Focus...

Somehow, I think we are having difficulties in focusing to the right things when we are too carried away by things that's we are assigned to do. With all the 'works' that we are assigned to finish before the deadline, somehow, I realise, we focus on a wrong direction. Instead of God... we have put a lots of efforts to please the man... i.e. the leader. Oh well, I am not saying, we are wrong in fulfilling what we are assigned to do. We ought to finish our task given by our leaders anyway.... because as a servant, we are to submit ourselves to the leadership of our leaders. No question on this. However... when I was saying that... I then ask the question of who is our HEAD. Isn't that God? Hmm... and those who are serving Him including myself, ... aren't we the servant of God? So... are we not suppose to serve others? or wait... it should be each other, right? hehehe... see.. .I am again, confused. hahahaha....

Anyway.... I have 3 trials coming up... and I somehow need to get myself focus on 3 of them instead of 1. While I was telling my boss about the development of one of the file, I somehow updated him also on the other 2 and of course, he has been helpful in giving me some guidance. Oh well... it doesn't seems that it is possible for me to focus in one matter .. and therefore, I now re-locate my time to set apart a few hours for each of the files... seriously, it's not easy, especially when one of the client called up. hahahahhaha... so, focus focus focus is what I keep telling myself.

While I am trying to get myself focus, I just remember I need to also focus in those works I was assigned to finish... wow... it's going to be a very challenging month... !!!

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Rights...

I am confuse of whether I have rights or not in certain things.... every time when I offended someone, the other party got angry at me and I thought, they have the rights to get angry and yield at me... sometimes... but for many occasions, I think I got very upset and angry when words was spoken on me like they have the rights to said those to me and/or I will never get angry (that they will not bother about my feelings) and it's like I do not have the rights to get angry. If I do, that's what I am getting now, that I am in my own room, blogging... while everyone else having their fun time on weekend. My ONLY weekend is spoiled first by the words other party spoken on me, secondly, by me getting angry. I wonder, I seriously wonder if I can be a bit humaine to feel angry sometimes. I am not a puppet, ok? I am too, not a toy... I am not mean to be in this world to be 'played' with.... and worse still, I cannot show my feelings. I can be sadden by words spoken on me... just like you do. ok? I am a human being... or may be, yes... you never treat me as one 'normal' human being... but I am... just in case you miss the point. So, can I feel upset?

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Do you know your job?

Some of us probably just started your 1st or 2nd year of working whereas some of us, we have been working for more than 5 years now and therefore, some of us are still in the 'lowest' possition and some of us, are bosses or somebody's superior. Be where you are, I wonder if you ever ask yourself if you know what you are doing....

It's rather 'dissatisfying' when I was approached by someone who tell me how to fulfil their PROCEDURE REQUIREMENT rather than helping me to get what I want. I am not sure if you encounter such a situation. Not that they will lost anything if they grant me what is belong to me... but still, they want me to fulfil their PROCEDURE REQUIREMENT which they claimed it's set by KL (the only answer given).

I asked the purpose of those documents she requested and why can't the documents certified true copy by the lawyer or commissioner or judge, the ONLY answer I get was, "It's the procedure that I need to follow which is set by KL". For a moment, I really wanted to ask if she understand what her job is .... Obviously, besides asking people to fulfil the requirement she get from KL, she doesn't know anything about her job.... Seriously, I almost wanted to ask her if she understand what is certified true copy means? Which Law governs that, why can't she believes a judge who signed on it? etc.....

May be it's me, or may be I am trained in such a way to not just follow blindly when I was given instruction. I normally took extra efforts trying to understand the reason of such requirement, trying to understand why does it need to be that way and not the other way. Seriously, thank God she is not working under me, otherwise, she is fired.

Of course my friend's comment months ago reminded me. That is "If they are as good as you, they won't be working in that position today". Trust me, they do not even understand a loan account can be a current account these days, which I do not understand why they can failed to understand this simple knowledge. Oh well, I didn't argue much or tried to explained more, I just got up from the seat and left. Together with me, was a friend, and she was even more furious than me...

I being not understanding? May be... May be I expect everyone who works in their position to know what they are doing and why they are doing that for and when they do not know about the things their client/customer asked, a mere "I don't know, I am sorry" can be answered instead and not trying to dig out some "Procedure" as answer and blame KL for it.

I am of course not asking everyone to know everything... no one knows everything....! Come and ask me about some shipping law, I know nothing about it too. But ... if I need to do that, I will try to understand them fully. Won't you?

- Do you know your job? -