Passion for the Lord!!!

I visited a cell group this evening. To my horror, one of my member has been quite "naughty". During the sharing, I found out that she has not been attending service and cell group for a numbers of occasions. I didn't ask her directly, but I asked the cell leader. The cell leader can't really answer me much because that member always thing the cell leader is not a qualified person who can 'question' her. So.... we have a situation here. While I was talking to the cell leader and tried to find out when was the started, we noted that it's because things, people and circumstances that changed and make her changed.

As a christian in KL, it is not easy to live a life that is pleasing to the Lord. I was in the position to choose whether to please my boss or the Lord 2 weeks ago. Well, to many... may be money is the most important issue one will look at it, especially in KL. So.... it's the matter of 'priority'. I was so suprise to know that, people, or christian who are serving in church now a day is also depending on certain things.. 1. who's the boss? 2. how much you 'pay' me? 3. what benefit do I get? etc. etc. Some serve the Lord because of the person who is leading. Some, serve the Lord because they want to show off, some, serve the Lord because they want certain 'status'. But of all these, they started to forgot who actually they are serving and they tend to forget who's the BIG boss.

It's the departure of a faithful servant of God in church (transfer back to the main church in Sabah) and that this member lost her focus in the Lord and things started to went wrong. In many occasions, she think the church is like a company. Many of us do think that way. We tend to forget the different between a corporate world and a church. It's just like how easy we misunderstand between Company and Corporate. We thought they are the same, but they are not.

To be honest, I am diappointed by these kind of people. And the worse thing is, they thought the cell leader is not qualified to give them advice and encouragment. ... Like many of us in the corporate world, thinking the 1 year old lawyer cannot be as good as the 3rd year old lawyer. ... but in actual fact, ... in many times, the 1 year old lawyer is better because of the effort put in preparing for the case.

I hope, ... everyone who serve in the church or any ministries will be reminded of who they are serving, why they are serving and always submit themselves to their leader.

- disappointed -

Job vs. Jobless

During this second week of job seeking, I have gone through quite a numbers of interviews. Last week, my schedule was rather full. Interview by interview, from Monday until Friday. I told one of my housemate that those interviews, some is encouraging and some, very discouraging. While I am sending as many application as I can to firms and attending interviews, a friend of mine told me that she is resigning from her job. This evening, a housemate was telling me that she is frustrated with her work. I started to wonder why people need to work. I am desperately needed a job to start my career and get my life settled down and not moving around anymore and these people... have been telling me that they want to resign from their job. ...

I was discouraged from bad interviewers to be honest. Some of them, really look down on me because I do not have good explosure ( I still don't blame my master nor the firm) and some of them, think what I am asking for is too high ( That's what my previous firm offered, and I use it as a basic). So, I have been given no choice, but to start sending my application to the big firm as what I have learned for the past 1 year, is what a big firm's job. ...

This morning, I received an email from this firm call W & P. For the first time, I was asked to enclose my examinations transcript and my C.L.P transcript. ... I am wondering, if this is what they want for their lawyers, I don't want to work with them because I don't want to work with those who are not practically trainned.

To many people, I think I did draw a line somewhere.. a little bit below the PERFECT point. May be it's a bit too high. I.e. Ethical firm, no illegal works, no academic focused firm, etc. Well, I guess I am just asking for a BETTER life, that's all.

This week, it's a bit quiet because I sent all my applications to the big firms last Friday. It will take them about 2 weeks to get back to me. If I heard nothing from anyone by next friday, I will start sending application to Kota Kinabalu and Tawau's firms.

- jobless -

SHOCKING!!!

Well, ... I woke up in the morning ( not sure what time) and found that I was suffering from this pain at my back. Erg.....I used to suffer that kind of pain a year ago before I took up all my saving and bought myself a good bed and good mattress. Now, what happen to my back? I couldn't even sit up or turn or even get up from my bed. Well, it is not exactly MY bed. I am sleeping at my brother's place as requested to accompany my sister-in-law's younger sister. So, here I am. But now, it gave me this 'headache' as I can't possibly sleep well if I sleep here. But I can't sleep in the sofa because she will definately woke me up the next morning and it's not very comfortable.

Well, I manage to sit up when a friend of mine called me and telling me that one of our 'enemy' resigned from the previous firm (our most hated firm) and also gave me some details on firms that's looking for lawyer. So, ... I really thank my friend who called me. I got myself clean up and did some documents choosing and went out to shop to do some printing... for my second interview with this firm at Damansara Height. I was among five of the candidates who were being shortlisted. I walked into the building (UOA) and noticed a signboard that says: Visitor, please report yourself to the counter. In a second, I thought this is very familiar and .... were I here before and left my driving license with the counter???? OF COURSE I DID... I came for the first interview last Friday and guess what? YES....I left my driving license uncollected when I left the building. GHOOSH..... now what? There must be something to prove that I left my driving license here. I then searched my bag and I found a pass that was given to me in exchange of my driving license. hahahah......... and I went up for interview. Came down, and collect my driving license. Thank God, it's still there. ... I can't believe if I gave the counter my Identity Card instead...

The second interview were quite fruitful. The partner who interviewed me seems like a very experience and good lawyer. Even during the interview I manage to learn something from him. Well, he can't promise me a post because I do not have sufficient experience and he really needs someone who can help him to go to trial, do appeal to the Court of Appeal and yes, I NEVER done that before by my own. But he still shortlisted me. Now, I am 1 of the 3. Will wait for him to reply me on Monday.

During the interview, he was asking me about why didn't I accept the offer from the firm last friday, etc.. and I told him about the terms stated in the offer letter and he shouted like: WHAT? What are you applying? Partnership or Legal Assistant? They what? Want you to indemnify for any professional negligence? You better don't take the offer, ok? , etc, etc... hahaha... his reaction has confirmed me that I did the right thing not to accept the offer. haha... !!!

I came back, wondering if I will be given a chance in that firm to be trained by him.... but I guess, it's not my call, it is the LORD's now... I have done my part, and I will let Him do his. Meanwhile, I hope to hear from some of the firms I applied to these few days, before Monday.

... Dilemma ...