Breaking point!

I thought i was the only one who had reached my breaking point when my dad had suffered stroke. But that's not the case.  Some, taking it as a normal thing because besides hearing it from me, they do not know my dad well. And most of those i know in KK are from this category.  Some, do know my dad very well and what happen to him, has somehow affected them. Last week, i had someone who came all the way from New Zealand to spent 15 mins with my dad.  Someone who was here and migrated. He just heard the news from his son who is in Hong Kong, whom were one i met up with on my last trip.

Last night, i went out with one of my best friend who came back from England and she's probably the first few whom i told about what had happen to me last year. Not all of course. But from facebook status, she does realised i am not only depressed, but was also met the breaking point which she once suffered. While i was sending her home, she told me she just remember i was the one who brought her to church. That was 13 years old.  Along the way, her life has not been easy. With the demise of her dad while she was in England on her 3rd year, with the demise of her youngest sister few years later, with nearly being adjudicated bankrupt, with a sister who committed suicide.... she believed in Christ and we have been around her all these years.  Suddenly she told yesterday there's twice these few years that she refuse or angry with God.  She couldn't understand or find a reason to believe Him anymore.  once, when her best friend suffered stroke 3 years back and died.  and now, my dad.... someone who served Him all of His life, who is also suffering from all these pain and suffering. And so, when the church asked her to be a cell leader, she's very confuse and she is still confuse. She asked, if that's what i am feeling... 

Seriously, i don't know!  Is it God or the church? Both are not making sense. Especially with those hypocrites in the church. i seriously don't know.... all i know was,  i've met the breaking point and i have been broken because i didn't and still don't have any support.

i still think everyone eventually will reach that point at least once in their life time.  When this came from this friend of mine who had gone through so much,  i know how much my dad's incident had impacted her.  However, i am glad she is still attending church and serving God in this new place she just moved to. 

- Breaking Point-