Mind & Body

Just in case you are wondering why I am a bit 'quiet' these few days, ... it's because I am kind of busy with my research and I hope to finish it by this week. However, my mind doesn't seems cooperative today. It has refused to function since I woke up. I had difficulty even in waking up this morning. My sub-conscious mind told my body that I should wake up, but my body refused. Hence, I only woke up at 7:45am this morning. My body later requested a cup of hot milo and so, I gave a hot milo to it and after that, it still 'lau kai'... wanted to hang around at the small apartment until 8:30am. (In a way, I pushed my body to work this morning)

Came in to office, sort out a few things and let my mind think of some other points with my research and written submission and then, it stopped. It's my mind now refuses to work. Something is very wrong with my body and mind today. I have problem getting them to work together today. It is this reason that I didn't manage to sleep well for the past few days too. Hai... Anyway, I keep on reminding myself that today is Wednesday and if I don't finish at least a bit work by today, I will not be able to finish work by this week. Oh well, now that I have convinced my mind, but my body has refuses to work. Don't ask me why...

Besides this case, my mind has also some other things distrubing it, i.e. a friend who is going to get married in 2 weeks time called me to tell me her fiancee is admitted to hospital suspecting to have either T.B or lung cancer. I have no choice but to HOPE that he has T.B. (I wonder when are all these similar news ever ended).

My mind also keeps on worrying about my existing financial situation. I really praying for a stable one, i.e. to have at least income ...

My mind also worries about many other things... including tonight's cell meeting, how to fill in my tax return form, etc. etc. etc. (I know, I know.... I shall not worry about tomorrow mah... I know woh...)

Hmm... o well... again... I am surviving by grace!

- mind & body -

Back from holiday!

I finally had a good 3 1/2 days holiday. Although I went back home, but this round, I was with 2 great friends around and we went to Kapalai for 1/2 day too. So, it's relaxing... feeling so 'stressfree' to a point where I was so happy and my 2 friends thought there's something 'wrong' with me. hahahaha...

However, last night was not easy to got through. After a few days being around with a few people at all time, the sense of loneliness did struck me. "I am back to reality and I need to sort out so many things" phrase keep on appearing in my mind and the sense of 'stress', when it impressed in my heart.... (almost every second), wasn't really pleasant and comforting. It's just like a knife pierce through my heart. Thank goodness that I was tired physically as I woke up at either 6 or 6:30am everyday. Hence, I couldn't stand my tiredness anymore and went to bed quite early (11pm) last night after I was done with my laundry.

O well, ... I am back to reality now... I have tons of works to finalist today and a few submission to write too. I hope everything can be done by this week so that I don't have to 'cry' next week for not having enough time to finish works.

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I wanted to advertise a legal notice on this newspaper company last week before holiday and I asked them to advertise on last Thursday. So, as usual, I faxed the advertisement together with a cover letter to the advertising company and I left the office at 3:30pm as I had a meeting at 4pm. Right after I got into my car, my phone rang and it's from my colleague. She told me the advertising company called, said they can't advertise my legal notice because I didn't pay the last bill. I was shocked for a while as I do remember that we did paid the bill as I did our last bill to our client few days ago but I wasn't that sure until I see the file. So, I told them to go ahead with the advertisment first and I shall pay them by today.

So, first thing in the morning, I checked the file... compared the bill the advertising company faxed us with the one in the file and I found the receipt. I brought it to my colleague, the one who called me on last Wednesday. She looked at me with this 'oh dear' face and I told her to call the advertising company and told them what we have here.

It's ridiculous. First, being an advertising company, how can one refuse to advertise another LEGAL NOTICE without one paid the last bill? It's only 1, and that if there is one. Secondly, if the 'officense' is that severe, why can't they take a reasonable steps to make sure that it is not their mistake before they said something so 'irresponsible'? Thirdly, the phrase "we cannot advertise until you pay the bill" shouldn't be OUT so easily. I did told my colleague to tell them, either they advertise on last Thursday or I shall ask another advertising company to advertise. After all, it's my personal matter (my dad's to be exact) and I am willing to advertise with another company.

So, I am glad, after all, things should be cleared by now.

- Back from holiday -

Holiday!!!!!

Today starts the 4 days holiday.... and I was suppose to sleep till 10:30am as I slept at 4am, but I woke up at 8am automatically. Don't ask me why. I have no idea and I can feel that I am tired and sleepy. What did I do? Err... I finished off a TVB series... hahahahahaha....

I'll be going back to Tawau in the afternoon and this year, I'll be celebrating Easter at home. I seriously cannot remember when was the last time I celerated Easter at home. The celebration that I always remember during Easter season was those I celebrated in England. I miss it so much....!!!

Anyway, if I didn't upload anything new, I shall upload something when I get back from holiday. At the same time.... Happy Easter to you all! May you all be reminded of the reason we celebrated Easter!!!!

- Easter holiday -