May His Will be done on earth as it is in heaven

I grew up knowing God when I was very young (I accepted Christ at the age of 8, not sure before or after I encountered God personally while I was sick and in hospital).  I regard God as big part and central of why I am here on earth.  God has been the ultimate reason I live (at least that's what I thought I am) and the reason I devoted most of the time, energy and youth time for the Lord.  Serving God automatically become big part of my life, even when I was in the UK.  Even though serving God in churches in the UK is less hectic and busy than I was in Malaysia, it somehow gave me the satisfaction that I am serving God. When I came back to Malaysia, I have all the ministries placed on me again until I reached KK, it is still the same.. to a point I asked God, "God, I love you and I love serving You, but, when can I stop doing the same thing again and again?" 

Things somehow emerged to the era where I stopped serving God in the church as I have to run between two towns especially on weekend.  It's been more than 8 years now and as it is where it is now, I am not serving in Church anymore and I feel the sudden emptiness in me after my dad passed away and I can now spend some weekend here in KK.  I always think my exit from serving God in the church was my own fault and what I did not do good enough to handle the situation, and certainly failed to be a good Christian. For years I have thought about I have not done enough for this and that and I should have done more on this and that and I should have not done this and that and it keeps playing in my head over and over again.  Friends and misison partners have been reminded me however that it's history now and I should not let it take control over my future now.  So, I did and moved on (a little) and this short journey with God since the 'reset' button was pressed on has been kind of adventurous and interesting, even though I wish for more to come and that I get to do what I want to do for Him again.  

But instead of taking a role and being the one DOING the job, God has revealed to me that, it is not what I do or not do that makes me his disciples, even in a ministries or His works.  It is how to accomplish His will, even by doing nothing or just following His plan, even thought it means, I have to take the hit and be the one who is to be hurt and suffered.  Regardless how much I envy my friends and mission partners who can serves God as a bible study leader, as a prayer partner, involved in church ministries in various aspects, I am told to be doing a totally different thing now, relax, get back to the relationship with God, be patient and enjoy the moment with God.  I should be doing the Mary and not Martha now.  Of course, I do not stop trying to serve Him in other capcity.  I am still doing the least I can do, through my daily work.

Do I really envy others for being able to serve the Lord in various capacity? If I give it a deep thought, I will tell you, no.  But I do wish to serve Him still.  

Well, for whatever reason, for whatever that's gone past, and for whatever that's coming, I am praying that may His Will be done, not mine.  Lord, even if you want me to go through certain things just so that you will be done, that's entirely fine with me. 

- May His Will be done on earth as it is in heaven - 

It is necessary

We finished the teaching of Ezra today.  It was indeed a very good reminder of what is deemed necessary to be done.  

As a normal human being, there are sin that I have committed which is not pleasing in the eye of God.  As much I think I do not deserves God in my life anymore, I am grateful that He again and again told me that only sinner need to be redeemed by His blood and be given grace.  Ezra 10 is good reminder of (a) acknowledging the problem; and (b) deal with the problem, the drastic and painful way.  

I must have done so much unforgiving sin and yet, i am thankful to God that He again and again has told me that I am forgiven.  However, what was done cannot be undone and no matter how painful and drastic it is, measures were taken to stop it and moved on.  

With all that’s happened in the past and that I am still having a good relationship with God, i know i am very much loved by Him.  He has definitely the one guided me through all these and yet still loving me.  Thank you Lord.  No.  I will not disobeyed your command again and/or anymore because I love You, Lord. 

Thanks for sending angels who go through this with me too.  In order to have a better relationship with God, steps are necessary to be taken.  

- It is necessary - 

The consequences of greed

As a lawyer, I handled many litigations matters which started off by the word, 'greed'.  It all started with partners or friends being poor when they were young, everyone worked very hard and being successful and when things turned sour, there how the fight started and everyone attacked each other, forgetting how they become successful.  It is sad when people started to not appreciating how they came to be successful and they focus on how to be even richer in the future because according to them, building more wealth meaning the future of their children, their grandchildren and all are secured.  SERIOUSLY,  is anything that can be guaranteed and that future is secure?

Someone gave me a call yesterday out of nowhere and I have not met the person who engaged me for the service until today.  I was only given the picture that someone is trying to lock an office with an order pronounced without the sealed Order being extracted from the court yet.  It was pronounced at 3pm on 28.08.2020 in KL and immediately, they tried to lock the premise in KK, even though the Judge did say the winning party can take possession of all the records, books and properties of A company within 7 days from the day the sealed Order is served on the Defendant.  The lock was unlawful.  But they did it anyway on the basis that they were the directors of the company and they can do anything they want. 

Lawlessness is the thing now at this era because everyone wants their rights, but at the same time, do not want to be restricted by the laws, even though their rights are to be governed by the laws.  Everyone trying to say they are right and they have the rights to do so and so as if God's laws don't exist anymore. In the name of rights, greed gets it stands.  Because I want more money and I can manipulate things from the right to wrong, so it suits me and protects me and gives me benefit that I want, I mean, I deserve to have, because I am smart and you are not as smart as I am.  Alright, can you see how many me and I? Yes, it is all about me and my and I.  I don't care if you are my uncles or aunties or someone I should respect.  I am younger and smarter and so you HAVE to listen to me and give me what I want.  Just because of this, the world has turned upside down. How the world runs, it is on human now (the smart one they claimed) and not God.  "I can be God.  God's law is old fashion and useless and not up to date".  I can do better rules and law.  I just need to table it in the Parliament and get it passed and so all the rules and laws, according to the Bible or the Quran or whatever will be overruled.  Who cares if God says no homosexuality? Who cares if God says do not murder? Who cares if God says love your neighbour as yourself? Who cares if God says being angry. = murder? MY laws or my country's laws say it is alright and I abide with it and I am not a sinner and God is just and He knows I am not a sinner. 

People tend to forget how blessed they are and they survive well today because of the grace of God. In fact, no one 'lives' if not because of the grace of God.  Can God take away everything within a minute? Of course, He can.  That's what happened in Job and that's the reason why Job is one of the books in the Bible. And people started to blame God and be angry with God when they lose everything? But never remember how graceful God is to them when they have a good life, their business goes well, God sent them a good business partner to work hard together with, how God blessed them with family, friends and possessions?  and because they wanted more, they used their own strength and ability to gain and forget about whether that's what God wants them to have?

People's mind and focus were distorted by greed, that's planted by the evil.  People started to believe the lies that, they need money to survives and without money they died.  No.  We don't.  Without God, we died. That's the truth and that's the ONLY thing that we cannot survives without.  I am sure you can recall many bible verses about not to be greedy, how to love each other, abide in Him, etc. etc.  That's what God wants us to focus on and not on our own ability, our own needs and wants our own rules and comforts. It is nothing about us, it is all about Him. 

It is sad to see family, wealth, businesses are tarnished because only one man falls into the trap of greed and all because he is focusing on his own and not others. 

I have to tell you that the consequences of greed will never give you a prosperous life and that's the truth. 

- the consequences of greed -