Friday, January 13, 2012

Interesting!

Many had called and told me they are so jealous with my life. Simply because i can do anything i like any time i like... without a schedule. I don't have to follow anyone's schedule and needs.... and with no neighbour yet, i can actually put on hi-fi to the maximum. Looks like i really enjoy myself...! The only thing is, the security guards are checking on me every night... just make sure i don't jump off the building.... well, i should have done it successfully the first time. Hahaha.... anyway.... i am enjoying the last bit of my life, that's it!
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Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Excitement!

It has been for a long long while now that i haven't been having the sense of excitement. I was telling many for the past years that i have no sense of excitement.... 2 weeks ago, my nephew and niece came to visit me, they walked straight to my car and said good bye to their parents and insisted to accompany me that afternoon after we all had lunch. They obviously gave their parents a shock! Well, i had a great great time with them... and after a series of challenge we had on wii, i promsed them i'll bring them to the play ground and to the lake. We did.... but they were not excited because they have seem many better one in England, in Paris, etc. My newphew told me, my playground is nothing and he made a hand gesture that it's really means NOTHING. Well, i brought them to the lake and they both told me, the lake is dirty and the fishes are not big enough.... in a way, those gave them no excitement....
Yes, i probably had gone through too much too early and therefore i find no excitement for anything you probably feel excited about. Throughout my life, i have had experienced many things, circumstances, feelings, obstacles, successes, failure, etc. more than anyone else. At least, i still have more experiences that no one has ever experienced before....
Tomorrow, i am going to experience something i have yet to experience before. I am being subpoena by the court in Shah Alam to attend court and give testimony and to produce documents in support of my testimony. I have been to court many times, conducting a trial, calling my witness, asked my questions, etc.... but i have never been called as a witness. Somehow, this gives me sense of excitement...., something new....!
This excitement and experience is so fresh and new in my life,much better than being pushed into an operating theater .... , or flying to somewhere alone, by myself or exam being called off because of bomb, or lost my cargos... being diagnosed with sickness....etc. somehow,i am excited about tomorrow...
- excited-

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Friday, January 06, 2012

Marriage

" Wow.... court is quite full today..." A statement i made this morning in front of a senior lawyer... and she said "today is friday... they are all here for their divorce petition". I turned my head and i saw someone very familiar walked in and she was shock to found me sitting in the court room... i asked her a stupid question "what matter do you have in here today?" Hoping the answer she gives can be something like, being a witness for a patient, etc..., but unfortunately, with hesitation, she told me she's there for divorce.
How much does a marriage cost these days i wonder.... it used to cost you a life time committment...but now, it can only last for days or 2 years...only. The senior lawyer later told me that divorcing someone or marrying someone for a year or two is just fine. Even her, she told me she advised her children to just go for marriage for temporary satisfaction. After all, to satisfy the thirst for sex should be the ultimate focus, more so if there's any other 'benefits' by getting married. After all, divorce is such a simple process and it only cost RM3k to 4k. That's how much it cost for a marriage.
The doctor i bumped into was borned on the 29 January 1977. She is a professional.... pretty, smart,nice... kadazan.. local.... and believe the moment she announced to everyone that she's getting married few years ago, it's like the best moment in her life, being loved, feeling good...excited, nice, happy, etcetc....she probably used a few months or years preparing for the big day...on the wedding day, it must be the best day in her life... with hiring the best photographer in the world, with best arrangement for everything, etc.... and now, just in few minutes time, your application for divorce was before a high court judge and he gives you order in terms on your application to divorce. Which one leaves them with stronger impact or memories? Marriage? Divorce?
My question is, what does marriage means these days and what is it foundation base on? Feeling? Or love? Or desire? Pride or happiness? Where is God in your marriage life? Is there God in the first place? Or just selfishness or self desire and self satisfaction?
Seriously, i am very sad to know someone i know got divorce today.. relationship can be so selfish and so meaningless these days...
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