I must confess that I am just a human being and therefore, ... I made mistake.... ! Sometimes, the mistake is big and sometimes, it is rather small. What do I mean by big mistake and smal mistake? Hmm... big one take longer time, more efforts and more pain to settle and the small one, it takes only few minutes to few hours, little efforts and less pain to settle. Well, since young, I made mistake, some intentionally and some unintentionally. Some intentional mistake in life would be done something which I know I shouldn't have done it. Unintentional one, of course, more on careless mistakes.
I remember my mother, who was a teacher always told me, I am a very careless person and I MUST re-check my answers everytime I finish answering them. I somehow, always lazy to check and I got careless mistakes made on my examination papers. Well, everyone who taught me in school said the same thing, I am smart, but I am always careless. Hmm...
I guess that character of mine will never goes. Again, I have made a mistake last month and until now, I need to face it. This time, it's a big mistake. I have tried, very hard not to be influence by it until I cannot focus and concentrate on other cases of mine. I did, however, sigh... each time I saw the file on my table. I have been asking my partner whether client has called, etc.
While I was picking up my cousin, her husband and 2 of her friends from airport today, I received a sms from my partner telling me that client has asked me to go and collect the payment we asked for since June 2009. For a few hours, I am bothered... but yet, I wanted to do it... I wanted so much to just go my clients and confess to them and ask them for forgiveness.
I am meeting one of them tomorrow and I really pray now that, he will be able to understand and even though he is angry, I hope he will still ok with my honestly. I don't know whether it's wise to do what I am doing, but I would rather not to lie to them or hide the truth from them, but to tell them the truth. It's not, obviously an easy situation to deal with. I am seriously don't know what will happen... haiz....
Something I must do... anyway... better get it done and dealth with soonest possible.
- cofess and ask for forgiveness -
