Unpredictable!

There's many things that cannot be predicted even though we 'budget' / 'expect' it those things to happen in the future. Well, I am not sure if you understand fully what I am trying to tell here. All I am trying to say is, even though we know certain things can happen, but we sometimes, did not expect it to happen NOW... or in the near future.

For the past few months, I have been experincing somewhat, an 'unexpected experiences' from many sources. First, it's the change of working environment. Secondly, it's the unexpected amount of income tax I need to pay. Thirdly, I am being elected as PCC member in my church. Fourthly, my dear car, Little Blue needs a 'surgery'.

There's too many things that's so unpredictable even though it is expected for these few months, to a point where I really wonder if this is a test from God to continue to trust in Him. I remember asking God how much more longer do I need to be at my current working environment few months back and God has immediately answer me (at the same month) and everything changed since then. I am also given to understand that there will be more changes in the coming months and I am seriously trying cope with everything these few months.

I am seriously 'stressed' to the highest level ... in terms of work, in terms of ministry and seriously.... I am already shouting for God to release me from what I am doing now so that I can do other things for Him.

Well, ... I hope I can manage things despites all the changes are already in place...

- unpredictable! -

KL visit...

Ever since I came back from Kuala Lumpur, a place where I stayed for 7 plus years before I came back to Sabah, I went back a few times, ... but all, for a very short period of time, and it's WITH purpose. Once, for the signing of Sale and Purchase Agreement of our Diocese's church building at Bandar Sunway, then, a wedding of 2 very good friend of mine, and then, few days visit with 2 of my friends, then my dad's 70 years old anniversary. This time, it was for court hearing which I need to attend as I am the executor of a dear friend of mine who passed away few months ago. I missed the funeral... I haven't got even the chance to visit his tombstone still (I promise one fine day, I will), well... the return to Kuala Lumpur this time, not an easy 'return' simply because, it's not the same anymore. Even the court and its system is very much different, besides that, it's the first time I checked in a hotel and went around MegaMall all by myself. It's less then 48 hours I was in Kuala Lumpur, but, I thank God, for friends...

- KL visit -

Worth it?

I seriously dislike the feeling I am getting every Wednesday! First, I am always so busy on Wednesday that I can't go home to prepare for cell meeting earlier. Then, I have to prepare cell meeting. Worse still when one or two are telling me they can' t do what the are scheduled to do. Thirdly, throughout the whole meeting, despites my tiredness and worries, I have to put it aside and attend other's need. The worse feeling is, the meeting belongs to me, not ours. At the end, 'dài si' is what they call me, who's taken the challenge to lead the cell group.

At the end of the day, does anyone remember what I ever said? And, does anyone ever give comforts to me? All I get is, non supportive reaction and look as if, I am 'dai si'.

Ya... Worth it?

- worth it?-