Home sweet Home!

My alarm clock sounds and I seriously hate that sound every morning. I look at the clock this morning and goodness.. it's really so early. 5am in the morning. I was reluctant to get up from my bed but yet, my brain received the signal of 'urgent! Need immediate reaction' signal and hence, my body started to move and I got up 7 minutes after that. I have a 7am flight to catch this morning for a 9am hearing at Tawau High Court. I am now at the airport typing this. Thanks to a friend who is kind enough to wake up as early as I was and sent me to the airport. I am sure she is in bed again upon reaching home, for another 1 hour 15 minutes at least. hehe...

Well, even though going to Tawau for work purposes, I however feel like spending some time with my parents which I have not seen for a month plus now. So, it's time to check them out, to see if they have any needs which I can provide for them. So, yes... I am taking tomorrow morning off from work too as I only be coming back to KK tomorrow at about 11am (thinking of bringing them for breakfast first mah... ). Hence... hopefully nothing bothers me after today's court hearing.

Yawn... as I did a bit of reading (4 cases and a submission), I only went to bed at about 1am (I had cell group meeting before that wo....and I only got those stuffs 5 minutes before I left office).

Hmm... it's about time to board now. Yyyyyyaaaaawwwwwwnnnnnn......

-Home sweet Home!-

Trust!

Ever wonder how much trust you have on a person? What's the maximum and what's the minimum? How much do you trust a traffic light? When the light turned green, do you ever doubt whether you should just go or will you doubt if the traffic light is malfunction or not? How much trust do you have on a close friend? How much trust would you put to your own client if you are me?

I seriously trusted some people very much and yet some, I don't trust at all. I remember months ago, there's this client instructed me to helped her in the job and I seriously trusted she will pay my bill because she did paid for the one piece of work I did for her previously. Hence, I trusted her. Well, I must say, she has yet to pay my bill until today. It's almost 3 months now. Another one, whom we in the firm know they always paid our bill and yet, this particular of bill, she has yet to pay me too.

So, when clients walked in to my office asked me to do work for them now a day, I always asked them to pay the deposit (used to be nominal, but not anymore). Just like this morning when a client walked in to ask me to sue someone for acted negligently in causing her dog died, I asked for a few hundreds just to send a letter out.

Don't get me wrong, I am not bothered very much by all these bills as the amount is really very small. Instead of the bill, I asked myself about trust. I suddenly realise I have very little trust on people arounds me. Some people I trusted, has certainly disappointed me, i.e. I trusted this so and so be able to handle this particular job well for me and yet, he/she didn't manage to even finish the job, not to say... to my satisfaction. Some people, I have trusted them by telling them things and yet, at the end fo the day, I only found out that, she has discussed my 'problem' with someone else. Betrayed? Hmm... that's such a strong word to use. But... I cannot really think of any word to replace it though. Well...may be not so of the real meaning of 'betrayal', but... may be just the feeling???

I cannot remember how hard it was for me to trust a person. I just happen to trusted some somehow and I hope, I really hope... I am not being disappointed... well, ... can't really control that can I? hahahahahaha...

I guess, what I need is to remind myself of the traffic light... of how much trust I have on a traffic light... and hopefully, I can build up my trust towards people arounds me. Yah?

- trust ! -

Anniversary!

I just wrote a date... and today is 30.09.2008... I cannot believe it.... another year gone past... annother anniversary for myself... I was called to the Bar in Kuala Lumpur on 30.09 .... time flies....!!!!!!!!!