Sunday, April 16, 2006

Easter...

I woke up early in the morning and prepared myself for the Easter Sunday. Easter is the greatest occasion for all Christian as it is a day that we celebrate that Jesus was resurrected from the death and He won over not only the death but also everything. I reached the church on time, but the church worker who was suppose to open the door was late. I had a wonderful service and I was reminded that 6 years ago, I was still in England and of course, the atmosphere was so much different from today as it is not an occasion for Malaysian, but for Christian only. 6 years had passed. Time flies and my life moves on. While I was still enjoying myself and as I drove back to church after I went to 7 Eleven near my church to get a reload coupon, I saw someone threw a chair over a person who was riding a motorcycle. My first impression was that the guy on the motorcycle must be a robber. I tried my very best to block his way and I almost hit him, but he was really fast and swift and he left. I turned and wanted to see the number plate, I failed. Then when I turn my sight to the front and I noticed the person who was chasing the motorcycle was a friend, my church member. To my horror thereafter, 5 Indian went up to 3rd Floor of our church premises and robbed about 25 persons' belonging. Why didn't they all arose and capture the robberies? Because one of them were pointing a 'parang' - long knife to a little girl (children age 7) and pointed another 2 'parang' to another 2 persons. People rushed down and get chased, but we didn't manage to catch any of them. It was a terrifying incident. Together with another church warden, we made a police report and police did came to the premise and investigate. The P.O seems taking the matter seriously as to her, this is first time she heard that people were so darring to robe a church during a worship and to her, these people has no respect for others.
I was so tired today. I missed the meeting at 2pm. But throughout the whole incident, I was asking myself what happen to the world today. Are they our 'neighbour'? Can we forgive them and love them? Obviously, they are one of the lost sheep. They need love. They need the Lord more than I do. And that's the main reason why Jesus die on the cross. It's for these people. ... Now, when I think of Jesus die for them, I felt pain in my heart. Jesus not only die for me, but for them and I am very very sure that they need the Lord more than I do. Lord, have mercy on them.
We nor the police force can save them. When we caught them, I am quite sure that they will be serving their whole life in prison or even dead if they failed to follow the police instructions. When we caught them, we won't SAVE them, but we will make sure they get PUNISHMENT to the FULLESS. But that principle doesn't apply in the Lord. I wish now that the Lord touched their heart, help them to repent and change their lives. One day, I am sure, they will regret and repent. But when the day came, would us, the church, the christian love them and accept them? ...
I leave this question to you if you are a christian.
I was told by many that they felt very angry and they can't seems to forget what these people did to them. Are you?
I am still pondering over this matter ...
I hope I won't scold those accused tomorrow in court, but still try my best to help them.
... I am confused.
... confused...

Friday, April 14, 2006

Good Friday!!!

Well, to many in KL, Good Friday is just NOTHING. I saw 2 of my colleagues where looking down from our office windows and commenting that today's traffic is going to be very bad. It was bad indeed. Well, I just said, I need to go for a service tonight and to my horror, they were looking at me like : what is Good Friday? Hmm... well, there's no holiday in KL for Good Friday. Unlike Sabah & Sarawak. I enjoy the holiday since I was born. So, it is not suprise to know about Good Friday in Sabah & Sarawak, but this day is 'strange' to people in KL, unless you are a Christian.
I had a wonderful reminder tonight of the suffering of Christ. ... I heard 2 of my friends mentioned that ever Good Friday is a gloomy and rainy day.... well, GOOD Friday/ Bad Friday, it doesn't matter much, but it is the real meaning of Good Friday that count. I hope you have know the meaning of it by now. ... Otherwise... hmm... time to find it out, may be...
When I was just about to leave office, I was being given a file... GOODNESS....it's before a terrible and unreasonable judge. I am going before her on Monday. I am going to be so stressful and uncomfortable throughout the whole weekend. GOODNESS.... LORD, have mercy on me and... help me, oh Lord!!!!!
- prayer -

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Meaning of life...

It was yesterday that I was waiting in the court in Shah Alam that my mind keep on wander and thinking what was I doing there for. Many told me it is not easy to went through everything and came to the stage where I can just sit in the office and sign documents. Well, it is, indeed. A few weeks ago, one of my housemate came into my room and saw my certificates and we were calculating how many more certificates I got after my degree. Yes, I got many after that indeed and it shows how much blessing I had from the Lord. I appreciate that very much.
However, when my mind was wandering... I was having the doubt. Doubt of the meaning of life. I don't feel satisfaction and I don't feel happier than helping someone or brought someone to know Christ. That kind of satisfaction, I can never be able to get from my works. I feel so meaningless. Everyday, I am worry about food, about clothes, about works... which all these, I shouldn't even worry about. I feel so.... LOST!!!!
...
Is it my job or is it of me?