Whose?

It's sort of funny where everyone gave me an impression that the cell group is MINE. For a moment, I wonder what make them think that. After a good 3 weeks break (thank goodness I had some break), the cell group resumed last week (I was dragging myself for it) and it only had 4 of us. However, like I shared earlier, God blessed us indeed with a fruitful gathering. Some wonderfully asking for more and so although I have a very valid reason to cancel the cell meeting due to there is a evanglical meeting this Friday, I insist there's cell group gathering tonight. Some people asking for reason of why. My first reason is of course, cell group gathering and evanglical meeting are 2 different occasions and they are directed to different group of people. Evangelical meeting served 2 different functions to 2 different groups of people, i.e the christian, or a strong devoted christian and non-christian. It meant for non-christian to know the Christ and accept Jesus as their saviour and for christian to bring their loves one to know the Christ through this evangelical meeting.

Cell group however serves a totally different purpose. For our group which consist mostly what they themselves claimed christian, we are running cell group so to strengthen our relationship with all saints and with the Lord. It's NOT and NOT a TOOL for the cell leader to ENJOY his/her success. As a cell leader, I only know if I am successful when Jesus come again... whether I would be able to see you in heaven.

I know that people love to be weathy and powerful in this world. Being someone who is wealthy and powerful will means RESPECT from others. Let me tell you that's very wrong. I only see foolness in you if you do not know how to serve God with your wealth and your power given by the Lord because you are trying to store up treasures in the earth which will fade away once you die. To reminds you, you will die... and the most you can lives, I can give you up to maximum of 200 years. With your success, within 200 years, you can have whatever you want, do whatever you like, being wealthy, famours, powerful, even manage to sit next to the King, shake his hand, etc. etc. But still, you will die... and when you die.. if you have a Will, according to the Will, the moment you die, the Will will take effect, meaning to say, you won't have anything ANYMORE. When you entering into heaven (if you still eligible), it's ETERNITY... more than 200 years... it's FOREVER AND EVER.. and tell me... by then, you think you can TRY your very best to EARN somemore treasure in this evernity?

Church is no matter of yours because you can't EARN anything? Cell group is just a 'troublesome' committment and you rather join Rotary club or Lion club or JCI so that you can know more people and that they will give you more business? Giving to church to upgrade their sound system? Why so? they are not disco and they are not earning MORE if they have better sounds system. You have a wife to worry about, you have a cow to feed, you have so many commitments besides God and your everlasting world... because you WORRY.. worry about your future... but yet.. stupidly, you forgot... your life is NEVER in your hand. You cannot even control if you are born as a thin or fat body how can you, who doesn't know the future worry so much about your future?

Just to remind you, the cell group and the church is not MINE.. but it's my Father in heaven's. I have a very limited mind to judge you. May be you think God is happy about your decision today. Then go ahead. You are a mature christian and so ... be a real mature man and women, make your decision, bear with it yourselve. Don't blame me later on for not 'pursuading' you. I am always be reminded that, made your decision and bear with all sorts of consequences later due to your decision. May be you are too wealthy and that you can make your employee to bear with it...but there's no such thing in heaven.

I am still going to enjoy the cell group gathering tonight with a few others. I am sure we will have a good time tonight with the Lord. I always long for wonderful encounter and gathering with the Lord... As I speak on this, I am really sure that some of you only know God, but never encounter a relationship with Him and therefore, you really do not know what you are missing. I can't wait for tonight... hahahahaha....!!!

- whose? -

God is good!

I had a great weekend... with firstly a friend's visit... that had made me stayed up until 1am on Friday evening. But we had a great time searching for place to fill our stomach. As I was feeling too tired throughout the whole week, I had decided to sleep for the whole day on Saturday. So I silence my phones and I remember I woke up once to go to the toilet and thereafter when I got up and looked at the clock, I was shock. It's late. After taking some food and watched a movie or two, I brought camera and its equipment out for a good visit and photo taking at the beach. It was a rainy day but the sky was beautiful, so as the sun when it set. After about 2 to 3 hours of staying at the beach running around, I was exhausted after that. I went home, got myself rest and did some reading. It was a wonderful and relaxing day indeed. On sunday, I happen to went for a short shopping, ice-cream eating, comic books buying and so on ... and at the evening, my friends called and they picked me up for Coffeebean. Wow... it's indeed a relaxing weekend.

God is good. He knows when I need a rest and He knows what I need. Today is the 11th day of the month and I started to feel worry about my income for this month. I am praying very hard for some business to comes in and/or some legal fees to be collected. So I pray really hard that things get moving and that fees can be collected this month. God has been good. I managed to collect 2 fees today and I am praying for more to come soon.

And of course... God does know on what occassions do I need what kind of friends around me. I am just gladful that some of these friends 'appear' to and for me 'JUST ON TIME'. hahahaha... So, ya.. God is good all the time!!!

- God is good -

Weird...

Though we only have 4 persons (including me) attended cell last night but it was the greatest meeting we ever had for the year. We had lots of laughters, sharing, etc.etc. I have decided to sing some praise and worship that's not so familiar to them as I am seriously frustrated by singing the same old one again and again for a year. I couldn't stand it when thing is not changed for any better or good. How can that helped one to praise and worship the Lord? People are too familiar with the wording and that they started to take it to granted. People will start singing for the sake of singing and not praising and worshiping. Well... speaking of praise and worship, may be I should write something about it soon. I just hate it when I saw the musician and those who are 'singing' are just doing it because they have the skills. They do not even know and understand what they should do and what they are doing. It's saddening. When I recalled on similar incident years ago in my home town church, I remember that we only have a few whose heart were not right when it came to this ministries and immediately, we asked him to stop serving in this ministry until he/she has the right attitudes and heart and know the reason why he/she is in this ministry. I really wish that we do the same here. I would rather to have only 1 person serving in the team whose heart is right then a group of 8 and none has the right heart. God will not like or accept the music we presented to Him if we do not have a right heart. Most of us has the skills but skills is not what God is looking at. It's the 'sacrifies' and 'offering' that He is looking at.

So... I have difficulties grouping with people who doesn't have a right heart in serving God in this ministry. It's like I wanted to cross the boundaries to reach God but these people are preventing me from being there. Even if I am not serving in the ministry on Sunday, I just found it hard... it's like the music is not helping us come nearer to the Lord and praising Him or worshipping Him. Conclusion, the group has failed terribly in SERVING God and His people in this ministry.

Some thought playing a musical instruments and the skills they have is good enough.. but they have failed even to go beyond their current level of skills. They thought they are the best. They play the same pattent on every songs. They have failed to be in the presence of God and/or feel God when they play. None of them who is standing on the stage on Sunday is singing or following the Order of the service. When the church pray, they just stand there. When the church sings, they also stand there playing with their musical instruments. It's a pain to see such failure to praise and worship.

Some people gets closer to God when they are not serving by playing, but some do gets closer to God when we gets to serve Him in our playing. That's what I call, we use instruments to praise and worship Him. I consider the former one to be a failure in praising and worship God and the purpose of serving in the team is therefore not served.

The team suppose to be an encouraging to those who are not on stage, but at the end of the day, I do not know if this purpose is served. For the mature christian, we can praise and worship the Lord anyhow, but for the new christian, I am really not sure if they manage to be encouraged.

I really hope that the team would be strong spiritually in order to be part of the team to bring people into the holy of holy. I noted that many in the team has not strong spiritually and when they are not, how are we going to bring others into the holy and holy? It's saddening everytime when I think of it and everytime when I share on this. However, people are still being stubborn and didn't even want to take any steps in improving this current situation.

- weird & sad -