Choices...

I was sick yesterday and therefore I had the time and chance to think some non-sense. I might be influenced terribly due to this flu. I couldn't sleep the whole night because of heat. I only switched on the air con for 1 hour because I do not know if I can stand in air con room for too long. Due to all these waking up, heat and air con, I kept on waking up in the midst of my sleep. I felt so lazy to wake up this morning. When I got up, I vomitted some blood and after that, I felt so good after that. hahaha... Anyway.... I am still feeling a bit of not well, but I am doing fine.

This question of whether I should continue to practice law came into my mine since January this year. I wonder what causes me to have such question in my mind. I believe God choose me to become a lawyer for a purpose, but I really do not know if I like to be a lawyer. It's difficult to leave law profession behind now as I am a fully trainned lawyer. All my thinking, my actions, my responses, all are supported by my law training. It's really difficult to leave it. Moreover, many has contributed into my life to make me to become a lawyer. It's so difficult to leave it.

But... I really do not have a feeling of practising law for the rest of my life. So how? ...

- choices -

I am down!!!

Yes.. I am finally down with flu. It happen about a week ago, a day before I return to Kota Kinabalu from my hometown. My started to feel unhealthy and since then, I have consume lot and lot of the natural medicine - Water and fruits. My sickness has left me very soon after that, about 2 days before my parents arrive in Kota Kinabalu. I guess it was due to my tiredness the following few days (I thought I have gained my strength back), the sickness has came back yesterday afternoon. This morning, I just couldn't woke up at my usual waking up time and I just felt so dizzy and felt like sleeping and resting. Though I do have works to do in the office, and client called asking for things, I just couldn't get up to do it for them. I woke up a bit late later to do all the works and that's why I am online now.

A friend reminded me that I am over stressed myself and I was too busy for the past few weeks and that's why I neglected my needs of resting. I guess my friend is right... I need some REST!

However, because there's work and it is URGENT, sometimes others just do not understand why can't I just leave my works for the next day and rest today. It's difficult! As someone's attorney, I do have duty to my client, the opponent, and the court. Some, just failed to understand this and even some lawyers, they think they only have duty to collect money from others and... law profession is just a business like others. Unfortunately, law profession is unlike a hawker stall or a 'kedai runcit' or a public listed company. In Sabah, law profession gave a the impression that it is just like a business because lawyers in Sabah acted like all they want is money. Hence, you can see very funny things in court and some lawyer, doesn't even know how to do some simple drafting, i.e. a letter. All they know is to hang around with big bosses outside to get money.

Well, I do need some rest. As such... that's all for today!

- down with flu -

Long Time!!!

My parents came over to Kota Kinabalu last saturday as they were on their way to Perth this morning. Therefore, it's a plan that they will attend my church this sunday. Just happen on the same weekend, I had a friend came over from Tawau and she needs a lift to the church as well. Just before we went to bed on Saturday evening, I received a call from my sister in law's youngest sister telling us that she would love to attend my church service the next day together with her boyfriend. It's nice to have so many people around. My sister in law's youngest sister came back from US and she bought with her a team to climb the Mount Kinabalu. I have not seen her for a year past I guess and it's really nice to see some familiar faces after being in this new place for some time.

On the same sunday, what suprise me was, I met someone whom I have not seen for years. Although I have been updated about her news quite frequently, but I really have not seen her for quit some time. Glad and happy to be able to met her after what? 10 to 15 years? At first I really doubt that she would be able to recognise me. I guess she did somehow because my parents was around sitting next to me. She is someone really special in my life. Firstly because she has made such an impact, spiritually and personally during my youth time. I guess she has known me and my younger days than anyone else whom I have knows today. Many came to know me these few years but not knowing me on my younger day, but she has. I didn't get the chance to talk to her more yesterday as she was busy with some other people. However, she did asked me how I am doing, etc. It's really wonderful to be able to met someone whom you have not seen for such a long time. Her appearance has reminded me about what made me to be a strong christian and that has again renewed my faith in Christ.

Those of you who know me by who I am today, you might asked what made me have such passion for Christ, music, etc... I guess it has all related to this person. Truely, she has made great impact in my life, both spiritually and personally.

Some people wouldn't have know how much impact that you have impacted a person. I believe this person has not known either as she probably just did what she should then. However, just because she did her best, she has impacted a life. It has therefore reminded me that, we just need to do our best so that the next generation or others will be impacted and edified.

I wanted so much to tell her how much I thank her for everything she did to me, but... I really had no chance to talk to her after that. I really pray that she will be blessed by God.

It's really nice to met an 'old friend' , especially those whom had impacted my life and known me since young. I am truely very happy to see her yesterday!!!

- long time -