Mind 2

Guess what's in my mind most of the nights? hehe.. yup. Suicidal thoughts... cool huh? Mind is really not something I can control....

- Mind 2 -

Mind...

Mind is something I cannot control.... but people are expecting that I can really control my emotions and thinking... too bad, I can't. It has been for months now that I woke up by a 'thinking'. To lodge a complain to Pengarah of Queen Elizabeth hospital and Jabatan Kesihatan about a misconduct of a doctor and a pharmacist. I guess, until and unless I have done it, otherwise, I will keep be thinking of doing it. Shall I? For my own benefit...

- Mind -

Mistakes!

It's not very easy for me to ask for help. That goes to my mother. Everyone who came forward and asked us "what can we do to help you?" will be given an answer of "I can't think of any at the moment". May be it's in our nature that we don't ask help from others. Since young, I find it strange to ask help from others. The thing is, ... I always think asking help from others will give problems and troubles from others. I will end up causing lots of unhappiness and inconveniences from others. However, some friends told me that's what friends are all about... to be around and help when you need help. Base on that, I really tried lots of efforts to make sure I ask for help when I do need help.

I am convinced however, that ... I made mistakes by asking for help. I asked help from close friends months ago... and then... I asked help fromt he church. Ended up, it's the century mistakes made. I am so convinced that if, only if I didn't ask help from any of those people, I wouldn't have been at this stage now, really.... I am really convinced that I shouldn't have asked help in the first place.

- Mistakes! -