Entering the 12th year of practicing law

It's never my intention to practice law until the 12th year, or rather, my senior (ex-boss) told me to just practice and in a while, time will reach 12 or 20 years.  As a strong christian, he reminded me that, it doesn't matter how we started the journey, but it is important how you end it.  He reminded me that, the world is full of temptation, we must always keep our eyes on Him.

Over the years, besides Hok Chong, my ex-boss, I have to say, 11 years of practice is only possible with His grace and mercy and blessing.  I don't know how I did it, but.... 11 years had gone past.  It is a celebration because I couldn't remember, besides people came along to 'take me for granted', there's anyone else in this 'world' that has blessed me in my career advancement. Unlike others who has mentor(s) or advisor(s) or senior to advise them or tell me what to do next, I struggle through ever files I handle, myself.  Do I have a master whom I can rely on? Do I have anyone supporting me financially? Do I have anyone who support me emotionally and mentally? Well, I must say, there is not only NONE, but also I am grateful enough if people arounds me are not making things worse for me. I don't think anyone would understand how I manage to survive until today.

I can only say, helps never comes from human being.  It's all God and His mercy and grace.  12th years, could be the last year of my practice.  I am not sure.  Only He knows what's my future is.  I don't even plan too because it seems like He is always the one who controls my life and future. All i need to focus now is, how to get through the 12th year of my practice and earn the LLM I need.   Only He knows and holds my future.  So, i can ask Him for Him to bless me and sustain me.

For people who is lending a helping hands (if any), thank you very much.  People like Mun Yee and Ines and Ya Ching, I always grateful to have you all to be around to 'teach me' what to do when I asked. For those people who couldn't even bother to help and yet claim that you know me, etc.  Well, thanks for helping me to grow up relying God more. For those who has been praying, thank you and May God continue to bless you for your wonderful heart.

Lastly, thank you Lord for everything.  You made me feels loved and you made me feels I cannot lives without You!  Thank you.  Please do not leave me alone like people do.

- Entering the 12th year of practicing law -

My Baby....

It's one of the best thing in life so far.... having been able to get something I wanted to get for the past 20 years.  It never crossed my mind to think of getting it. Not when I saw it again in Melbourne last year when my cousin asked me about the 15/16 size of guitar.  Love this Baby Taylor.  I never fancy branded guitar.  I settled with Ibanez for the past 16 years, when I came back to Malaysia.... with all my things went into the sea.  My dad asked if i need a guitar.  Of all thing, i think he knows guitar is my best companion.  So, my only graduation gift was my Ibanez AW50.

I have 4 guitars in UK, all passed on to me by those who left UK.  I gave them all out before I leave.  I have no recollection of memories of what they looks like now.  But it's just guitar, not one belong to me.  I only have this Ibanez AW50 with me.  I have no idea why I picked up Ibanez and why without pickup or cut in.  Most likely i just want something simple, something sounds nice, my favourite dreadnought shape and colour with the non-expensive price.  Speaking price, it's about RM890 then... now could be about RM2K? I am not sure.  It's pretty cool.  I used it when i was serving as worship leader and musician in Christ Church Likas.. until one of the flat came off and i didn't want to spoil it further until i fix it.

That was years before i took up distance learning LLM.  My goodness, God knows how much this LLM causes me, financially and physically.  It consume most of my time ... and even TV i have not spend time to finish a series properly since then.  It's summer holiday and I am not going anywhere for this year and next and so, I think the Ukulele somehow brought me back to my passion for music... and my love for guitar.

Taylor came across my mind and it's not as expensive as before - think i can afford it better now.  It's the size i want as it's a size which i can bring it around everywhere I go and I need one which I carry and yet, my leg can sustain well and it's not heavy, it is easy to move my fingers around.  I did thought of Martin LX1.  But i don't like the shape of guitar. Dreadnought Junior is my kind, but it's bigger and more expensive.  So, I was looking around and back to Baby Taylor.  It's just so handsome and nice.  I couldn't resist that temptation any further.

With all the hassles with one of the music stores and the complication of the authorised dealership and lots of yes or no for warranty and all, I finally got my dear baby ...

I love with Ibanez never ends.  They serves different function.  At least, for now, I don't need to worry about spoiling Ibanez.

After so long, I finally am happy to tell the world, I have a BABY TAYLOR!

- My Baby .... -

Wicked man ...

Gossip seems to be a topic and an issue which is not being able to handle well by many.  Somehow, most people tend to listens to evil lips and their lies rather than the righteous one.  One of the reason, we are advocate because we know that lies did take certain weights when it is told by some 'professional' liars.  They are good.  Whatever they tell others, the story changed completely.  Instead, most of the time, the righteous one doesn't want to talk about things.  They kept silence and they don't bother to clarify.  We always tell the innocent that, he/she needs to SPEAK out to defence themselves to be put into jail.  But most of the time, the innocent people tend to worry too much, think too much... and they have their certain ways of thinking - to protect someone, etc.  But most often, we said they are STUPID.

But wicked man, the Bible says..... listens to evil lips; a liar pays attention to a malicious tongue.  Liar is good to manipulate stories to make it sounds 'right' and most of the time, we, the trained advocate realised, that it is only the wicked on who will go around telling stories (untrue stories) around to make themselves appear to be righteous and good people.

This is not the first time i encounter how evil lips can be. From the moment people uses their lips to hurts me, i know, they did not goes against just me, but against the Lord.  John 15: 18-20 says, "If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first.  If you belong to the world, it would love you as its own.  As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world.  That is why the world hates you.".

There's more and more reason that i found out, why not many people likes me. More and more people who tends to listens to others' beautiful lies and started to unfriend me.  What matters now compare to previous years is that, it doesn't hurt anymore to be unfriended by someone now a day.  I don't mind being  hated for whatever 'reasons' people want to use against me.  My core mind set is still the same. As long as I do what God approves me to do for Him in my life, I will do it, finish it and go home.

For wicked man who listens to evil lips and liar pays attention to malicious tongue...... thanks for letting me know what kind of people you are and probably it is better now than later.

- Wicked man ... -