It's time.....

It's time .... to call 'STOP' ... for me to continue loving others.  It's just too hard and too hard and very hard.  People just don't get along naturally.  Some, demand a lot from me.  Some, gave a lot.... and yet some, just being neutral.  Some complain to me and question me why I love A and B and C since they are not perfect.  Some, complain, i should stop loving people who took me for granted.  It's just hard to balance.
I have been TRYING very hard to love those who are not lovable for years.  That's the heart of a shepherd i guess.... that God has installed in me.  After not being a cell leader for years now, I am still trying my best to not let my sheep stray away from the Lord.  Be it the church is not lovable by many, I am trying to maintain that, the church is not, but God is.  I am still bringing my sheep back to the LORD and not the church.  I get around with them in the 'working world' and I am getting with them and trying to help me whenever I am able to.  At some point of time, I forgot, when and where to draw the line (I never have drawn any before until one day, I did.... for protection purposes).
I seriously don't mind people taking me for granted.  How much can they take from me? I am so limited with knowledge, finances and time.  So, it is ok to take me for granted.  I am more concern about they have hurt me in the way i couldn't contain.
Many came in and went out.... of my life.  They only need me and love me the way they want me to be, not the way i am.  Something, I cannot perform at all.  I am who i am.  I love those who are not lovable.  I let people took me for granted.  I go all out to help others.  Not all, understood that my heart and my sprit within me.  Instead of loving me of who I am, almost everyone is forcing me to be someone they desire.  I am sorry to let you down.  I am not perfect and I am definitely cannot change myself to be someone you can love.  If it is too hard for you, you may exit.
- It's time... -