Frustration!

Usually, I will shown my frustrations over some people when I really feel frustrated, but these few days, I guess I am really too tired to even think or feel the frustration even thought I know I am very much being frustrated.

Since young, we were teached that new comer in church will be the TREASURE and therefore, all schedule has to be put down just to take care of new comer. New comer, new soul is the first priority. However, I guess I have forgotten that not everything being educated the same way we are because most of the christian today has forgotten about the Great Commission. All they remember is to 'enjoy ' themselves with what they 'feel' like they want. They do not want to bother about some other things, especially new comer because taking care of a new comer will take away all their 'privacy', their 'freedom' and it needs attention, sacrifices and so on. I guess that's the main reason why in this church that I am attending now that there happen a 'cold' section and that the church is struggling in its breakthrough.... only a few noted the word and work of 'sacrifices' and ... more over, most are so reluctant to 'give' and to 'sacrifies'.

I was told by some KK people that this is KK culture. They are selfish and they only care for themselves and their own feeling. May be I was brought up from this small town that we tend to care for each other more (until sometimes, we really do not need newspaper to spread over a news). I am honestly feeling very frustrated over their attitudes over the weekend.

The second issue of course is that the court matter that I attended in Tawau yesterday. Well, since morning, I was being bothered by delay and postponment .... first the hearing was postponed to the afternoon and later, it was postponed to other date which will be notify later. I was of course glad that my friend didn't come because at least, I have a home to go back to for a rest and good meal. If my friend attended, she would have needed to hang around in town. Thirdly, my flight to come back to KK was delayed... everything is delayed... postponded and waiting...

Goodness.... so frustrated over things... !!!!

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Satisfaction

It was a huge responsibility and pressures when I was told that I am the official photographer for the Mooncake Festival in my church on 15.09.2007, which was just ended about 2 hours ago. I was very happy to knows that I do not need to be in any of the functions. Hence, I do not need to attend all the rehearsal, setting up, etc. etc. However, I was "pressured" these few weeks with the task assigned to me. Mainly I guess it was because I know I lack of a very important gadget, the flashlight. I did consider getting one but I really do not have such budget for now. But the Mooncake Festival is at night and I was told the children will be playing with 'Tang Lung' (Lantern) after the colouring competition. However, nothing I can do about it. I just need to use whatever I have to the maximum to achieve the BEST quality possible.

I woke up this morning by a call from this client. Thereafter, another client just when I finished the first call. The third one came in about 30 minutes later, then another two 30 minutes after that. It was suppose to be my ONLY sleepying day but I ended without achieving my 'resting' and 'sleeping' time. Anyway, after the second call, I realised someone sent me a message. After I read it, I was sadden by it. A sister, Sister Oi Chin has passed away this morning around 6:45am. I forwarded the message to my parents as they know this sister very well. Thereafter, I went to get all my things done with 2 friends, then to church, start my photo capturings.

To cut the story short, just today, I have taken around 721 pictures from 1:30pm until 10pm. After I downloaded it to my computer and browsed through them, I am kind of satisfied with most of them. I must say, I have to invest on flashlight. Apart from that, I am satisfied. I realise that I really love photography. Such a satisfaction I had.

Well, time to sleep. Have to wake up at 6am tomorrow as there's this Hong Kong Group attending our chinese service tomorrow and yes.... I am sure you have guessed it, I am assigned for another task. It's great!!! No regret buying the new DSLR though it really cost me ... hahaha... Anything that is used for God's kingdom is a good investment. Don't you think so?

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Suprise...!!!!

Suprise, suprise... I have not been reading my friends' blogs for a long long time. Time flies and things changed. I wonder what kept me occupied for the past few months. Some said I shouldn't take a 'job' so seriously. Some said, I shouldn't take 'religion' so seriously. Some even said, I should treat myself better, at least give myself time to rest. I wish all that came through deep down from my heart but it is just 'impossible'. Simply because the 'job' that you mentioned is actually a responsibility. The 'religion' that you talked about has impact to lives and that time for myself has always been given to both the 'job' and 'religion' so as my family.

A friend has reminded me that I should treasure my time to be with my parents more. Suprisingly, I have been travelling back to hometown the 4th times this month. Out of the blue, a friend offered me to go back to Tawau for a case on behalf of her. I guess she is giving me chance to go home. Isn't that a blessing? Therefore, as decided yesterday, I am going back to Tawau again this Sunday afternoon, after the sunday service.

Well, ... 'suprise'!!!!

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