Update

To update you all... together with a friend, we went back to my apartment at about 12:15pm and while my friend did the search, I was standing on the sofa at all time, we found NOTHING... we believe the rat has left my apartment due to no food, boring place, etc. etc...

Still, I am setting a trap tonight... just in case... I don't want any trespassing anymore.. no more.

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Unwanted guest...

Yes... it was last night....after a whole day sitting there doing nothing... and finally a TV series shown, I sat there... enjoying my TV and suddenly, I saw my fridge's wire was moving. The first thought was, will there be a rat in the apartment. On second thought, I told myself, may be it's just lizard. 10 minutes later, I felt something was moving ... and when I turned my head, I saw the rat passing by my fridge fast, steady and silently. I was stunned and scared to dead by then... but the rational part of me came. "I need to get rid of it NOW. I cannot leave it there" pop out from my mind... I took a stick... and went over to the area where I saw it was (kitchen) and I started to search for it. With the doors closed and only the window open ( I guess it came in from the window anyway), after a few minutes of searching, I couldn't find it. It has vanished somehow... I closed all the doors and went to bed after the tv show.

When I got up this morning... I turned my head to where my fridge is and realise, it rat has somehow, left some track. I went to the back door and I can see, it wanted so much to left my apartment last night but the door was locked and so, it was trapped... in my apartment. It has seriously destroyed the back door... and I believe, it didn't succeed.

No choice, I called my dad this morning asking for advice and also hoping to get some 'comforts' from him and instead, he told me if I am scare and leave it there, when it has more mouse around, I will even be more trouble. GOODNESS... one is enough to drives me crazy... MORE? .... I started to look for the mouse trap and ... if I can't find it, I will buy one by noon time. A great women of God somehow... so willingly to try to find the rat for me this noon time... goodness... I shall update you later what happen after noon time...

I am disturbed. I have cases on hand... but it doesn't seems more urgent that getting rid of this unwanted guest.... and worse part of all is that, I can see who's the real true friend of mine...

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Stress...

Somehow, stress just caught up with me and has filled about 80% of my brain for the past one week, to a point that I wanted to go to the Tanjung Aru beach on one evening and just scream... but to avoid being send to Bukit Padang, I didn't do it of course. But I was seriously stress, particularly on last Thursday and Friday. Glad that things gone a little better after I have done something on Saturday morning, but... to wait for Monday to come for me to continue with the remaining works, this weekend seems LLLLLLOOOOOOONNNNNGGGGGGG.............!!!!!!

Worse still, due to court cases and works, I have been left alone by friends... I understand they have to left me behind but those feelings that I need to deal with, seriously... it's harder than eating a rock. I just couldn't think of anything to do to ease the 'pain'. I am just feeling .... lonely and helpless and depress, etc. etc. ! I have tons of TVB series that I can watch. I finished one last night though... but it's just not helping. I went to sleep, somehow... it's harder than the previous days... I can feel that my heart beat is fast ... so fast that... it hurts....!!! So, I got up from my bed, called a friend... who's so willing to 'entertain' me for HOURS... and after that, I felt a bit better.. and I went to bed... I slept for the next 3 hours.. and got up at around 4am. ...

I am seriously feeling tired.... and I can feel my head is a bit heavy now... I did tried to lay my head down to sleep... for 30 minutes, I couldn't sleep and that's why I am here... blogging. hahaha... For the first time in my life, the clock seems running too slow... goodness... !!! Can I survive until tomorrow morning? Oh dear...

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