2014 achievement indeed!

Just as expected and it's just as what I told clients earlier on that's what the most I can do, that's to get them win the case, and lose the claim against the lawyer he wanted to goes after.  Indeed, we did it.  It's such a achievement when i manage to win over my master, someone who always think I am not as good and I am not as well trained lawyer.  I remain as who I am.  Be it how many people look after me, or they cannot agree that I am even though do not have the look and pose, but have the brain to win over battles in the court room.  Yes.  Be it I am not as good, as well trained (well, I cannot recall I fall in the hand of an expert and/or any master and/or senior who has really trained me before I go to trial for the first time), I guess they forgot, I am learning from them who are 'practising' in court.  I am basically trained in the battlefield and not in the training field.  That's me.  

So, yes, I do agree that I am not as 'qualify' as many who has the chance to be graduated as Barrister in one of the Inn in England or having a very well senior or master.  My first master, Mr Wong is a corporate expert, not litigation.  My second master in Sabah has never thought me a single thing in court.  So, I agree.  I am not well trained.  I climbed the stairs bit by bit. I have had a lot and a lot of mistakes made and cases lost in the past.  But I have worked very hard each time to learn a bit more.  I am glad enough to have people who is willing to help and to guide me through.  I am thankful enough for wonderful friend and colleagues. 

This case is nothing 'big'.  I won't regard my winning as one of the great achievement.  I certainly never thought that other lawyers would come to me and greeted me for winning the case and to save up the rest of the other similar matters in court.  I am still learning and trying to find out what I can do better in this matter.  But to be able to win over my master who always think I cannot do my job well, it proves that, it probably not just an issue with me.  

I wish I can do better in my career and so, enrolling myself for a master course so I can be updated on the recent development of law to me, is important.  At least, my knowledge and experiences should be better than those who are more senior than me and/or those who has stop going further.  May be not many understand why do I need to get my Master Degree.  It's seriously, not about the title and/or the Master Degree, it is more to the knowledge expansion that I need.  

My mom is the person whom think I shouldn't have take this course at all.  I don't blame her for not being able to understand.  Until today, none of my family member will understand what my job is all about.  I always wanted to blame the HK series who gives wrong impression on people.  Well, reading and reading, research and research ... is what we all do every single day.  Because every facts of each case comes to me, is different in nature and I need to tackle the issues and to find the way to win a case for my clients, whose rights has been jeopardised. It's very discouraging whenever my mom mentioned that I shouldn't take my master course and instead, I should spend more time on other things.  I guess she didn't realised, the only 'wasting time' kind of works i have been doing is on the plane and spending weekend in Tawau.  

If not because of my parents, I think I wouldn't have been 'stagnant' here for so many years, or I don't even have come back to Malaysia in the first place.  Having such a brother made it worse.  Why are they not thinking that, it's them who make me who I am today? I would have had so many social time, or probably have gotten married if not because of being FORCED to take care of my parents.  Studying Master is probably the ONLY thing i enjoy most during this 'suffering period'.  I wonder, if they will ever realised this.  Anyway, I am glad...  I have done 3/6 subjects by end of this month. YES!  I am half way through!!!!

I see 2014 is an achievement because I finally, manage to do something I wanted to for a long time, for myself.  Be it I have to sacrifices my monies, my freedom and time, I still think, it's worth it and I love doing it.  At least, much better than being a 'slave' for a man or a few children.  

Well, I am not asking a lot.  I am just asking, if they can just encourage and support me to go through this 'happiness' with me.  It seems like, they are not.  

Well, 2014 is ending.  Kenneth Thien & Associates is also coming to an end.  I am joining another firm call MP Pang & Co. and operate a branch in KK.  Wishing to have more conveyancing matters coming up soon.  Let's hope by this step of faith, thing will goes further and better soon. 

In terms of finances for this year, amazingly, we survived without having a month we have touched the overdraft facilities YET. God is good all the time indeed!

- 2014 achievement indeed! - 

Achievement?

As one of the student of Edinburgh University, I get updates from the Uni almost everyday of what's happening in the Uni.  Last night, just before I went to bed, I saw an email, inviting us to attend the graduation of law students, online.....and i couldn't help, but to switch off my phone and went to bed. This morning, I woke up, i browse through their website and I found the graduation date for Summer graduation in 2016 has been posted.  I then realised, I have done half of my course by now.  It's a crazy semester, but instead of 6 semester, I opts for 5 and I have done 2, leaving 3 more subjects to complete with a dissertation of 10,000 words.  Will I graduate for my LL.M? Hmm.... let's focus to finish off these 2 subjects for now until Christmas time.  I hope I pass these 2 subjects.  Let's not be so ambitious to achieve greater than that.
Just as I am working very hard in my studies, I too, worked very hard in my work..... trying to win all cases, filed all applications in order to help my clients to get what they want.  I have so far, win all the matters and clients have been happy.  There's this particular one which decision was to be delivered in an hour time, which I am more nervous of.  Clients knew that due to the difficult situation and circumstances, I have done my very best to help.  They know the chances is slim, but they are grateful I have fought for them thus far.  This matter has been postponed for ruling since 11/11/2014 for at least 3 times now.  It seems like the Judge is having a very difficult time in deciding and I have been constantly, being asked to be present.  I am not sure if it is a good or bad thing.  If you ask me, I wish justice prevail, and I win the case.  If you are asking me if I am saying the Plaintiff do not have the rights, i will say, No, they do have the rights.  But i wish my clients who is the victim in this case, can be released from their 'suffering' over the past few years.
I was preparing for this final submission after trial during my exam on Intellectual Property Law - Copyrights and its related laws.  I sacrifice all my time including my holiday with a friend who came to visit me for these 2 matters during that few days.  To a point, I suffered a severe gastric for days. It was not a pleasant experiences, and therefore, I hope, whatever I have submitted, will bear fruits.
So, speaking of achievement, I am taking two matters bravely .... due to the uncertainty of the laws, etc. , I am challenging the law of Malaysia with the international laws.  I hope I don't sacrifice my client's interest when I am making an academic stand out on the issue of Trademark infringement.
It seems like, this year, I am not making achievement financially.  But rather, I guess, I am building up my knowledges and experiences.  I know if I lost the matter today, i might bring the matter to the Court of Appeal.  If I win, i know my opponent will bring it up to the Court of Appeal too.
Achievement? It depends on whether we weight it by monetary terms, or not... and to be honest, I feels that I have achieve more this year than the previous years.
- Achievement? -

Trust or love?

Either it is born with or due to some external factors, I always being regarded as one who do not have confidence in myself. Be it in my studies or sports, or music, or leadership, or making decision, etc. I always doubt myself and my ability. In my family, my mother always scolded me stupid when I was small. She always made comparison about me and my brother. I am never her favourite. Worse still, that later caused me to do everything she wishes me to do in the opposite way. My mom never praise me for things I did well. I always got discouraged and gave up on things easily. Not only my mom. My aunts, my grandma...... All did the same to me. I always feel I am not loved.

I am glad I have a dad who loves me that always encourage me. I remember I did very badly in my math in primary four and I know I will get scolding from my mom. But dad always encourage me to believe in my own ability. He even tried to tell me how much I shouldn't care so much about not being able to do well in math and the important to just do my best. Because of my dad, I did well for a few years. 

It's both my brother and my mother who got me to choose to study art class in form 4. My mom only listens to my brother. My mother think I wouldn't be able to cope well in science. I think I will do better in science. Now I am stuck. Anyway, no one believe in my ability except my dad. The moment when I told him I want to do law, he agrees. After stpm, he knew I wouldn't be able to study law with my result, in the local university, he told me to apply straight to study oversea. My academic result was never promising, but he always stand by me and encourage me, telling me I can do it. 

After working so many years, he gave me confidence to move a step forward to take over the firm from Kenneth. 

In gist, no one believes in me, except my dad. When someone called him and told him I am to kill myself, he was in shock. I msg him immediately and he said he knew I wouldn't do that.  Knowing how difficult depression was for me to handle, he called me every night around 830 when I will be feeling the worse, to just talk about things and get me prepare to sleep. All he told me was things like this will be over, sooner or later. It won't last forever. He knew I can get over with it. 

I might not be a brilliant smart person. I might not be as beautiful as others, or as girly as everyone wants me to be. But he never weight me the way others did. 

Confidence on me..... Or loves me? I think he might not have 100% confidence in me, but he does love me 100%.  That, I am very sure. 

-confidence or love? Love...-