Home!

I always have the issue of 'home' ever since I left where I grew up (Tawau, Sabah) for studies and ever since then, because I never get to go back there and stay there for long / for good, somehow I have yet to figure out where my HOME is....

A friend is facing the same issue lately and hence, the question of where is our 'home' again appeared in my mind. When I left Bristol, England and returned for the 1st time, that was few months after I left, I somehow felt that, Bristol was my HOME. The feeling was so strong that even my parents told me they think I have well settled there and that I belong to that place. Oh well, I have to admit, I am a totally changed person ever since my 3 years there at Bristol. I still think, Bristol is where I should be at... Oh well, England if not Bristol. KL is definately not my home even though I stayed there for 8 years plus and still, I can't seems to 'feel' that place as my home. Hence, I moved back to Sabah when I had the chance to. Is KK my home? I must say, I am considering of buying an apartment or a condominium in KK, but.... somehow, I still can't feel that 'strong feeling' I had for Bristol ... so, if you ask me if KK is my home, I am not sure myself.

A friend somehow, has reminded me that, may be... after all, Tawau is my home. Oh well.... Tawau is my root.... and my parents stays there. For now, I get to go back almost once in every month... for work and to visit my parents... I felt strange when I first came back from England, but I am now used to it. If you ask me where I can find battery in my house in Tawau, I can tell you at the drawer next to the store room. If you ask me where to get strings, I can tell you it's at the backyard, etc. etc. The same apply to Bristol. Ask me where to buy shoes, I can recommend you a few places. Ask me where to buy wedding gifts, and I can tell you a few places. Even if you ask me about banking, getting work permits and so on, I can tell you where they are. I went to England last year June and I must say, I felt like I went home.... So, if you ask me where home is, I guess I won't be able to tell you....

It is suppose to be in Tawau... but the feeling of a HOME? ... feels like... Bristol/England.

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