2cm

I am not sure sure what 2cm means to you. Is it high? low? wide? narrow? big? small? Well... I went to get my partial custom made ankle support from the KK Prosthetic Center and when the prosthetist saw my working shoes... he looked at me and asked if I ever have plan to buy a new pair of shoes. Well, I said I did ... just want to know if the ankle support can fit into any of the shoes first. Well, he then explained that my shoes should be as even as possible and so I asked him if I shouldn't wear shoes with heels at all and he told me, "No. You can wear... but best not exceeding 2cm". My immediate respond towards his statement was "isn't that means, NO?" hahaha... well, of course I didn't speak it out. Otherwise, I think he will scold me again for even thinking of wearning something with heels.

I thought the ankle support will fit into any of the shoes, but ... it didn't. I went home tried with my walking shoes, it didn't fit. So, I went to see them again this morning with my walking shoes and they manage to fit the support into my shoes. It's good really.... just that I wonder... what can I use when I am not wearing a shoes... Hmm... Oh well... guess what? He again mentioned, that I should get another pair of working shoes... goodness!!!! The next time I go, I better show him my NEW shoes...

So... 2cm? Any court/covered shoes with heels not exceeding 2cm? Oh no... and I have to search for one soon??????? OH NO!!!!

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Flatfoot?

I went for a doctor review about my operated ankle last saturday. It's suppose to be a review but as I feel the same pain came back when my wounds are almost fully recovered, I told the doctor and after checking, he think I have a problem with my ankle. He think the only thing that will help me to feel less or even no pain is to get a ankle support (Custom made). Hence, he suggested I first get my foot scanned first at KK Prosthetic.

After I left the hospital, I went to KK Prosthetic, to get a scan done on both of my feet. It only took me 10 minutes to get the scan done and while a Prosthetist has taken another 15 minutes to check through my ankle after he has seen the computerize report. Well, he looked at me with a serious face and asked if I know what happen to my feet. Oh well... the computerize report says: Defective medial longitudinal arch or severe flatfoot. He asked if I know I have a flatfoot. I did actually as the physiotheraphist did told me before, so I answered him, I know. But he look at me and asked if I realise it is quite severe. I said I don't. He then told me, it has somehow caused my other feet to be in trouble too. Hmm...

He further commented that, luckily I am not a very fat person, otherwise, I would not be able to walk even now. So, he did suggest that I get a custom made ankle support. He then suggested I get the cheapest one (RM650) instead of those fully custom made (in accordance to the structure of your feet). Oh well... all that's in my mind was... (do I have any other choice). Apparently.... I was told also by the doctor, the physiotheraphist and this Prosthetist that.... NO OTHER OPTION IS AVAILABLE.

Hmm... well... *sob sob* I have a flatfoot!!!!

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To known or not to be known...

It was a conversation between me and 2 other friends about 9 years ago that I was being reminded today. One of them... was from a well known family in Singapore and another, was from just a businessman's family. I asked that question then was because I felt so much being in England then as no one knows me of who I am and I achieved to a level where almost everyone in Bristol knows about my existence. So, I asked them, if it is better to be known or better to lives a life where no one knows. I seriously like my life in Bristol so much... no one 'give face' to me because of who I am. No one will point to me and expect me to do something because I am so and so's daughter, or so and so's sister. I was so happy then.... of being who I am.

Since I came back to Malaysia, life was 'back to the original'. I was referred to as so and so's daughter, and so and so's sister... until I came to Christ Church Likas. hehe... well, not to say no one knows... just a few knows... which is better than EVERYBODY knows... You know what I mean?

Seriously, since I am a lawyer, I am feeling so contradicting my own 'thinking' sometimes... I want to be known as a good lawyer, but I don't like people to know who am I. Some people, happen to prefer to know a person's background, ie. who's their parents, whether he/she has was taught well by their parents, etc. etc. etc. in order to judge a person whether the person is someone 'worth' their trust or friendship.

I found this, very disturbing lately .... So, I wonder... if those person will consider me, as their friend.. as I don't think I am from a weathy family, and I am not PERFECT, i.e. I have done something wrong before and I have a very bad characters and attitudes... so so? ... what do you think? You think I can be considered as those people's friend? Hmm....

Well, if they take consideration of my background, may be.... you know why? ... ya... I have a very good background... hahahaha.... so? is that how I should be judged?

Hmm....

-to known or not to be known-