Choices...

Looks like an adult human being is always been bothered by 'choices' throughout his/her life. Somehow, I have no idea when was the first time I started to make my choice. More so, I can't remember on what matter I need to choose. It could be whether to eat chocolate ice cream or strawberry ice cream? It could be whether I want to go toilet now or later, etc. etc. From those small tiny little decision making, as age advanced, I am to make a bigger decision when I got older and older (everyday's process). More often then others, now a day, is I don't like to make my choice.

Some people always wonder how I make my choice. Some based on their feelings. Some based on their needs. Some based on whether they feel comfortable or not and some, they asked 10 people for their opinion and take the majority answer as his/her answer. Whatever, however it is.... we still can't run away from making that choice.

3 weeks ago, I was being left to have no choice. Then slowly, I was given 1 and now, I am getting more choices. I am not so sure if it is more choices or less is better for me. But one thing I am sure.... that I shouldn't make any choice with my own understanding and ability, but, I must focus on that very one question: "what God wants me to do."

I checked this website out recently (http://www.ijm.org) and seriously, I guess somehow it stirs my desire..... the desire to serve God with my professions, the skills and talents God has given me all these years. Of all the choices I was given today, somehow I am not sure why, .... I am praying that my application will go through though... of course it's all up to the Lord to decide ... :) But why ah?

- Choices ... -

Kids therapy

It's a week full of works and stress and uncertainty, etc. etc. and with the long distance driving, half of the worries gone (that's why I always went out and drive for an hour or two when I was down). Well, imagine a 13 hours of drive with 3 stops in between... it's tiring but it's good enough to help me to overcome the stress I had. Upon reaching home even before I enter into my house, I heard shouting from the house, my dearest niece called "gu gu, do you want a tiger biscuit". It's 7:30pm and I was not only tired, but hungry and hearing that offer from my dearest niece, how can I say no? She rushed to the table, took a piece and rushed to me and said, "come, eat it!". I did accordingly and when the door is open (my dad opened it), I asked her if she can bring my mug to the kitchen, she did as told. How nice... and then.... my nephew started her 'stories'. First of what they had, then of what they are having, and he keeps updating me with informations and informations and what he learned, what he has been doing and what his sister has been doing and likes, etc, etc... until I said, "Alright, I am very tired and I need a shower" and they allowed me to go upstairs. I went into my room, came out with my clothes, closed the door and went into the toilet and then... i heard some sounds... they were giggling... and so, I open the toilet door, and saw the two of them wanted to go into my room. Well, they were stopped by my brother of course. hahaha... so, i asked them why they want to enter into my room and they wanted 2 things. First, my violin and secondly, my tigger. Well, since they were stopped by their father, i went for my shower and they were ordered to go downstairs. After my shower and dinner, I played 2 boardgames with my nephew and niece and we had lots of fun. I went to bed earlier that night as I was extremely tired. I woke up the next day, playing with them in the morning and went to Tawau Hill Park with my parents and them. It's a nice time seeing them running around in the jungle. Unbelievable, my niece is more brave than my nephew. hahahahahaha.... After church service on Sunday, I went back home and went to my room, until my niece knocked my door, came into my room, played my violin and played with tigger. It's a 3 very tiring hours I had with them, but seriously... having them around, I have not even a second needed to think about the problems I am facing. I don't even need to reach the 'thinking' stage. The only thinking I need to go through is when they started to ask me questions. Ghoosh, they even made my dad find a very small town in South Africa with them. hahahahahaha... what more when I have to rescue the cats? Well, I am glad, I bought them 2 bottles of bubble blower... they had lots of fun with it and they enjoyed it very much. They will have about 15 minutes playing with it every day after each meals. Cool ai? hahahahaha....

So ya.... I am glad I have them around last weekend. I will see them again tomorrow as it's my nephew's 6th years old birthday! This time, I will be bringing them their presents.

- Kids therapy -

Dilemma!

Many says being the youngest in the family, you have all the privileges and more, if you are a girl. Well, my experiences tells me, that's not true at all. Being the youngest in the family, I always get bullied and at all time, I am being misunderstood. Hmm... may be only in my family? Since both my parents and my brother are the eldest in their family and hence, they have not being able to understand what the younger sibilings think? Whatever...

First it was the court which upset my schedule and then, my dear brother. Well, they always think and my parents think the same too, that my brother has a very busy schedule which we all needs to suits into his schedule when it come for a time of gathering. Well, obvioiusly I have no 'excuses' like a family, my husband's schedule, my children's schedule to be used on requested for the 'best' time, but... I have no idea why is his schedule is harder and complicated then mine.

See, since the day I realise I need a nice diary in hand to motivate me to work harder, I got myself a new one last Saturday. I was transferring all the dates into this new one. Even though this is the 2nd/3rd week of January, I took about 2 hours to get all the informations transferred to the new one. It's say to be MY diary but in actual fact, it just a diary with all the court dates on - dates fixed by the Courts, according to THEIR diaries. Being practised in Kuala Lumpur for a few years, I used to the methods of asking the Court to fix a date of my availability (no, you can't do that in KL anymore I heard) because generally, one firm will have 20 cases a day and it's just too 'risky' to get another case fixed on the same date. I seldom ask the Court to give me a date which suits me because I know how many cases a court has in one day, unless it is necessary. I remember being scolded by a High Court Judge last year when I told him, I have another matter on the same day. I remember a case of mine was struck out because I wasn't present for it and I am still fearing that I will be sued, etc. Oh well... to many, it's just a date, it's just work. Ask someone in the office to cover it. Well, ... if that's as easy... I wouldn't have the problem now when my schedule is upset.

Well, what I have to tell you is, I was 'summoned' to go home for a longer period of time then weekend this coming weekend, simply because my sister in law have to come to KK for some discussion between 14 to 18th. Four days of discussion...? No other time can be allocated? Well, I give them the benefit of doubt, that there's no other time but they do have to understand I too have a packed schedule too. It's not about 'arranging' like what they did and I am off from work. So, yes... I am still thinking if I should come back after the weekend and then go back again on the 20th, to just celebrate my nephew's birthday. Oh yes... they requested me to be there for his son's birthday and also because my dad want a family photo. So... !!! Now, it all depends on whether the agent of this client will be able to provide for me the documents I requested by this week. If no, ... hmm... I don't know... !

- Dilemma! -