Again, I have been offered a part time job, to do teaching. Teaching A Level law subject. Seriously, I love teaching and I have been waiting for this moment to come for a long long time now. But when it comes, I wonder now, if I am able to take it. Simply because I now have to take good care of myself, my parents, my businesses, my health, etc. I am afraid I won't be able to cope with the amount of stress I have already in my hand.
So I take things easy. I told the principal 3 times that I have to reject his offer, be it the salary is high. I need to only focus on one thing at one time now, i.e. my firm. I have 2 staffs under me which I need to make sure they are paid every month for their hard works. My responsibility towards them, towards my parents are very high at the moment. So, I can't seems to take 'challenge' easily. My phone has been a terrible tool for me since last year. I believe it was the hard fall one day when I got down from the car and I forgot the phone was on my lap. It fell so hard on the floor that it should have damaged the antenna. Thereafter, all receptions is bad. In additional to that, it always restart by itself or can't receive full messages people sent me, etc. If you happen trying to call me for the past few months, you will realised how hard it is to get through the line. Yesterday was the worse time when I need to restart my phone for 8 times and I didn't manage to use the phone for at least 32 hours. Without hesitation, I walked in the Maxis and took the new BB9900, paid for it, signed a few papers and walked off from it. Transferred from the old phone to the new one is just less than 15 minutes and I am glad I am now using then new one without any problem so far.
I realised I can't tolerant to uncertainty, problems, delay, etc. I need things to be in order NOW and not later. I do not want extra or unnecessary stress. My life has changed a lot ever since these months. I started to enjoy life being alone again... Now I get more visitor because I am staying alone.
I am trying to relax and take things easy. Am I worry about whether I have income next month? Well.... compare to the previous me, I have less worry because even without working, God has blessed me, what more ... now? I am sure He has taken care of everything already.
- Take it easy!-
