Law?

I had my second teaching class today and instead of a full tutorial class, I ended up have to do a bit of "re-cap" with my students as I was informed by the Dean that some of the students were completely blank after my 1st lesson 2 days ago. Why am I not feeling shock? Well, I guess it's because I was a blank and as blur as they are when I was in my first year. I have 10 coursemates and 10 of them, were children of some lawyers and it's my first encounter to not only children of lawyers, but also people who doesn't speak a word of chinese. All the discussion and teaching and all were conducted in English and no one ever explain to me what are the legal terms means. Worse still, I finished my STPM then and the other 10 took A Level and all of them has knowledge about law except me. Being a minority in the class, my lecturers choose to ignore my present all together. I beg your pardon, not only the lecturers, but also all my fellow coursemates.

I recall that they started to changed their perception over me, the chinese girl only when I scolded higher then any of them in my assignments. They started to ask me question, trying to includes me in their lunch appointment, etc. etc. However, I disregarded them because of the way they treated me earlier on.

My class this afternoon, consists of students from business class and also diploma in law. It's quite hard for me to 'communicate' with those from the business class as they were like me before, they went totally blank ... while, the extreme is, the law students found me a bit too slow in my teaching. It's so hard for me to find the balance point. I am still thinking what's the best way to help the business class students to be able to understand the 'langauge' - legal terms easier. There's no other way then to read and look into dictionary and keep writing.... , I think.

I really don't know what I should do! Hmm...

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Overspent!

As much as I wanted to be debts free, I feel depressed over things and people over the past few months and hence, I realised, spending is a theraphy somehow to 'fill-in' the gap of 'emptiness'. Ah ha... and so, due to that, I keep spending ... for things which I wanted so much to things that I can lives without, i.e. horse riding, etc.

Yes, I am feeling much better after some crazy shopping, some doctors visit and making a bit hole in my pocket... however, instead of the previous 'pain', now I am suffering from the 'financial pain'. hahahaha... I think I really digged the hole so deep until a point i started to worry about myself now. Well, but to think of if, this is something to give thanks to because at least, i feel worry abotu it... and not sitting on the issue and let myself just go bankrupt. hahaha...

Ya, I think instead of usual spending, I literally overpsent. hahaha....

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Plan?

This is a joke... as much as I wanna get out from this place, as much as I can't go anywhere. I wanted to leave this place 2 weeks ago and on the same day, I received 2 sealed Summons In Chambers that I need to attend Courts on the 1st September. I am somehow stucked by a 10 minutes court cases this morning and I am stuck here for the whole long weekend. How great!

As much as I wanted a holiday, I am so much needed here for the event! Where everybody is relaxing and taking their own sweet time peacefully, I am left alone dealing with all these people who even called me on public holiday. Don't they have a life and respect towards a soul?

And now, I am still stuck and after the event, my part time will set in and that's it! Plan? I am not sure if this whole thing is destroying me or what... but I can tell you, I have finally collapsed. hahahaha...

What to plan? What to do? NOTHING that i wanna do can be done any way... !!!!!! YOO HOO!!!!!

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