Memories...

I just came back from a gathering with this brother who is leaving.

This brother was given the opportunity to share during today's (26.02.2006) service and he said he has been here, in KL for 6 years. I was shock (or rather couldn't believe) by the statement he made because it was still fresh in my mind the first moment I saw him. I still remember the first day he arrived in KL and the first time I met him. It's in my house (staying at Sea Park then). The chinese worship team were gathering in my place for a BBQ and it was 31.12.2000. We (Chinese Worship Team) spent the whole evening until the next morning (1.1.2001) worshiping and singing. I still remember, we ended up at the most expensive mamak store next to Sunway Lagoon Hotel at 2a.m.

6 years has gone through just in a glimps of eyes. I can't believe it when he mentioned it this morning. He also said something about he being left alone with another brother once when everybody in the cell group left for studies and how I helped the cell group, etc. Yes, I remember I was assigned to take over that particular cell group then and I don't really know this brother at that time. I still remember after my studies, I will join a sister and a brother to play squash in the Condominium next to the cell group premise and right after that, I will changed and join the cell. There were so many issue about the cell group after that and later, I was assigned to supervise other cells instead.

Well, I remember a few years ago, where a group of us decided independently to join a mission trip to Mauritius. It was that time that I knew this brother better. Together with the brother and sister who play squash with me, 4 of us were being called "4 big King of Heaven" - sei dai tin wong.

Till last year, by encouragement by this brother, I went back to worship team and took up the courage to play the Bass guitar again. I did try to learn more, but the work loads I had last year were killing but I am still keeping up.

Last year, the whole church is putting their focus on this album called "Purpose". It is an album with all the songs that's composed and sing by this brother. And I just happy to be part of it, though I really didn't do much except happen to be around in Tawau and KK while a group lead by him were in Sabah for mission.

This memory will not be easily fade away and to continue with my last blog about losing memory... I guess I do not want to lost this part of my memory because knowing this brother is one of the blessing from the Lord.

As this brother is leaving tomorrow (27.02.2006) for a greater mission, I wish him all the best and be faithful to the Lord till the end.

- blessing -

Thought of the day!!!

As I have nothing much to do at home, I watched this HK series. At the beginning, it was about a guy's girlfriend who was unconsious in the hospital for 3 years. And due to his decision, the girl finally woke up but she forgot about the past. I was thinking what if I am in her position. Would I like to have my memory back or would I just want to start my own life all over again. I am also thinking.. If I am given a chance now to forget everything behind, would I like to lose part of the memory or all of it.

There are so many friends of mine said my life is not a good life. I struggle very much in my life in order to get certain thing. Some of the thing in life, I don't even dare trying to "Wish" that I have it. Because even a simple needs, I had difficult time in getting it.

The series also reminded me not to give up easily and to face the fact in life. I think not many people think of 'giving up' as much as I do. There were so many occasions that I thought of giving up and even lose my focus in knowing the meaning of me reaching the AIM. I even placed in many occassion to think of the 'meaning of life'.

I was checking some website to find out more about some works that I might be able to do for a mission field and ... I can't remember when I had the interest in Medicine. But... After checking the website, I wonder why did I do law in the first place and not medicine. haha... Yup. I wish I am a doctor rather than a lawyer.

After a long fight to be a lawyer and I am not satisfied with the so called 'achievement'. ...

So, what's the point of 'not giving up' in the first place?

- thought -

Judging others?

It was the online conversation that I had with a friend this morning that made me think of the queston on Judging Others. .... My friend said I could be too judgmental to make a judgement to say that the cell group leaders now a day still not being well trained and made a lot of mistakes.

This issue made me ponder on the issue whether it is right to judge others. There and then, I came across a passage today on "When to Judge". haha... many of you came across that passage also I believe. It's base on the bible verses in Matthew 7: 1-12. It talks about we need to follow Jesus' teaching and learn the difference between judging people and evaluating situations. But as we are human being and we are not given the best wisdom, we tend to fail to handle a situation without condeming or judging others. That's why according to the passage, it is essential to learn how to pray to the Lord to make sure that our God is the one who "will bring every work into judgment, including every secret thing, whether good or evil" (Ecclesiastes 12:14). - passage of RBC, Our Daily Bread referred.

Hai... I re-think of what i said this morning.... may be my focus is to think of a way to improve the cell system, but ultimately, i have made certain judgement against them. ... This is truely a long learning lesson for me. Time to think if I should submit that to the Lord instead. hehe..

OK. Guess that's all for now. Not feeling well. Had a very terrible medicine. Feel dizzy and sleepy. Time for me to rest. ...

- sick -