Life is not in your hand...

I hope the title itself doesn't provoke you or offend you in any way. Some of you would think that I am totally wrong but of course some of you agreed with me because I have been trying to tell you this for the past few days. hahaha...

Last saturday, someone called and told me that a youth's father passed away unexpectedly while he was singing on stage. Well, to many, that kind of news is shocking and to the extend, some of you cannot accept it easily. I am not sure when was the first time I encounter with this kind of situation. May be because I experienced many such occassions before since young and probably because I always follow my dad for visitation and therefore I experienced lot of things including death more than a lot of you and that to me, just another person passed away. Therefore, it was so disturbing when I was one or two people who cannot worship on Sunday during the service and in everything that they said, they think, they do, they mentioned about this incident, or death or anything like that. I just cannot believe that people can get so emotional over things like this easily until they cannot focus on some other things like attending worship on Sunday morning.

I am not sure if you are prepared to die. Some of you really love being in this world but some people like me, would love to be with the Father in heaven. So, do ponder for a while of whether you are ready to die. If you think you can control your life for not dying for another 5 years, you are very wrong. I am serious. THINK!!!

After a good breakfast with 2 friends this morning, as usual, I took the same road to work. As my car turned into a road near the land office and as I wander why is there so many car at that hour, I saw a car stopped in the right lane of the road. It's a 4 WD, FORD Ranger. Wow... I look closer and I saw police car. As I am nearer to the car and the police car, I saw a man under the car. I can't describe the shape of the man under the car because it's too disguisting and honestly, it is horrible...

Well, ... I bet the man under the car didn't expect to die today by car, 4WD Ford Ranger. What do you think? He probably planned what to do after coming out from the Land Office. He probably planned to have dinner with someone tonight or tomorrow. But... I guess that's the reality. We can't control or take charge of our lives.

So, are you ready to think about your 'future'? Life after death? What sort of life you want after you die? Ops... never thought of it? Then you better think NOW!!!! I shall tell you a good option tomorrow...

- life -

Decision AGAIN?

About a month ago, I was searching for an answer for one of my file and I was told by some lawyers that the best person to ask for it is to call my master. Well, I did thought of it but I am a kind of person who doesn't like to trouble others. But, without hesitation I called him and I got the answer within seconds. Besides talking about the case, he asked how I am doing. Of course I told him I am doing fine and well and so on and so forth. We updated each others on our current situation and he did asked if I will consider to go back to Tawau and join him as partner in the near future. I didn't answer him simply because I just moved to Kota Kinabalu. I moved from Tawau to Kuala Lumpur and from Kuala Lumpur to Kota Kinabalu and it never cross my mind that I want to go back Tawau NOW. So, I didn't consider that as an option.

Lately, I wasn't very happy working with my partner althought it is expected but I guess feeling or emotional is really something I cannot control it rationally. Well, ya... I can control by emotions easily. I remember how thing goes the last time I was ruled by emotion. Well, I am always reminded since then that I must be very careful with my emotion. But yes...I am feeling down these few days. For things that my partner did or said and what I did and what I said to her. While I was in this down mood, I called my master for another answer on the same matter. Well, as usual, I got the answer right away and again, he mentioned about whether I will consider to join him back in Tawau. I seriously told him that I will pray about it. I thought this matter will stop here for a while, but it didn't.

This morning, I received a phone call from him. He is in Kota Kinabalu for a trial yesterday and is staying for holiday for a few days. He visited me this afternoon and since my partner wasn't around, we talked about 2 hours and I can see he is really trying to persuade me to go back to Tawau and join him. I seriously feel like it because I know I can definately learn a lot from him and I can certainly earn more and save more for mission trips and so on.

Well, rationally, I think going back is the BEST. But irrationally, I do feel like staying in Kota Kinabalu for a longer time. This firm with my partner is not ended yet. We might not be 100% compartible in all areas of our ways of handling files, clients, things and so on. But it is still going on and I do not feel like giving up it NOW. I seriously am confused.

Last year this time, I was in Tawau. ... One whole year and I have moved to a few places and worked in many different firms. The feeling is just so weird and ... cannot be expressed in words. The last time I was in this situation was in the year 2000. I moved from England to Kota Kinabalu, from Kota Kinabalu to Tawau, from Tawau to Kuala Lumpur. hahaha... isn't my life interesting?

- AGAIN?-

Poor Services...

Well, I cannot remember when was the first time I started to use this service provider, "J". I guess it was since school time because then there was this special price for student. Besides, there isn't any other service provider in this small town call Tawau. So, I guess I have been using its service ever since it started and it was about 15 to 20 years now. Wow, it's such a long time, isn't it? We often heard that the oldest brand always the best but I do not agree. Simply because this service provider has been a nuisance to me lately. I have been receiving email to asked me pay, and I did, but they failed to receive and my account were suspended. Not only that, I lodged a complain on it and the person never get back to me. Of course I did write down who was the one whom I talked to and I did have the report number, but if I mention it, I am not very sure if she will lose her job. Well, and on that particular day, I talked to another guy besides this lady and I have both their names. Well, the worse thing is that we are not receiving our emails. We are receiving a lot of SPAM mail. If this is what Jaring's best way to get their customer's attention, wow... I am IMPRESSED!!!!

My father still have problem accessing the internet and so I called the Branch instead of the Customer service (I have tried, but it didin't work out. At least, they didn't know what to do. You call it a customer service? well, I call it rubbish. They didn't even understand what I am facing). One lady picked up the call and I just told her what happen. Instead of helping me to solve my problem, just suggested "I DO HER WORK" by emailing all the SPAM back to one of their department. I asked her if it is a virus, would they be the one who is going to responsible for it. She kept silent for about 2 minutes. I didn't want to continue because I do expect an answer from her.

Let me conclude this. First, my account was suspended and it is not that I did not pay but they didn't receive my payment due to, not sure whose fault. I did it online through it's Online page, so I guess I can sue the webmaster? Anyhow, I cannot access my account because of that and I suffered a few email losses, inconveniences caused as I need to access internet through other service provider and I am gladful that there's another service provider now and it is working much better. Secondly, I am receiving all sorts of SPAM mails. If this is the way they are dealing with clients, thank you. I think I will do what I should, to close all 3 accounts with "J" and change it to TM. I am definately registering myself for one today. No hesitation after I spoken to this lady this morning.

"J" / any big company or big firm do have this problem. They are now focusing on the customer like corporation and they didn't realise that user like me, could be one of their potential corporation customer one day. Now my mind wander back to 2 years ago where one of their product were being sued. I didn't know the outcome because I have left that firm. But I truely hope they had a bit from that case because of their poor attitudes towards customer like us.

So, those of you who heard me before this to ask ask you to join "J", now you have my 100% confirmation that this service is worse. So, you are right. I do not want to defend for them anymore. Go for the other one. I rest my case.

- poor services -