many souls are being forgotten and we are wandering around like lost sheep who has no shepherd. We have certainly lost our focus.  Our main focus - making disciple of all nations.
- winning and losing... -