The Price...

The price of being too close to some friends will cause you: -

(a) being treated without respect;

(b) being scolded and/or shouted without understand why only they can shout at you but not the other way round;

(c) being hit and when you asked them to stop, they refuses;

(d) insensitive to your emotions status;

(e) being disregarded;

(f) not being respected, i.e. they just ask you to follow their plans without asking you if you want to;

(g) etc. etc. etc.

I was not very happy with things in life for the past 2 weeks and last week, I was completely down with bad mood... and unhappiness... the only way to ease my pain was to watch TV... thanks to TVB which has their 4 final episods of one of the series in 2 days and as I missed some of the previous episods, I just starred at the TV for hours and hours and hours...., firstly, hoping that it will make me tired and I can go to bed... secondly, hoping that my brain will stop thinking of things I do not want to think about for a while.... none... none of those 2 things works... I ended up having sleepless nights still.....

Well? In addition to that, I was seriously drained out completely on weekend with all the church programmes and all and with people whom I don't feel like going out with... ghoosh.. I am even more down yesterday and today.... hahahahaha...

Time to deal with it? Yeah.. why not? If I am capable of, I would have done so long long time ago. Self pity? Well... up to you to define... I just need a peace of mind for a little while............but is this possible to happen this week? I don't think so...... as this week is super pack.

The price of being too 'joyous' and/or too 'it's ok mood'... caused me to lose myself for few weeks...

- the price -

Dream!

I remember stepped into a ship full of books the first time when I was very young... I think about 5 years old. Not to Doulos, but Logos. Yes, you got me right, it's the LOGOS, not Logos II. Dad and mom gave us the freedom to choose whatever books we want and we just grab what we feel like having (we still have it until today... but mostly, given to my nephew and niece now). That was the first memory I have with ship full of books... (Tawau has not much resources of books then).

Of course, Logos serves on other places after that and Doulos is serving around Asia and so, instead of Logos and Logos II, I visited Doulos a couple of times before today. If my memory serves me well, I visited Doulos at least 3 times since I came back from England.

I remember when I was in my teen, I was so impressed by the way they share gospel and how they serves people through their services and sharing every places they stopped at. My dream, was to be able to serve on the ship for at least 6 months. I think since then, God has placed 'evangelism' in my heart.. yes... it's through Logos and Doulos that this 'dream' was created.

Now that Doulos is finishing it's seaworthiness... my dream somehow still stays... in fact, I am reminded... of the 'calling' I have through and from it.

Is this a dream that I cannot never fulfill? Will it be Doulos II? I really pray this ministry will continue.... are you?

p/s picture taken from http://www.mvdoulos.org/

- Dream! -

Sandakan trip!

It's merdeka day today. I used not to have anything special on merdeka day and I have never really join any celebration ever since I left school.

This year, with some close friends around, I agreed with their proposal to visit Sandakan. Sandakan is not new place to me as I travelled to this place many times in the past, for unaccountable camps (diocesan youth camp, Girls' Brigade, etc) and visiting my relatives.

However, I have not been to this place for years now. We booked our hotel, Sabah hotel with the special government rate and we are so blessed to have a friendin Sandakan to bring us around in visiting places and having all the local delicacies.

Overall, it's a wonderful 2 days holiday. However, I am now exhausted and am going to bed before 9pm...

It's a wonderful trip...

- Sandalsn trip!-