Overspent!

As much as I wanted to be debts free, I feel depressed over things and people over the past few months and hence, I realised, spending is a theraphy somehow to 'fill-in' the gap of 'emptiness'. Ah ha... and so, due to that, I keep spending ... for things which I wanted so much to things that I can lives without, i.e. horse riding, etc.

Yes, I am feeling much better after some crazy shopping, some doctors visit and making a bit hole in my pocket... however, instead of the previous 'pain', now I am suffering from the 'financial pain'. hahahaha... I think I really digged the hole so deep until a point i started to worry about myself now. Well, but to think of if, this is something to give thanks to because at least, i feel worry abotu it... and not sitting on the issue and let myself just go bankrupt. hahaha...

Ya, I think instead of usual spending, I literally overpsent. hahaha....

- overspent! -

Plan?

This is a joke... as much as I wanna get out from this place, as much as I can't go anywhere. I wanted to leave this place 2 weeks ago and on the same day, I received 2 sealed Summons In Chambers that I need to attend Courts on the 1st September. I am somehow stucked by a 10 minutes court cases this morning and I am stuck here for the whole long weekend. How great!

As much as I wanted a holiday, I am so much needed here for the event! Where everybody is relaxing and taking their own sweet time peacefully, I am left alone dealing with all these people who even called me on public holiday. Don't they have a life and respect towards a soul?

And now, I am still stuck and after the event, my part time will set in and that's it! Plan? I am not sure if this whole thing is destroying me or what... but I can tell you, I have finally collapsed. hahahaha...

What to plan? What to do? NOTHING that i wanna do can be done any way... !!!!!! YOO HOO!!!!!

- Plan? -

What will catch your attention?

Burning bush caught Moses attention and we shared in our cell meeting last night that, there's many things and circumstances will catch our attention... and mine in particular, I was reminded that, it's Him who shut all the doors years ago that made me came to this city. Some people won't notice what God wants to tell us when we are happy and we can handle our life well. We put on our 'auto-pilot' button and we won't notice God's presence. Often, people will only realised they need God and God is there when they meet some 'disaster' in life and the first question they asked, not "why have i forgotten about my God?", but "Where are you, God?" "Do you really exist?", "Why have you forsaken me?".

Funny isn't it? What will catch you attention today, this moment? Did you notice God is speaking to you? Or, did you only heard what your heart said, what your boss said, what your friends said, what your colleagues said, what's your parents said, what's your boyfriend or girlfriend said?

Weird.... we said we need God only for a while? Is that what we are saying? Hmm...

I hope your answer to my question today is not 'when disaster happens'. If it is, God bless you!

- What will catch your attention? -