Responsibility / obligation?

There's a different between client and customer.  I believe not everyone knows the different.  Everyone just assume they are the same.  Everyone think those who pay them money is call client.  But they are customer instead.  Well, the different is that, PROFESSIONAL ADVICE is not needed when you serve a customer.  They paid, get their goods/products they wanted and they left.  Clients are those who pay you and at the same time, needed you for your professional services.  You can't denied your customer's request but you can denied your client's request especially when you know it is not possible to be done. 
I hates dealing with rich client.  They thought once they paid you for the service, you are obliged to give them everything they asked for. Unfortunately, that's not possible especially when it involves many parties including the Banks, other lawyers, etc.  The advocate and solicitors in this country has duty towards not only their clients, but also their opponent, the judge, the court, etc. Sadly, most CLIENT didn't bothers about this.  They have the impression that once they paid for the services, all that they requested should be done, including things which cannot be done. 
They can also 'bribe' you or 'threaten' you to follow their instruction and if you don't, they just pass the matter to another law firm and you will lost the profit. 
I hates being 'threaten'.  I usually let go for those clients to make my client's profile clean and nice. Be it those are small clients or cases.  That's the main reason why I think I don't like to do developer and bank's jobs.
Stop telling me how many judges and senior lawyers you know and how well you know the law, etc.  If you have only the knowledge and not qualified to do the job, stop talking and listen to the qualified person's advice.  In conveyancing matters especially.... I don't think all the judges know the process of conveyancing these days if they are not on it everyday.  Don't tell me the senior manager of a bank know anything about your matters. Small number of them do know. But not all.  Most o them do not know.  It's their staff who did all the works.  So, stop telling me you know the biggest boss of the banks and/or the Chief Judge.  I can guarantee you once these people are mentioned, I will ask you to go get it done yourself and/or find another lawyer.  I really hates this.
There's just too much efforts I put in achieving this and I certainly won't want to destroy my career because you want me to comply with whatever non-sense request  you asked me to. You probably have the money but you might not have the brain to own a degree in law.  And seriously, not being a judge doesn't mean I am less smart than them.  IT's just that I do not choose to be one.  I don't think I am not as smart as them. I probably even smarter than them.  I am not famous because I do not want to be famous.  Not because I can't be famous.  So, stop looking down at me and 'threaten' me. 
Yes.  Just for the record, I have let go of a 1.2 Million deal and scolded a 4.2 millions deal's client just today.  Am I afraid of losing them as my client?
I don't think someone who is always ready to die is afraid of anything about losing just MONEY.  If those money are not clean and good to earn, I don't think it bothers me at all.  So, STOP 'splashing the money over my face'. 
My responsibility is not only to my client.  They are my client. NOT customer. 
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First day of work

I woke up by a the alarm at 7am and I was having bad mood and difficulties in getting up. In fact, I have not been having good mood for the past one week.  No idea what caused it. Guess it's either PMS and/or stress. Anyway, I have not been able to push myself to meeting people... except those whom  can give me 'stress free' mood. hahaha... ya.  I do have a bunch these days because they don't really know me much and so, don't really bothers me so much either. :) And I am definitely just their casual friend. 
Oh well, I have court this morning. When I reached the Court, I met an old friend (ex-church member), one of those who is good church member. :) Then, I was told my favourite judge is not available today and my case was to be before another judge.
However, when I entered the Judge's chamber, I was surprise to see someone familiar.  He even recognised me and called me, Miss Lin.  The Court interpreter definitely shocked. Well, matter was done happily well and I finished court around 10am and thereafter, I went to get a cup of Starbucks.  When I entered, I met an old friend and he spent me a cup of Mocha.  Nice !  And on the first working day of 2013, I received payment, done with 2 files' filing, did some arrangement, met a client and drafted the first draft of my written submission which due on the 6th. 
It's a fruitful and productive start of the year I would say. 
Mood wise.... it has not been 'increase' in any manner.... guess I just hope it's not 'decreasing' for now that's all. 
- First day of work -

Happy 2013!

The first discussion I had with a friend about 2013 was, "uncertainty". hahahaha.... yes.  That's exactly what I am facing and what my friend is facing too.  Somehow, cases are ending and I can't see the future.... with my own naked eyes.  Of course, I can now only relied and have faith in God.  For knowing and experienced how faithful He is to me for the past 25 years, .... I have the faith that He is going to guide me and bless me and provide to me for my needs.  If I have not been spending 80% of my earning in the air and going to and fro between KK and Tawau, I probably is a millionaire now or at least, debts free.  But unfortunately.... that's not the case.  However, I am thankful that I have enough and I can still manage to fly between towns. 
I have failed and didn't really bother much to bother and define what's really is 'blessing' these days.  I can only think and define it as having enough to spend for the needs. 
For 2012, my only resolution was to 'stay alive'.  God did and helped and provided for 2012 and indeed, I am still alive.  Thanks for VT and YL who came back to KK for good in time to save me from killing myself.  Thanks for more people who suffer depression that started to realised and understand what I meant by not being able to control myself and my emotions, etc.  Thanks for the conflicts in church that caused more people to understand how much suffering I had in CCL, etc.
Thank to my mom and dad of course for making me to stay alive for sure.  Being the only person who gave a smile to my dad's face.... I know I need to stay alive in order he can feel a bit of happiness in his suffering.  I know by seeing me doing good and well, he is happy already.  Mom started to know more about what I do due to my works in Tawau.  Thanks for those who caring friends who passed me cases.  Thanks for opportunities to met and worked and dealt cases with senior lawyers.  Thanks for nasty lawyers who made me feel awesome when I defeated them.
There's just too many to thank and there's definitely a lot of joy due to only one reason: expect nothing and not wanting to lives.  hahahaha....
For 2013, my only resolution is to get even closer to God.  I will try to finish the Bible in one year again for the 8th time of my life. Of course I don't need to mention about having faith in Him for providence, etc. I KNOW He is going to be bless me, be it I like it or not. :)
For 2012, I have blessed many and I will continue to be a blessing too. So, yes.... that's 2013 and for 2013, without medication and all, I will still try to stay alive, no matter I like it or not.
May you all set a higher aim for 2013. 
- Happy 2013!-