Future plan...

Oh well, since the beginning of this year, things has been difficult and more so, when things arounds me gets worse every single day without improving and hence, instead of being able to focus, I have lost focus and have been feeling depressed (issues highlighted at another site). The 'what's next' plan is there. Friends has been good to send me job vacancies and many has given me all sorts of suggestion. I have thought about Master Degree and Theological studies and all and due to depression, I am also advised that I shouldn't make any major decision for now. Hence, I am not doing any at the moment.

However, I am feeling quite positive that I should move on as I see no purpose and reason why I should stay here in this place as it only depressed me and demoralising me... so, yes, the time frame is still on and I have decided to move on regardless whether I am thinking sensibly.

Oh well, guess I should use these few months to get the best out of this current situation and be happy... meanwhile, decide on that one option out of many options...

God, show me the way! (that has been my prayer for the past 9 months)

- future plan ... -

Called to the Bar!

Oh well, I actually check through my previous posts for the past few years to see if I have actually written anything on today ever... I posted "Happy anniversary" to myself on Facebook and many asked me what sorts of anniversary am I celebrating. Well, ... I was called to the Bar in Malaya (first Bar) on 30th day of September. Together with me, was a friend whom we still keep in touch and share our expriences together. I sent her a text this morning as in previous years, she was the one who always reminds me of today by wishing me. Well, this year, with new environment arounds her, I have a sense that she doesn't even want to mention to-day.

I guess, without knowing what happen, we have gone through a few years of law practises without the sense of satisfaction at all. We lost the passions somewhere, sometime, somehow... and the system is killing us. Me in particular, when I read through what I wrote in 2008 and 2007, ghoosh................. I can't believe nothing improves since then... is this profession really that bad?

I am glad, today also marks the last day where lawyers in Sabah can give discounts to their client because starting tomorrow, we do not have to fight against the big law firms in town for clients. Fees will be the same anywhere within Sabah and as a small firm, you get the solicitor's attention and not the legal clerks'. So, I hope things will be better after today.

My dear friend has texted me and said it's anniversary but she is not feeling any bit of happiness in herself. I share the same feeling... just that, I am TRYING HARD to make myself a bit happier today. Starbucks after my class later is my own promise to myself later...

Oh well, the different between this year and last years is that, I am doing some part time teaching this year. I am enjoying it, even though i can see, all my students are NOT enjoying it. Either they hates me for making them read and understand or they really hates the law subjects now. Oh well......... it's not very difficult to understand how blur they can get as a first year law students though as I was completely blur during my 1st semester...

Well, it's a day to remember seriously as ... it's the first time, my parents went with me to court and it will be the last too...

- Called to the Bar! -

Weekend away...

Ya, I took the last weekend away from the usual routine and works and hoping that I will get a bit of 'recharge' from a weekend away even though I will have to spend lots of time at the airport and flying. Thank to my dear brother who sent me some airasia vouchers (got it due to delay) and hence, I joined some of my friends t Fraser Hills at Pahang. It's a 2 hours drive from Kuala Lumpur. It's a nice trip seriously. I thought I was at this little town in England but of course, besides the scenary and a bit of cooling air, nothing else looks like England. hahaha...

I must say, a get away trip like this is far more better than spending 2 days at places around KK. At least, I met different people, talked different topics, did a bit of update, unwind from dissatisfaction, anger and depressing moments with friends whom doesn't know whom or what I was talking about. hahaha... , you know... all that sorts and seriously, it helps, at least a bit more than what I can do by myself here.

Well, I am sorry to those whom was not informed that I will be in KL and Fraser Hills over the weekend though... yes, I didn't call or meet up with those whom I usually meet up and I know this is bad.. but well...............

Coming back to work today make me down first when I saw a pay cheque on my table but it's stated as "interim commission".... oh well................. to come to think about it, it is interim anyway... so, what's the big deal? I will still bank in the cheque anyway........ Will definately talk about it with boss when I got the chance to. Again, he is outstation until Thursday. Speaking about calculative, I can be the one who is the least calculative person in the world, but that doesn't make anyone can bully me on this........

- weekend away -