I can not remember when was the last time I had a really good rest. However, I do remember I couldn't even sleep well almost every single night. I know I am physically tired, but I just couldn't get my mind and soul and even heart to calm down and sleep. It seems like things that happen arounds me has bother me somehow. Now I wish I can have a good sleep after tomorrow morning matter in court. It's such a torturing nightmare ever since this case came in. It's nothing about illegality or anything. It is a simple case. But since it is SIMPLE as it seems, it makes my mind wander how 'simple' things can be when we saw it as no value.
I might not be in good position for this topic, but I do have some insight about it. Marriage. Many people think relationship, sex and marriage are something that HUMAN BEING can control. People even started to elaborate it as 'How OPEN are you to this matter'. The consequences of this has made the world has the perception that sex before marriage is alright as long as no body is hurt and that also means, divorce is fine if no body is hurt and that both parties are OK with it. After all, the process of filing for divorce if both parties agreed to it are just a JOINT PETITION. You will be amazed how many people did a 'survey' of the fastest way fo get divorce. Hence, when they go to their lawyer the first time, they normally also provides their lawyers whatever terms they have discussed upon about the maintenances, childr arrangement, etc. etc.
Recently, even the church thing sex before marriage is something NORMAL and therefore, people who 'committed' it should be FORGIVEN and it should be deemed as "NOTHING". People are taking things like this lightly, even in church. As my pastor stand firm in this matter and he took the chance to rebuke those who have done wrong, I heard many disagree with what he did. No doubt, people EXPECT the church is always forgiving, loving and merciful. However, they forgot the church is also a law centre of God who punishes those who did wrong. People are saying that we shouldn't cast a stone of those who did wrongly. It's in a way, to give them an excuse to continue to sin? As this issue goes on and on without stopping, I just hate but to bring out the issue of maturity to those whom critisis.
One good example is this. The stolen of my umbrella. I am now asking what the church will do once they found out who the theft is. Shall he/she be bring to the police station? We hide the issue? We forgive him/her? We make them confess publicly? or what?
I am just suprise to know that they weighted sin as BIG, SMALL and even MEDIUM. But they forgot that, God sees it only as SIN. My church members obviously has think that they control the church and not God who control the church. I started to realise that people in my church is making this church as a den of theft like what the bible said on Palm Sunday. They run the church as if they run a business centre. My heart was broken by this issue lately.
As tomorrow I will be attending a divorce hearing, my heart is even burdened as people are taking things too lightly.
I need some rest after tomorrow morning. I certainly need one.
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