Have you ever wonder if whatever you believe is not exactly correct? A distant relative walked in straight from the main door and walked all the way in just when I finished my dinner. I realised she's not a usual visitor as she doesn't know how to lead herself and her daughter in. Well, I remember seeing her, but I couldn't exactly recognise her, not until my mother called her name and when she starts talking about her mother. I know her mother since i was a baby... she walked in straight, greeted my mother and she asked how's my dad doing and she just heard about it this afternoon. It has been for nearly 8 months now and ... her sincere and honest moves, touched my heart. Of so many people who came to visit dad... she is someone very 'out of the place' to be exact. She didn't believe in Christ for a long long time.... she has married a man who perform some other religious. She told us many thing tonight... and all I can say is, she might be someone who has gone astrayed in her faith, but... her truthness and honest care and love for even such a distant relative... is just so real and by action. She is better than hundreds of people who has been just telling me that they care and yet without any action. The more I heard she talked about how she took care of her mother... the more i feel pain in my heart. I wonder at the end, her mother is in heaven.... simply because she and her husband took care of her mother alone... and that during the most difficult time of her life, when her own daughter and son in law asked her to believe in what they believe and called out for their god... and when she did, all pain left her... I wonder... how many of us from the church ever goes beside her and helped her out at that moment. I feel so shameful of being called Christian... I am.
I also heard that don't know how many so called Christian has caused this women to left God at the end and come to know this husband and changed her faith and believe so much of this god... it's just a shame!
For the past 8 months, none from the church care enough to ask me how am i doing or invite me back to the church. I am all being left alone. All they told me was, they are all very busy. Busy with 'ministry'. And I seriously wonder... why talk about 'ministry' when you can't even care and love the one that needs you? I wonder how 'effective' that ministry can be ... by what they are doing in action towards a lost soul like me? So, focusing on the 80% is enough... let the 20% left God? Is this what Jesus said about the one sheep that's went astray?
Why talk about mission works where you can't even care much to the person that's just a phone call away or a drive away? Is this what Christian is? If this is, I do not want to be one.
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