Selfishness!!!

I reached home last night at 7pm and found out 2 issues in the house that happen lately. Firstly, there is not enough parking space for all 4 cars. We have a new housemate that moves in recently and she got a car. But because when she moves it, I wasn't here and my car was parked at my brother's place. Now that I am back, someone's car need to be parked somewhere. I was not the latest one who came back from work or outside. One of my housemate was. I used to be very nice to her and always thinking for her and others, but these days, I guess I can't care much. After I was 'accused' or 'blamed' on things which I did extra for them, I was the one who was suffering. So, although I think I can ask for my brother's favour to park my car at their place, but I couldn't care more. I think I am just giong to ignore it and pretending I don't know. Selfish? ... I think so... but if I am not, what different can it makes?

The second issue is our house's last month's water bill is about RM300++. I have told them even before I left that something is wrong with the meter or may be some leaking somewhere and we need to inform the Landlord and the PUAS, but none of them take this seriously. Now, shall we pay for it? I guess that's the different between a lawyer and lay people. They just can't seems to be able to understand the complication when things arise. They love WAITING for things to goes wrong only then try to get things solved. No difference from a criminal, right? ... Kill a person, then look for a lawyer. They think they can be 'free' after that, but that's IMPOSSIBLE. Well, ... at least, the criminal would listen to the lawyer's advice, but not my housemates...they are more stubborn than a cow and not willing to listen to any advice. Not sure why... but I feel so difficult to talk to them these days ... So, my selfish ambitions arose again... do not want to bother. In case of emergency, I move out!!!

There was time where I was blamed for speaking out and giving my opinion. So, I choose not to speak these days, but guess what? They are not blaming me for not caring for the household affair. Hmm.... I am really not sure how to live a peaceful life. May be away from anyone who has soul?...

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1st day of work!

Left home (PJS 9) at about 7am this morning. Reached office at about 8am. Had my breakfast in the car and came in to this new office at 8:30am. I can't seems to find my car park space that was suppose to be reserved for me as promised, but I found out the reason right after I was attended by the office manager. She forgot that I am suppose to come in today. She thought I am only coming in on next monday (13.02.2006). Well, I will still get my car sticker soon.

I was not give any letter of offer as yet. Not sure the reason behind, but I have start doing work already. I was first given 2 files to draft its statement of claims, then after lunch (accompanied by a good friend just at nearby firm), I was asked to go for an auction. When I return about 15 minutes ago, I was told I need to go to Shah Alam court tomorrow morning. Walau...!!!! I cannot imagine how busy I can be after one week, when I have my practising certificate done. I was told my the clerks that most probably I need to be in court everyday... now, it is time to store up some more black and white clothes...

.... 15 minutes later

I was just called to the Acccount Manager's office to done the last bit of my Practising Certificate application and also to collect my car ticket. Now, I assume there's this space that has been specially reserved for my little blue.... I guess no other little car like mine is so blessed. haha... well, about the letter of offer... haha... the Account Manager totally forgot about it. hahaha... I just reminded her and she is going to pass it to me soon and also, my business card...

OK. Someone text me to ask me if I would like to join them for 'lou shang'. Wow...I personally don't like that kind of food and don't really wish to be go out. But I think I need to put one more efforts to strengthen my friendship and relationship with my friends and housemates. God knows how much damage I caused to it months ago. haha...

I can only access to internet but not messenging. So... no choice... !!! It's better than none ... at least I can still do my research online, which is more than enough...

OK. So far, I am enjoying myself in this firm.

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1st Day in KL after 4 months!

I arrived at my PJS house at about 2am. My friend who promised to pick me up didn't show up on time. I was quiet upset actually because I really don't like people who didn't fulfil what they promised. But thank God, this friend who are willing to wait with me and he has sort of 'cover my anger' by being with me in the airport. ... So, yes, I arrived at 2am. Can't really unpack. I was too tired to unpack my luaggages and I decided to first find my pillow, then, clean myself up and laid my head straight to the pillow... I didn't realise how fast I went into sleep. But I did realise I turned a few times before that, due to the bad smell in the room. hmm..... not sure what caused all that, but.... the smell is very disturbing. ...
Anyway, I was suppose to go to church at 8 with my 2 relatives, but I couldn't wake up. She called and I asked her to go ahead without me. I continue to sleep until 10:40am... I woke up, clean myself up, washed the toilet and got myself ready for church. Finished church at 1:30pm, went to eat something... get something done, ie. fill up a tank of petrol, get tomorrow's breakfast, get some water, send someone home and here I am, trying to connect to the internet and chat with some friends to make me feel good... !!!
However, I think I missed Tawau and my parents a lot. I can't seems to stop thinking about them and also some really nice friends. At home, no matter how few friends I have, I will still have my parents around to entertain me... but here, .... I think I only have myself and the computer. haha...
Well, I hope my new job is something that I like and at least, something that can keep me occupied and happy and motivated.

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These 4 months at home... I finally found where my HOME is. ... It wasn't easy for the 1st month, but thank God that I keep on going to KK and that has keep me occupied. Church ministries and church friends had been truely wonderful. I did met a few wonderful and lovely people... now i started to miss them... !!!But I really thank all of them who treasures me, and who is willing to share with me. I really really enjoy all the moment throughout the whole 4 months...

Thank you....

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