A change...

There will be changes in my life for the next couple of weeks to next couple of months. It only happen about 2 weeks time (always short notices). I have told my partner that I am retiring from this partnership hopefully starting in the mid December. However, she allows me to retired by the end of November instead, which is a good time for me as I am being offered by the other law firm to start working with them soonest possible, right after they finish renovated their new premise (due to my joining, they are moving and renovating a bigger place). I consider the offer is a blessing from them. The new partners are really very kind enough to take me in and even considerate for me and all my circumstances. It's a blessing!!!

I have just spoken to my partner before lunch and that she was shocked by my decision as there's no sign given earlier. I noted her concern. I have been handling lots of works, including accounting, clients, etc.. and that she is now worried that she won't be able to handle it all by herself. We do have works coming in and more works coming in to be exact. I have been actively getting more cases to come in, etc... and now, I am leaving... she will have to learn the accounting packages, fill in the cases that was previously handle by me, etc. etc. She is somewhat feeling that she can't go for holiday in the short period of time as she cannot have firm open without any lawyer around.

To me, it's no difference. I still do my business, contact my contacts and get in cases and I will still get the shares of all my sweat and running around. On top of that, I got a computer, got clerk, got parking allowances, etc. I no longer need to worry about toilet paper roll, water, paying bills, going to bank, bank in cheques and cash, issue salary, etc. etc. It's just ... GREAT!!! Although I am being warned that I will be given LOTS OF WORKS... !!! You know I am workaholic... I don't mind working and working and working. So, yes... please give me works... but don't give me 'unnecessary' stress.

For the time being, I therefore need to sort out some files before handing over to my partner. I need to get a time to teach her how to use the accounting package and I need to go to bank and do all necessary arrangement, etc.

However, I shall start worrying about pay for this month (2 more weeks to go) and next month and then... bye bye....!!!!!

It's a challenge somehow to leave my own 'created' firm. I created the letterhead, I created the signboard, I created the office rules, I created everything here... and that this is really like MY creation. It's not easy to leave MY creation and join other's firm. It needs boldness, it needs sacrifies, it needs humble, etc. I don't really know what lays in the future... in the new firm, but I guess at this moment, I just need to trust and obey... have a positive thinking ... and work, work, work....

Some of you might wonder what then will happen to my 1 year mission trip. As for now, I have no idea also... but if things happen, I still have the choice to whether let go my profession and leave or stay on with profession and go mission later. So... i guess I won't know the answer until then.

- a change -

I wonder...

I wonder.... how long I have been busy with things that's within and outside my capacity. I am only one normal soul. Not that I am being given some supernatural power, etc... and yet, I am busy since ... I cannot remember when. With church ministries, with works, with all kind of things arounds me.

I prayed for the Lord will shut the door which He doesn't want me to get in to and I pray for the Lord to bless me blessing that I can contain. All over a sudden, I received phone calls and clients, and files... and all over a sudden, I am being offered a place in another law firm. Hmm... I started to wonder... what's the purpose of my life. I don't intent to practice law the rest of my life. But I do want to practice law at least for now. May be for another year or so? I don't know. Even for a year, the question of 'how i am going to survive for the next one year' always goes around my mind... and ... I just failed to get an answer. I know I wanted to go for England, but which law firm will take me in now considering that they know that I will leaving next year? It's just too impossible... until this firm name keeps on appearing in my mind and during one of the afternoon, I just took the gut to talk to one of the partner and... it happened.. things happened and I had a talk with both the partners today about the plan of joining them. I am not sure what lies behind all these thing. I am not sure how God will leads me to England if it is His will for me to go, but I just pray that, my decision now won't be a hindrance for me to see Him more clearer. Going to England is really a dream. I remember praying to God to see if He can really send me to England next year and I also remember praying to God to open a way for me sort out my finances. By joining another firm, finances would be solved... but the plan about going to England for a year will be more uncertain. God... I wonder... what do you want me to do?

- I wonder -

Ghoosh.... what a life!

Today, I started my first lesson with the Accounting students. They are shock to see a very young lecturer of course. Some of them came in with fear and shock... while the others, were keeping quiet.. until i break the ice by introducing myself and so on. Till almost 30 minutes later, only then i remember that some of them do not understand english that much and that I explained things with chinese. I hope they understand what I was trying to explain as I realise besides of their poor english standard, there are quite a few of law terms that needed them to remember either. So, it's such a pain...

Today is also my best friend, Yee Ling's birthday... she asked me out for lunch and spent me good lunch... and we celebrated for an hour (lunch time) and I did manage to get her a book. So, yes... I hope she likes it. Well, happy birthday, my dear friend....!!!

Rushed a few matters now... and I just cannot believe I was BUSY with works and other things since last week and that I have NO chance communicating with my partner. I know she wasn't happy about the water we purchased and she said she got something to say, but till now, she has not say it yet. I just heard from my colleague that she is not coming in tomorrow and this message has not conveyed to me at all. But, that's not a matter. It only means, I am FREE tomorrow. hahahahahahahaa...... Besides, what I need to do is to do my works, my duties, my responsibilities and not calculating who worked more, etc. Hmm... life is tough enough... hahaha.. and calculative on who worked harder and who worked lesser just won't help much. But I do know some people take that as essential. Well...

But i have been really tired working lately. No complain... good.... !!

Doulous will be here soon. 13-22 October 2007. All encouraged to go. Because of that, I might need to let go of the chance to go back home for a best friend's wedding. I know she won't mind as she always know that I won't be joining EVERYONE's wedding. hahahaha...

- ghoosh.. what a life! -