Shall I?

A friend called and said I look much happier during that 10 days in UK.  Asked me if it ever cross my mind to move over and lives there.  I told her it's a holiday and i was enjoying myself a lot.  She said I have been to many places but this time round in UK, i seriously looks much happier than any other holiday trips. Oh well.... I cannot deny the fact that UK is definitely a better place for me.  I sleep well and eat well every single day while I was there.  Even with all the tiredness, I was happy.  Even walking along the unfamiliar streets and carrying a heavy camera, I feel good. 
This is the 2nd week after I came back and believe or not, I am having food problem, digestion problem, sleeping problem....

I have been doing a research into what i can do to transfer my Malaysia Bar to UK Bar for me to practice in UK for the past 2 years.  Ended up, I can do the transfer any time if I wish to.  But I am not doing anything about it.  I have tried the test set out by the Australia Immigration and noted that I am a skilled worker they wanted very much and all I need is to do proper submission and there, i will be able to stay in Australia and work there. I even started to pace for myself some other option besides practising law, i.e. teaching law in colleges and universities and hence, I have paid to get a LL.M. 

I wonder what's the main reason that caused all these serious determination to move out of Malaysia and work somewhere else.  If it is not because of my parents, i probably have moved out already.  But .... I wonder... why is that so? Well, I guess mainly because I started to realised that it is totally contradicting my practices with the existing laws of Malaysia.  Malaysian in general doesn't respect law, more so, lawyers..... lawyers got bullied by rich people.  The law ranked lower than money per se.  If you have the money, in this country, you can overpowered the law.  I experienced opponent (lawyers) who get paid a lot to do illegal and unethical stuffs, even if they know it is wrong in law, they twisted the law.  For 8 years now, I endured this.  I was so depressed by work and this professions and broke down few years back.  I got up, do the same thing again (even though differently), and I wonder, how much longer can I last this time round. 

Just when I am about to check out the possibility to get out from here, I returned to UK for a holiday.  Bristol is a place I got reminded of my covenant with God once.  I was determined to returned to Malaysia for a reason.  Obviously, it did not work out fine for the past 14 years.  I have failed or is it God who says STOP for now? I seriously have no idea.  All I know is, if I continue, I will be crash.  I need to look at things from other perspective.  In His timing and ways.... and not what I thought it was.  May be coming back is WRONG.  I don't know.... just when i thought I do not know the direction to Manor Hall in Bristol... somehow, I was directed to Manor Hall on my way down to Broadmead.  Stopped by for a short while and I am reminded ...  the day I said, "I love Malaysia".

Shall I move on?  A question I asked God since 2012.  Is this a sign from you to move on my Lord?

- Shall I? -