In a day....!

Since young, because I was staying at the Church compound and because my parents are very devoted Christian, I have been too many weddings, funerals, fullmoon, baptism, etc.  You name it.  However it's a very rare occasion that I attended both funeral and full moon party at the same day, especially I am very close with the 2 families. 
Due to my busy schedule, I have not seen my dear Godson and his family for almost a month now.  They thought I have moved to another church. hahahaha... anyway, ... I came to now many things happen in a month.  Besides my more constant pains suffered, aunty also passed away before I came back from Tawau last Tuesday. She passed away on Monday morning.  And because of the clergy conference and all in Tawau.... everyone basically were in Tawau while I came back.  By the way, thank you for those who paid my parents a visit.  They appreciate it a lot.  Thanks for remembering them in your prayer and also any time whenever you people are in Tawau.  I am so impressed by my dad's influenced. hahaha....
Oh well, I have not know aunty for a long long time.  I came to know she's not well when she had her second stroke and was hospitalised in KK.  I remember lending my car to the family because my little small Kelisa has a good height in fetching sick people.  Thereafter, I knew they moved to KK to stay with the family and due to my sickness and constant visit to the family, I did managed to spend some time with aunty.... seriously, I haven't seen her ever since she moved to Sandakan before the second baby came.  Hearing from the eulogy by her second daughter today made me understand completely how depressed she must be after he stroke.  She had her 3rd stroke when she landed Sandakan and I remember her 3rd daughter were busy sending the medical report by courier out that very same day while I was babysitting at their place.  A few months later, ... aunty is now gone with the Lord.  She told her second daughter she wanted to die so much after the 3rd stroke.  When said that, I believe, and I can feel how suffering she must be then.... to a point of death.  I've been there.  I know no one will want to be released to be with the Lord, unless she/he cannot bear anymore.  No one in the world will understand what she's having.  She must be in such pain and suffering that only Jesus able to understand.  Thanks for the second daughter's care and love.  She was well and discharged and back to KK after a few months. It's not easy for the family.... but God has anyhow listened to her cries for release.... she is now back to the Lord and I am sure she's very much happy now. 
Full moon party!!!!  Ghoooosh.... it's such a fun to have Papa Smurf, smurf and Donald duck around.. The children went crazy and we had headache and fun. hahahaha.... So, yes... today was a busy day and I am going to bed now. 
- In a day... !!!

Finally,... realised....

The question of why a group of people came to my apartment and forced me to go out from my room was finally reviewed during my last visit to Singapore.  Looks like someone in KL called my housemate and told her about me wanting to kill myself.  My question was, how true that was? and ... did I really sent her sms asking for rescue or what? If I would to ask for help, why didn't I call or sms someone near me?
Anyway, even though this is reviewed, I am still wondering why they said I hurt them.  I still not very sure why they said so. 
Are these important? hmm..... seriously, I will never come to know the exact answers for sure since they have decided to leave me alone since then... by pushing me to my parents. I would say, that's even more hurt than anything.... the rejection and the total neglects. 
So, the facts? I still can't be sure what's going on then. Only they knew.... thanks, friend... for telling me. hahahaha.....
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Conditions!

Most people know I have been having not only one, but a few medical conditions.  Of course everyone is immune to it including myself. So the only way to ease the tension, we jokes about it most of the time.  It's a rainy season ... and my leg has been giving me much problem.  With the additional sprain few weeks back, goodness, today I walked like an handicap and the speed is down to 2 (10 is the highest and fastest).  It has been in pain and it has been giving me a lots of discomforts and pain.  I can hardly move around easily.
My other condition that's facing now is not a medical condition. It's office condition!  Interestingly... my staff has been 'boycotting'.... and I found out he has not done so many things and I keep receiving complains from clients ... and Banks.  I wonder what has he been doing while I was away and too busy in Court for the past 2 months.  Just when I thought I can take a break, I am needed to sort out all the mess in the office.  With that, disregard of the financial condition, I have hired a part time executive to help me up.  She is more like a PA to me instead.  I am sorting out the office spaces, finances, marketing, administration... you name it. Meanwhile, I am waiting for the potential Sandakan firm for discussion over merges of firms.
Meanwhile, I am seriously thankful to some Tawau lawyers to help me with some chasing of documents and titles due to what my staff's failure/mistakes.
The other condition of course is financial condition.  Business has been moving very slowly and scary..... I am not receiving payment for my fees.... everyone is asking me to hold.  I don't know what I should do really...  it's been really tough few months or me.  Been busy with trials, and yet, didn't get payment.  You know how bad it is? Yeah...................I can only trust God to provide and bless me.
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